Angsty Middle Schooler

I might write on this sometimes but I can't see me writing as much as I used to

And to this day,me and snake aren’t friends,the spaget touchers are still with me,and more and more people join either side each day

Even when I did go out it was just to run arrands,so I only went out with my friends and couple of times,but even then it was short-lived and boring,for the most part summer was boring for me this year more than last year,last year I actually did things and went out so it didn't feel bland

Ok ok,it's been months since my last update,but alot of stuff has happened in between those 2 posts,so I'll go back to posting regularly

Don't worry I'm not dead I just started focusing on YouTube more and that tired me out so much to the point where I couldn't even stay up this late to write more blogs I'm working on a project that's basically also a series,and I worked all morning today And I didn't exactly have enough time🤷🏻‍♂️ I'll post a follow up blog soon

But this person’s life is complicated,super complicated,mega complicated,thankfully we both go to the same school,and are GOING to the same school,so that’s good and that’s all for tonight

Alright,you all probably hate when I get on here on start talking about my crush,but this is some stuff that I,for some reason can't trust other people with Ever since I was forced to write a long paragraph that took me 6 min for my crush and then my friend would send it to her,we haven't talked AT ALL,and even if we did talk,it would end 2 messages later. She also keeps live-streaming on Facebook live,and keeps giving everyone honest opinions,so I hop on one of these live streams,and she starts off by giving me a rate,slowly she says "Rate......9" I'm satisfied with that,then she proceeds "Date.....Ummmm.....I don't know" WHAT I just went from a "maybe" to an "idk",real quick,obviously this isn't the only time that this girl has made me batsh-t mad,but this story was actually today,or June 13 for those of you who aren't awake this late or have a different time zone So today I sent a post on snapchat out to everyone,(including her of course) and I find out that this other dude sent the same thing out to everyone,and this is one of those post where you have to send it out to your story,and I was waiting for her to post MINE on her story,so I check,and she posts the OTHER dudes thing So hard out here for a loyal dude

Sorry I haven't been posting like I usually do,ever since I started YouTube,I've been working on that non-stop and because of that,I've slept a lot,I've been tired,waking up at 6-7 to record for the channel,and some of you may know,I usually post at night,around 10-11pm and I work all afternoon on these videos that I upload,and I'm left sleepy and sleep,if you can't find me here,then go to https://m.youtube.com/channel/UCQFVWpioZbiokd6lSi0FH2w

After rereading my blog,I remembered the reason why I wrote itto be different from other and tell my own individual storys,while I write each blog I thought I was being original,but like I said,after reading all of them again,I notice that the story telling idea has already been done,and while I was trying to be original,because I grew up in 1-4 grade not relating to anyone,I thought I would for sure be different,being the same while I'm not relating to anyone and I tried to be the same as other people,but everything I did was different,which brings me to today,because now I'm an unoriginal 12 year old while I'm trying to be original,but everything ranging from what I say,to even my youtube and blog content,has already been done,all my blogs were based of ideas that has been done millions of times,when I was little I always talked to my "friends" about the things that I enjoyed,while trying to get them to enjoy the things I do,and now looking back,I see that they were possibly lying just to make me feel better about the things I like,and now as a 12 year old,I'm still doing the same thing as other kids my age

I always keep my earbuds on in the car w/ 2 or more people just for the sake of not talking to anyone Literally,my Apple Music playlist is full of songs that I listen to almost everyday,of course,I'm still an elementary student,so I can't exactly use them around the school But on road trips I have them on,all the time,that's basically why I bought an iPod (I have a laptop now,so I'll start drawing comics on this blog) I never listen to music while I'm writing,some examples are like right now It doesn't affect me in anyway,but I feel like more ideas come to my brain as I'm focusing on the writing,which is the reason why I only post blogs in the night and not somewhere in the middle of the day Plus let's not forget school,so there's another 6 hours taken out of my life,but in between those 6 hours,We're not allowed to listen to music I heard from a teacher of the middle school that I'm going to,that we can use our earbuds for Advisory and/or around the halls when switching from class to class and what not Music saves me from terrible situations that I'm stuck in,I can assure you,if we ever meet,then you Atleast see me once with earbuds,not taking them off And that's it for tonight

There are some days where you're teacher either called in sick or had some sort of "Training" And because of that,you needed a temporary teacher or,as every one else calls them,a substitute Today I had a sub because my teacher was apparently sick,and she was a pretty chill lady,she let us play music in class,which was fun. There are also some extremely strict teachers or teachers that talk too much about they're past,I had a sub,which did both I'll give him a fake name,hmmmm,Mr.Affleck (it makes sense if you knew him) Anyways,this teacher served as a cop or something? I don't know,I wasn't paying attention,and when the topic of shooter games or anything remotely close came up,he always had a lecture for that I don't wanna tell his story's because then I'll feel like I'm the one in those scenarios,but it was ALWAYS a lecture One time we had to make a story and turn it into him,but when I was turning mine in (it was the story of when I got my PlayStation 4,you can read it if you scroll all the way to the bottom) I was about to get that easy pass,but then he says,"did you buy GTA?" I said no and that I bought Black Ops And he started talking about a story of him with his sons about him not getting them a PlayStation or Xbox because they're mostly shooting games But then,he was our sub last week,and we had to read an article about rap,and he started telling us even MORE story's about him and his wife talking about rap music to there sons See what I mean? If by any chance any teachers are reading this Just go on with the lesson,dude

As you all know,(if you read my blog),me and my friend were supposed to meet up with my crush and her friend Well it turns out that my crushes friend's grandma came an entire HOUR late to pick them up and to the park My friend considers it ditching,but I say that it wasn't there fault,also this story includes the couple (Leah and Suarez) If I ever did meet up with both of them with my friend,then that's fine,but if I was ALONE with my crush,then that's were the problem is Leah and Suarez are already a couple,so there's almost nothing awkward between them,but me and the crush,I'll make up a fake name for her,hmmmm,nah I'll just keep calling her the "crush" Me and the crush have so much catching up to do,I haven't seen her in almost 3 years and a lot has happened in between those 3 years 2 rejections,lots of friends helping me,3 failed meet-ups,and on top of that,she didn't even know I was going on Saturday,she thought it was just gonna be my friend that goes w/ her and Leah So I'm in a really awkward position with her,where as the couple are basically MEANT for each other

As I write this,my best friend will be trying to convince my crush to "go out" w/ me (let's be real,nothing before high school counts) For the time being,I'm gonna write some story's while I wait for a reply from my friend Today I was in class and since I just got glasses yesterday,everyone was getting used to the new me We were about to start a project but the teacher had to do something to set up,so the kids got to talk while she did this,my friend "Eyebrows" (if you've read "Ex-Best Friend" then your familiar) Eyebrows came over to my groups table to try my glasses At first I said no because another guy had try to run off with my glasses in the morning and since then,I didn't trust anyone with my stuff He said he'll tell my crush a story of when I saved his eyebrows or something and like the DUMB IDIOT I am,I agreed to it (just for a good laugh) And that's how I got convinced to let someone use my glasses,ok now here's another story About like 3 weeks ago,I went to my uncles house and brought Dragon Ball Xenoverse 2,just because I knew he was as big a fanboy as I was So I let him learn the basics,and,again Like the DUMB IDIOT I am,I told him he could keep the game for a week,he ended up only keeping the game for about 2 days,but in those 2 days,I felt so empty Xenoverse 2 covered up a HUGE hole in my Boredom,I mostly just spent 2 days watching DBZ abridged #CellGames (Not sponsored)

Considering I'm still in 6th grade,relationships don't count for kids my age So I won't be talking about MY relationships,but rather my FRIENDS (Don't worry,I got person to post this) Since Sunday,my friend has been dating this girl,we'll call her Leah,and my friends fake name will be Suarez So Suarez and Leah have been dating since Sunday,so they're basically starting out right? NOPE they dated about a month ago but Leah decided to break up with Suarez because they didn't see each other that much,but now that they're back together,they said that they were gonna meet up more And the first meet-up is at a mall by where I live,and guess who's coming w/ Leah? Yup,my crush So my friend basically came up with a plan,as to where I'm walking around the store casually,and they,quote on quote, "Randomly bump into me".Im all about this plan but hopefully,it'll work Anyways all Suarez has been talking about now is how she loves Leah and how she's all hers,personally I'm about 50/50 tired w/ all of it,but 50/50 isn't that much

No one close to me knows that I have I blog The only people I've ever told have either (A):Read my one of my blogs and never read any of the other ones again Or (B):Don't have Tumblr so they can't look at it And that's the one sentence Blog for tonight

This is my longest blog,thank you for the support over the past few months

I started going to the gym last Thursday (May 11th),and so far it's been a fun experience going Even though I'm only in 6th grade,I still managed to find a gym that let kids my age go to,I really do enjoy going there I've burned 360 calories in 2 days,to me,that's just a warm up,"Like and appetizer,or something smaller than an appetizer" -Goku Black,2017 Considering that I'm still technically an elementary student,I have to go with a parent or guardian,or rather I can't be alone there I am a literal sprinkler when I go there,it's surprising how much you sweat in 45 mins,my uncle always talks about how the gym relived his stress and stuff And now that I really realized it,then it's actually true,if you've never been to the gym,and you have stress problems Go,now