I'm Extroverted On The Inside!

when i first started this job 6 years ago, it has been instilled in me to not leave an entire line of customers to go on my break. and i just can't shake that, because nowadays the viewpoint of the desk from management is that it is immaterial, unnecessary. so go on my fckn break even if a busload of 18 customers are in line. screw everybody else. good customer service is partly about making the customer feel important, no? making the customer feel like i care? well, i can't do that if they (management) don't fckn care either.

i want safety and security. i want trust and fulfilled promises.

ya ever have somebody just tell ya a lie to make it seem like THEY did there damn job, but you find out that it's a damn lie, and they just don't wanna do this SIMPLE little thing.... here, here, here, lemme just fuckin do it for ya, don't bother tryna lift a damn finger

how do you stop caring about somebody you care about???

i miss you

what could've been. we had so many make-believe plans, ready to do together EVERYTHING once we met up again, or once we had enough money, or once the perfect opportunity arose. you were my future-maybe. we could've done it all! we were ready to conquer the world! or at least give it a hell of a try. we were great friends. what hurts the most is losing what might've been.

sometimes, i used to imagine cuddling with you, so i could fall asleep. i suppose i still could, but it just wouldn’t be the same.

i miss you. i’ve had such a tough week. i lost my best friend whom i loved dearly, and then broke it off AGAIN with my on-again-off-again whatever he was. i found out today that your obit will be in the paper next week, and your service will be a few days after that. that news has helped put my heart at ease, just a bit.

i don’t know how to deal. i’ve never lost somebody so close. i’m silently screaming and bawling as a tornado rips through my head.

my heart is broken. my best friend is gone. i miss him. but he can’t miss me back.