whatever I feel

i did not make a lockdown diary a habit so it did not continue

when it got easier, i didnt need to lean on a place to vent

the boy who breaks things makes me laugh, he does petty stuff

i pretend im above it but i still checked his instagram enough to know he had unfollowed me (i already had) and blocked me from his story (lol)

the boy who makes things better is the right person.

instead of pouring my energy into fixing boys, we are gently putting each other together

no pettiness, no jealousy, no juvenile behaviour

it is easy

i am happy

i forgot to write in here

because i was less broken so that’s nice

i have met a right boy for me

he treats me well, i am glad about that

different countries is a problem, especially because yaknow, quarantine is a thing so we’ll see

i am so lazy but i am also sick.. is that an excuse??

opened my emails and saw a frickity fuck ton of school work overdue whoopsies

this guy who has broken me for good a little (no im not sad maybe) has made a playlist filled with My Music from my hazy playlist

that made me very unsettled and weirded out

i wish he’d leave my life tbh

well im sick and also have my period so that was one hell of a comatose day

was nice to relax and watch some netflix - cheer is so good what the heck

kinda wish i had bigger dreams for myself and worked harder

for now, bedridden shall do

my cat was put down today

my throat is starting to get sore, and my nose was running. maybe that’s because i cried a lot so i’m not sure.

i miss my cat

im talking to a boy i think i like, he was nice to me

four more weeks is going to suck;

no wonder it’s the year of the rat because this s fuckin rats biz

hello everyone i have a new laptop

it is gold

i need to poo

i vomited three times today

my tumblr: hsUUUUaajrjaooLLksie grr angry