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Some could say 2012 was the golden era for Larry Stylinson, and I agree, but I have always felt like 2013 was the worst time for the boys.  I have some sad theories about 2013 that I thought I would share.  I think with This Is Us being filmed, and management cracking down after everything that happened after 2012 with Haylor and such, the boys were actually forced apart.  I do not think they were officially together most of this year, despite wanting to be.  I think they were together when they could be, but this year Harry started staying with friends often (thus Ben Winston’s story was born)  and really doing his own thing apart from the band.  He showed signs of jealousy and sadness more often than Louis, as was seen that time he threw a football at the back of Eleanor’s head:

This was also the year that Harry wrote a staggering number of songs, all with the same themes of longing and separation.  He wrote Don’t Let Me Go (self-released without 1D), Two Ghosts (saved for solo career), Happily, Something Great, Just A Little Bit of Your Heart (given to Ariana Grande), and possibly, I Love You (given to Alex and Sierra).  Every single one of these songs is about being in love with someone you cannot be with and hoping the one you love doesn’t let go of the love you have, and/or the overcoming obstacles to be with that lover.  

Several songs have imagery of separation.

“Seems like these days I watch you from afar” - Don’t Let Me Go

“I can’t touch what I see” - Two Ghosts

“We were meant to be but a twist of fate made it so you had to walk away” - Happily

“The script was written and I could not change a thing I want to rip it all to shreds and start again” - Something Great

Another common theme in his songs is the idea of sleeping or being together in a bed, as if night was the only time they were truly allowed to be together since they had to hide from the public, limit interaction on stage, and avoid each other in front the cameras.  

“This bed was never made for two” - Don’t Let Me Go

“I don’t care what people say when we’re together You know I wanna be the one to hold you when you sleep” - Happily

“One day you’ll say these words I thought you’ll never say You say we’re better off together in our bed” - Something Great

In addition to Harry writing these six songs, Louis wrote Strong, which contained quite a lot of similarities.  There are some other things about these songs that I want to save for an in-depth analysis of all of Harry and Louis’ lyrics throughout their time together in 1D and their solo careers, because the strong reoccurring symbolism and corresponding themes are overwhelming.  That post will take quite some time to put together.

That same year, when Harry wasn’t writing songs that clearly expressed what he was going through, he took the opportunity to show his love for Louis by serenading him and/or changing lyrics as often as possible.  One clear example was the end of 2013 on 1D Day when Harry sang all of Little Things without taking his eyes off Louis, and possibly changed the lyrics to “and all his little things.”  These moments were Harry’s small acts of rebellion an declarations of love.  He knew on stage or being filmed live that he could not be stopped or censored, while he may have suffered the consequences later.

Let’s take a moment to appreciate 2013 Harry. || Okay, this post could have been much longer, but 2013 is so sad that I will just leave this here as is.  That being said, don’t be sad.  2014 was a lot better:

Richie: Hey assholes, Richie Tozier here to bring you the latest of THE Losers Club

Bev: BOOOO!!!

Bev Cont.: Cut your hair Rich! You look like a dog!!

Richie: Wow thanks mom! Anyway. Today I decided it would be fun if we showed you mortals the content in our phones. So I guess we’ll start with my little, Eddie Spaghetti!

Eddie: Rich…I really don’t want to

Richie: Nonsense Spaghetti. Don’t worry, I won’t look at your nudes *wink* Now let’s see here.

Richie: Oh yes! Very nice Spaghetti Man, you have excellent taste in beauty. Bevvie and I are so hot in this picture.

Richie Cont.: *Unlocks phone* Let’s screen record while we explore Eds’ phone shall we? *turns screen recording on*

Richie Cont.: Jesus Eds…

Eddie: What?

Richie: *swipes left*

Richie Cont.: Is that Swayze?

Eddie: It sure is…he’s so handsome…

Richie: *smirks* not as handsome as me though right Spaghetti?

Eddie: Sure

Richie: Hmm…let’s make this interesting and look at your search history *clicks on Safari app*

Eddie: *Eyes widen* No Richie…please…please don’t…”

Richie: Too late

Richie Cont.: *Dramatic gasp* Eddie! You’re obsessed with Swayze.. *whispers* you know he’s dead right…?

Eddie: Yeah, fuck you.

Richie: *another dramatic gasp* MY little Eddie-Bear knows what a lemon fan fiction is???

Eddie: Shut up…I told you not to look at my history…

Bev: Why don’t we look at your history Rich? *Snatches phone from Richie’s pocket*

Richie: Bev wait…no…Bev please I beg-

Bev: Too late

Bev Cont.: Rich is this your picture from Hamlet?

Richie: Yeah…Bev please stop…

Bev: Let’s screen record *Turns screen recording on*

Bev Cont.: Wow Richie, Obsessed with Eddie much?

Eddie: What? *peeks over Bev’s shoulder

Bev: His homescreen is a picture of you.

Richie: *nervously* Yeah, I love my Eddie Spaghetti…

Bev: Time for a history check

Bev: How to talk to cute as fuck brunette boys and Small Brunette Twink gets Fucked-

Richie: THAT’S IT

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182nd day of the year.

It’s 12pm.