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Study for a self-portrait with a scrib. 3E 217.

It's midyear, time for pride!!!

Sounds like a simple question, but I really didn't know how to word it in a way that isn't endlessly long. Tamriel is a such a diverse world, of course it's citizens also express themselves in all kinds of ways. So, what's their gender? How do they express it? Their experiences, their feelings with it? Do they like to perform as a different gender and/or change their expressions of it?

What about their sexuality? I know Tamriel is pretty open about sexualities, but maybe they still had some unpleasant experiences or are uncomfortable with it.

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Shalor is kind of new, so I'm still building their backstory. The he/they pronouns came from his days as a Boethiah worshipper. They tend to wear very androgynous clothing as well but is also referred to as "Brother Shalor" when addressed by other Tribunal priests.

So, you have found my notes, studied the language of the Dwemer (I applaud your dedication), and are now reading my private journal with no regard for common decency.

I cannot say I wouldn't have done the same!

Since you are already here, I might as well answer some of the questions you might have.

A Dwemer? In the Third Era? Did you go to an Outer Realm, too?

No. I vanished along with everyone else.

But then how are you back?

I won't tell. Too dangerous.

Where have you been all these years?

That suggests I was. I was not.

Any plans for the future?

Not much to do but explore and learn what the world is like now. I barely left Bthanchend before... Well. I suppose I have a lot of sky to look at.

How are you taking all these pictures?

Where was your OC born, and where did they grow up?

How does your OC remember their childhood? Is this an accurate reflection of what their childhood was actually like?

If your OC could revisit their childhood, what would they want to change about it, if anything at all?

Describe three of the most important photographs your OC owns.

What is your OC's gender identity and sexual orientation? Is this also what they identify as in canon, or are they not (fully) aware?

How comfortable is your OC in their skin? Do they like who they are? What would they want to change about themself?

What is your OC's occupation?

What does your OC's family look like?

Describe a mundane day in your OC's life.

Does your OC have any physical scars? What is the story behind them?

What does your OC carry around in their pockets? What about their bag?

What is the worst thing that has happened to your OC? How has it affected their behavior, their health, and their life in general?

What is something your OC does (to others) that they would not like if others did to them? Are they aware that they do this?

Does your OC hold grudges? How good are they at letting things go? Do they believe in second chances?

What is your OC's fatal flaw?

Is there anyone your OC has lost contact with? What happened?

What are some of your OC's coping mechanisms during stressful or overwhelming periods in their life?

What are your OC's bad habits?

How does your OC handle preparing for and initiating a difficult conversation? How does the conversation itself go?

How quick is your OC to shift blame? Do they own up to their mistakes, or are they prone to start pointing fingers at others?

How does your OC handle criticism?

How good is your OC at apologizing, if they do this at all?

What is your OC like when they're angry?

What is your OC like when they're upset?

What is your OC's deepest desire? Would they ever ask for this?

How quickly does your OC reach their breaking point? What are they like when this point has been reached?

What are some assumptions others make about your OC? Are any of them true?

What does your OC think others are saying about them behind their back? Is any of this true?

What are three traits your OC has that can both have positive as well as negative qualities?

How paranoid is your OC? How does this affect their daily life?

Are there any places or people your OC is avoiding?

How does your OC handle rejection?

How does your OC handle jealousy?

What would be some of the signs your OC is starting to push people away?

If your OC had to kill someone, how would they do it? If killing is a near-daily occurrence to them, what is their preferred method?

Does your OC believe they deserve it when bad things happen to them?

What is the most common feeling or emotion in your OC's life?

What is the most recurring theme in your OC's nightmares?

What is your OC's pain tolerance like? What is the worst pain they have ever felt?

What is your OC afraid of?

Has your OC ever hurt someone, either physically or verbally?

How easily influenced by others is your OC?

What are common things your OC worries about?

Do others consider your OC to be scary or intimidating?

Does your OC keep their promises? Have they ever broken one before?

Does your OC carry any guilt with them?

If your OC had to pick a new identity and skip town, what would they come up with? Where would they go?

What would your OC do if they knew that this was their last day alive?

Does your OC fear death?

The Regressed Dream Ostinato Unrelated dream sequence. I like to think of Dagoth Ur molding his form seamlessly in dreams, he thrives and can achieve boundlessness in that space. This is also referencing voryns 7 siblings and my personal headcanon that he has taken pieces of his own body/ cloned himself to provide them a body to possess. In the middle is my nerevarine 1111, compulsively praying, still trying to resist the 3rd eye or temptation of power in front of him. close ups:

The first serious artwork after artblock. I propably don't post enough here for it to be noticed but after the last artwork I just couldn't bring myself to draw, so I took a break.

If I planed this one better I could propably make it have some symbolic meaning but there was no plan going in. I'm trying to change that and be more mindfull of what I'm drawing but eh, sometimes I just need to paint some naked mer.

I agree with the first three points. I'll even do you one better on your third point and add that, given House Dagoth's comberry brandy production, it's totally within the realm of possibility that they dabbled in slavery.

But on your last point, I'd like to propose that he absolutely did wield Nerevar's affection but like a weapon you're fond of, essentially. He genuinely loved Nerevar but also used their love to further goals he thought they shared. That's what I meant about making the traitor and the loyal servant aspects coexist, though I could have expressed it better. I also believe that his alliance might have only been to Nerevar and not to the First Council or Resdayn. I think that kind of ties it up nicely with the part of his in-game note that says "much of what I did was at your command, at great cost to myself, and my honor." He orchestrated a war to give Nerevar what he thought he wanted: more power and a land free of anyone but Chimer. You can even say that the plan he has in Morrowind is the extension of this ancient one, now with the Nerevarine and made worse by his meddling with the Heart of Lorkhan.