Musings of a Dreamer

when I was dying

I think it is really fucked up

to start a sentence like this

everyone complimented me

on slowly turning to ashes

'You look so pretty dear'

they said

and I heard

'try harder'

when someone is suffering

from lung cancer

You don't light them a cigarette

You don't

You do not hand a suicidal person

a loaded gun

unless you want them to die

so why did you?

why did you handed me a gun?

what was I supposed to do with it?

besides pulling the trigger

when you are sixteen

and at some point

we all are

nothing is as easy as dying

without anyone noticing

dying isn't like it is in the movies

a 60 second sequel

with blood and wounds and lots of noise

it is a quiet long-term-process

You do not recognise the dead

I’ll sound really cute when I’m moaning your name

I’ll be more sensitive and easier to torture afterwards

I’ll show you exactly how grateful I am

I’ll promise you anything in exchange for permission

I’ll look really even more pathetic when my knees give out and I’m collapsed in front of you

You can tell me what a dirty slut I am for liking this so much

I’ll be constantly wet so you can slide your cock into me at any moment you’d like

I’ll be crazy needy for you giving you all the attention you desire and stroking your ego

I’ll be so desperate and eager to please I’ll do any dirty thing you ask of me

My brain will become mush and all I’ll be able to think about is pleasing you and the burning desire between my legs

#tip 1; Educate your partner about the illness.

#tip 2; Be honest and open with your feelings.

#tip 3; Let them know what makes you comfortable and uncomfortable.

#tip 4; Communication is VERY important.

#tip 5; Expect that sometimes some of their actions won´t meet your expectations, but don’t forget that they are trying they´re best and they love you.

#tip 6; If you feel like your partner is overstepping a boundary or moving too fast, let them know!! If they truly, truuly love you they will respect your space and give you the time you need.

#tip 7; When in an abusive situation, do not be afraid to call the person out on it or ask for help from a third party. Even if they are kind and caring towards you sometimes, all the abuse isn´t worth those times of pain and torment.

#tip 8; Learn to recognize that sometimes you might go too far. It isn´t our fault that sometimes we can be REALLY mean and nasty towards our significant other, but that doesn´t completely absolve us from the responsibility of said action. So do not be afraid to, once you´ve calmed down and/or feel more stable, approach them and apologize. Explain to them that you didn´t mean it, and it was just your brain being an asshole again.

#tip 9; that also applies to when we are being manipulative.

(( if you reblog this, feel free to add more tips! It would be nice to have a big list floating around on Tumblr with tips for everyone to make the most off