Pastel Aesthetic

I need a life

Joji

And now I'm sad And now I'm a mess And now we high That's why I left

My mind is looking up but my life is looking down

I promise that you'll never be lonely

Maybe i'm addicted to unconsciously fucking up my life or maybe i'm addicted to trying to give myself more and more reasons to die, but damn i'm good at my fucking addiction. But i'm so sorry to anyone who cares, especially you, whom i care for most. I'm so so sorry that my addiction affected you, that it hurt you more than me, because that was never the point. There was no point, not consciously at least. I regret it more than anything, and i honestly have since the day of. I own up to the wrongs i've made, the fucking asshole i've made myself into is me now, that's all i can expect you or anyone to see. i can't get mad if you don't see through the fucking piece of shit person i've put in front of me, as a mask, or not even a mask. What i'm fucking becoming in this cocoon of the damned, a piece of shit. i'm such a piece of shit for the things i've done to you. And i'm so so sorry that i've put you in the path of destruction i cause, you're the last person i wanted to get hurt, but alas that's where i usually fuck up the most. I love you

loving me is all you need to feel like i do

Wait a minute, cause i've been living more like a piece of shit without you

Look out i'm on a search for self destruction

I'm running out of ways to poetically admit that i hate myself for still loving you

been trying hard not to get in trouble but i got a war in my mind so i just ride

aha well thank you lovely

love sinks and hope floats in a river of tears