nova ! TW

quick reminder that “recovering” from an eating disorder by just replacing it with a different one. isn’t recovery.

ed bitches on halloween watching everyone have buckets of candy: 😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐

how does my mum not know i have disordered eating yet omg lmao, she literally got me a jaw of pickles instead of candy bc she knows i’d like them better 💀

it’s one of the best feelings when someone out of the blue mentions that you look like you’ve lost weight 😍

i was in a new class today and they asked what i liked doing in my spare time.. how do i say starving myself without sounding crazy 😀

just letting y’all know nerd ropes are 90 calories 👀

ughh the thing i hate the most about fasting is the headaches <\\3 i’m in pain

i have a fear, that one day i’m going to get to a desired weight and then not being able to control myself, weither or not that’s losing more and more weight or gaining double the amount back it’s a truly terrifying fate that i may have.

i had a really weird dream about me waking up one day, body checking in a mirror and suddenly i was weirdly skinny?!? as in my waist was literally the size of wrist ? and i remember how freaked out i was that i could rap my whole hand around my stomach, but then i woke up 😞

my braces are hurting my mouth rn so y’know what that means 😏 excuse to not eat anything other then liquids 😙

who else wants to die rn lol

i hate when cooking trends happen, bc now when i scroll on my tiktok fyp all i’m seeing is reallyyyy bloody good looking cookies 😒😒😒

crying, my cousin made me cinnamon rolls and i ate them because she kept saying how long they took to make. ughhh one of the worst things that come with an ed is the huge amount of guilt literally surrounding every single thing i do 😒

no joke once my family told me that it was like my “thing” that i never finished my meals.. mkay..