Honestly, I’m at my best when my ed is at it’s worst. My room is clean, I dress nice, I wash my face more, I whiten my teeth, I wear makeup, I do my hair. For some reason the only thing that pulls my out of my depression spiral is my ed and the only thing that pulls me out of my ed is my depression. Idk if anyone else feels like that? Idk I just always feel better when I’m losing weight and excersizing and not eating. Idk maybe it’s my body thinks I’m finally being healthy? But I’m not? So… idk, it’s just really weird.

This. Yessss

concept: me but 35 pounds skinnier

I just wanna starve in peace why does everyone keep offering me food i don’t fucking want it

Imagine grabbing bones instead of fat

every day I step on my silly little scale and want to jump off my silly little roof

my least favorite part of having an eating disorder is the constant arguing and bargaining in your head. racing thoughts all the fuckin time like, “okay I’ve had 75 calories today. I can have a banana and still be under 200. wait, 1200 is still considered restriction. how much would I lose this week with a daily deficit of 500 calories? I can do that. I’ll still lose weight. but not as much as if I fasted. no. just have nothing. you could lose 3.5 lbs. this week! just have nothing. people do it every day. just have a fucking banana. you won’t even be at maintenance. but what if it triggers a binge? think about your jawline. why don’t I just have everything I want and purge? what percentage can you get back up when you purge? hey google…” AND IT NEVER STOPS.

pretty sure i’ve reblogged this already before but it’s just so accurate

this is literally so fucking accurate. my brain will always tell me shit like “just have a fruit and dont log it” but bitch i know what i did!

the accuracy is astonishing

Getting back into restricting is honestly the best feeling in the world. It makes you feel like you FINALLY have control over yourself again.

raise your hand if you have ever been personally victimized by calories

The fact that i cannot lose 40 lbs in one day? Homophobic

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I want to be all skin and bones, but I also want to be soft and have curves. I want my thighs to be squishy enough for my boyfriend to sleep on, but I want them to be small enough for him to wrap his hand around. I want my collarbones and cheekbones to be sharp and noticeable, but I want my cheeks and my lips to be soft. I want to be made of honey, and I want to be made of glass.