paper, coffee and her

I don't tend to post artwork made by me. But I just felt like doing it for a change. :)

What do you think?

Paper: Prints of two of my digital artworks. One's a journal cover art I made for my boyfriend, and another is my April Self Portrait of the month.

Hi! :)

It's been the longest time. Hope you're well.

In the last few years, I haven't been able to finish (reading) books. I have always been a really slow reader, but I do wish to finish. This year, 2026, I picked a light read, and I finished it in like 4-5 days. I was so happy, I told everyone, in my life, I mean, I told everyone. I thought I could read more, so I picked another light book and then another one that was slightly more serious, which went well, and I managed to read one more. So as of 27th March 2026, I have read four books. And bought about five more in these days, updated my personal reading list, Goodreads list and gave my shelf of unread books a glance. I tried to read one of the books from there, but didn't like it. Books that I was reading before these four are still on standby. I also visited a new library in this new city, and it was beautiful. It's just really far, so I don't know if I will be able to go there much.

Random information: My big brother said a long time back, and I believe it like a fact- "There's nothing called over-reading and over-writing."

Paper: Books - Days At The Morisaki Bookshop by Satoshi Yogisava,More Days At The Morisaki Bookshop by Satoshi Yogisawa,

Before The Coffee Gets Cold by Toshikazu Kawaguchi,The Stranger by Albert Camus.

Hey :)

Paper: 2025 Planner.

I didn't feel ready to post.

But I know I have been wanting to.

So, here.

In my part of the world, it's night and I am going to sleep. I wonder where you are and how. So many people, so many lives, so many stories.

If you cry to sleep *pat pat*. If no one acknowledged your moment of success *pat pat*. If you turned to see a glimpse of someone again but the person's gone *pat pat* . I hope you get a hug today. I hope someone makes you happy today. I hope you feel free. I hope you like what you did. I hope you get a good laugh. I hope you have a blanket for the cold. And there's no war inside the house. And there's no war outside. No war around you. Less wars inside you. I hope.. you are safe.. I am so sorry.

Take care, I hope you're not alone. :)

If you are *pat pat*. I'd want us to believe it's temporary and I'd wish for us to strongly hold on to the hope for a better tomorrow.

Sounds so politcian-ish, haha.

But. I hope you find peace and happiness.

I have no idea how I reached here.

Goodnight.

Paper: "The Body Keeps The Score" by Bessel van der Kolk.

Do you like reading? What are you reading these days? I would love to talk more about reading and books. :) Maybe soon. Maybe we can connect over books and coffee.

Take care and have a beautiful day, stranger. :) 🌻

Paper: Very many notebooks and books, a lot of paper in the pictures.

But I am reading the book - The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk.

Coffee: That's a complicated one.

Thoughts?

Paper: Dotted notebook, pattern coloring continues.

Hey! :)

How're you doing, today?

I wanted to share something. I have been struggling with a question for a while now. Many times I don't want to drink coffee or am not drinking coffee, but I don't take a picture or write a post here because I feel like I am being untrue to myself, deceptive to a viewer here or not being authentic to the title.

At times, I even think of quitting coffee for a longer time but I'm scared to lose this blog.

The feeling of losing something a person has associated their identity with, for a long long time makes one feel unanchored and lost.

There's guilt because I want to take pictures with my chamomile tea!

I know it's not that simple and I do want to simplify it, give me a while, I will think through this, or go for it, I'll do something.

I can also accept both parts of my life, I mean, of course, I will have coffee around too.

I just don't want to feel like I'm betraying my blog or a viewer or coffee or me. It's a lot of responsibility I just took here that I don't need to... Maybe I should just care about the 'me' part. Ugh. Let's see.

Do you have any such feelings or dilemmas?

And does it hurt to let a new thing enter and let an old one leave? I am sure it does, but I mean related to coffee (I guess)...

It's paper, coffee and her... Hmm.

Paper: Dotted notebook.

Hi!

Happy new month! Happy October! 🍁

How're you doing today? :)

I am sooo irritated with shifting around with my work stuff here and there in the house because the AC in my room hasn't been working for a few days. I am in my brother's room today/ right now. Took me 1000 years to set up.

For paper, all I want to share is the paper I put between the screen and the keyboard of my laptop. Do you do that? I don't want impressions of keys' borders to imprint on the screen. I would prefer thinner foam sheets but I have easier access to A4-sized plain sheets especially when one gets torn apart. Do you do this? What sheet do you use?

Also, I'm gonna breatheeee consciously, deeply, with my eyes closed for a few minutes after posting and calm down.

Paper: Laptop paper, 3 notebooks in the background.

Coffee: Cold Coffee Nescafe Gold.

New dress so added "her" as well.

Hi! 🌻 :)

How often do you change the set-up of your table? Just curious. :P

Mine ranges between 1 and 10 times a month.

Does that affect your mood? Does your mood affect it? I'm sure it all correlates.

How are you today? :)

I feel ok today. It's better than many days and worse than many but better than mannyyy.

I know it has only been a few awake-hours, but I think I might just have an ok day. :)

I'll pray/wish for good and would be happy to land on ok. :)

Wow.. I am so happy about this.

Anyway.

Oh, by the way, I had to reduce my caffeine intake drastically for some reasons, so it's almost half of what it was, since about 5 days. It's interesting, I have mixed feelings about it. I don't know exactly how my body is reacting to the change (because many things overlap and cause and effect is not very clear) but I know it's a good idea and I had to do it, so well, let's.

I have been going through a wonderful-painful-skin-shedding-new-being-coming-out transformation since July.

September has been tough as I took up a huge challenge and then some more, emotional and physical and I am excited and scared, apart from general sadness. Yes, I still cry every now and then, and yes, I still wake up with a heavy heart and don't want to get up and don't get up easily, and yes, I feel lonely but I'm 1. not in the worst phase I've ever been in. 2. going through a brilliant part of my journey.

Hmm. Huff.

I'll do the most I can every day, and a little more than the most I can pull off without pain. Stretch a bit.

Hmm. And, I rest more too.

Ok, lalala.

Again, how are you?

New tumbler by the way. Mother's not a fan of how many cups, tumblers, and bottles I buy essentially to drink just one drink - Coffee. :P :D :)

Ok, see you later!

You, have a good day! :)

Paper: Doodles on the last pages of the planner. Grided notebooks are so fun! :)

Hi.

Paper: Planner.

You'd think books with fewer words would be a quicker read.

They are just more finished stories in a lesser number of pages.

Each line is a quote - a lot of complete thoughts.

Clicking from the bedside today.

Paper: Book - Writing on Water by Mooji.

Hey!

Slightly late, but happy new month everyone!

Paper: Small sketchbook, notes on the pin board.

My brother gifted me this notebook 2 years back and I've been writing little notes in it. Whenever I think of something or read something somewhere and like it - to remind and empower myself I write it. I like to write in the present tense and first person, like - "I am complete." or "I am not lost.". No 'maybe's and 'can's - just 'is's and 'am's.

Since I have already decided who I am or what I do, what someone else believes doesn't matter.

If I read even one page and sit with it and breathe in deeply, internalising it, I feel something positive and strong. It also hurts, I feel vulnerable.

Some pages irritate me and as I grow I might cancel some notes.

If I sit and read through all the notes, visualising, imagining, and believing each one, it feels like meditation and praying. I feel confident, I feel grateful and I feel strong. There is a tinge of faith and trust towards.. direction currently unexplored.

On some pages, I am also reminded of what is challenging for me and that I can totally overcome that and I AM overcoming that.

Almost all the notes remind me that I am in control of myself and my life.

In the beginning, I cried a lot more while reading or saying these notes out loud. (Oh! For a long time, I had written only the first three lines in my keep notes. Then this notebook found its purpose. :) )

Khair, it has gotten easier to read the notes and I love that.

It is a long video even though I sped it up. You can read all the pages and even if you spend just 10 seconds, we'll both feel better. :)

Is it all legible? I wonder.

Thank you and you take care. :)

Ooo, I just thought of some more notes.

And an important one - "I am not perfect".

Paper: Little blue golden notebook.

A new my-corner in this world.

As I say this, I'm thinking of all the people who might be feeling the same way and calling it their corner too. :)

It's a public space after all.

Paper: In the bag. :P

It's been so long. I've been so lost.

So many times I took pictures to post here. Tried to push myself. Hmm.

I guess posting right now is something I can be proud of. I guess for now, this much is ok.

Showing up.

Paper: 2023 Planner continuing to 2024, small pocket diary for daily to-do lists. :)

Yep. Long lonnngg time. Hi. :)

Explored a new place. Might go there more.

It's been some difficult weeks. Months. I hadn't opened my planner in so long. And wasn't going out much either. At least not alone.

Anyway. Hi. :)

Hope you're doing well.

Oh also, I have been using my iPad more, so paper and coffee weren't always there together.

I was working on my website when I clicked this photograph. Revamp. Exciting. :) And super delayed. :P

And a long long process. Have to add and change categories in about 260 blog posts and till now I've done 50.

I like it here.. hmm. Interesting.

It's so so hot here. Oh yeah, the cafe was extremely hot too, I will need to reconsider it then.

The coffee was cold though. Hence the tissue. :D

Anyway. Nice to be here again. I'll try to post more consistently. Since I just discovered it, I like it here...

Paper: Planners.

Coffee: Trioccino from Blue Tokai. (No, I don't know the pronunciation.) :P

Ok. See you.

Soon, hopefully.

Does using a scale in origami count as cheating or something? :P

Thanks to my brother for the beautiful sheets.

This photo is a bit old now.

But origami has been helping me deal with the headspace I'm in currently.

I feel too tired to talk further. I just really really wanted to upload this before the image and the experience becomes obsolete.

Also uploading pictures from other moments in life, I was trying to make pictures with similar color palettes come together. Something something.

Oh.

A tip maybe, from my very little experience w origami paper:

When you're folding to make a corner into like a tip type of thing, folding like triangles.. uh.. let me try to explain again... SO. Strike that, yeah, so.

When you're trying to fold - to make any one corner meet another, it is helpful to focus on placing the edges and the angles correctly instead of gazing at the corners and basing your fold on them. It is much more seamless, and accurate and lesser effort if you just focus on the edges meeting correctly. The corners come out to be cleaner.

It is helpful even more so, in case you're trying to fold AT the corner. I mean: Suppose you are making a fold and the corner has to be folded to meet the same corner, so, some edge is being folded to form a triangle. Imagine the bottom corner of a cone - and the paper is flattened - that's the 'corner fold' I'm talking about.

(I'm quite interested in knowing if anyone understands this without pictures, so do tell, seems like a fun challenge at this point.)

PS: It would be hilarious if you make all the effort, understand what I mean and then realise or think: that's so obvious!

:D

Paper: Origami bird. I've been referring to it as a sparrow for my joy. :)

Coffee: Starbucks hot mocha, one evening.

See you! Have a great day ahead.

(This is obviously a write-up of multiple days ^)

How are you today by the way?

I've been quite self-absorbed.

I wish to ask a loved one how he is, I'd like to know.

Ok. Meanwhile, you be kind! And to yourself as well! :)

And a reminder: