Panterdjuret's artstuff

Also, this is ten months old, and I can see I’ve made progress since then, so that’s really encouraging!

A birthday present I drew for Swanbear!  It's a hermit shadowkin inspired by his aardvark fursona Louie. Canonically all hermit shadowkin have red eyes, but considering I created the species I figured I could take some artistic liberties with them for a friend, especially since I wanted to make it usable as a hermit shadowkinsona as well. <3 This currently makes Swanbear the only person beside me that has a hermit shadowkinsona, so it's actually a pretty good birthday present, I think.  Even should I eventually offer these as adoptables or similar, he will still have been the second one to have one ever, which makes him super cool. <3                  

For an art trade with Swanbear who likes tea and likes tea a lot, of his aardvarksona Louie who also likes tea.  I don't think any further comments are necessary, because tea! Anyway, this was great fun to do and I hope to be able to do more art trades in the future.  I learnt so much about aardvarks while looking for references of them and now I share the aardvark love, so that's really exciting.  Expect to see more aardvarks from me in the future!

Since my public Twitter handle is Hermit Shadowpao after the hermit shadowkin I started wondering what a hermit shadowpao would look like, and I drew this.  This is a hermit shadowpao. It was the first time I thought that they might wear things they like to show more personality.  This one wears things to symbolise the things I find most important in life: a bell (for music), a book (for reading), a teacup (for tea), and a feather pen (for writing).  They have also painted the skull they wear with red markings, one of which is a paw inspired by how I sign things. This became an accidental fursona, not that I complain.

Drawn as comfort art, because good grief did I need some comfort art.

It was angrier then than hen I read it now.  And my microphone is awful  Also, while trying to record this I was constantly interrupted by cats, so that didn’t help.  But there you go.

The bird depicted is a Banded Sheely.

A while ago I made this very short comic for a dear friend of mine.  I just thought maybe I should post it here as well.

So here, enjoy Tom being fed to a bunch of dogs, inspired by bear-baiting. While bear-baiting is deplorable and awful, I'm all for Tom-baiting, because it's decidedly not awful. Just release the hounds. Let them feast on his damn bones. This is based on a story I still haven't written. The title is a quote from a person in it. This is much funnier if one knows just how much Tom hated dogs. I love poetic justice.

After I had drawn all those sketches of a bunch of Protectors being devoured by a giant terrorkitten, I told a dear friend of mine that I really wanted to draw a giant terrorkitten trying to devour Steward Sebastian, and he encouraged me. So I did it. Direct all your blame towards him in case you feel bad for this most unfortunate terrorkitten. I have a lot of feelings about this thing: One is that trying to draw consistent faces when one is truly faceblind and one can't even imagine faces (I really can't even imagine faces, and when I do manage at all they are in constant flux) is really bloody difficult. I think that with time I will be able to draw very good faces, but since I have no idea how faces work and can't imagine faces I'm not sure if I will ever be able to learn how to draw consistent faces. I hope that perhaps I can learn some technical consistence and learn how to 'cheat'. I'm starting to really like drawing human people as well, so I hope I can learn tricks to keep people recognisable. But since I can't even recognise most faces I'm scared I won't know if I get faces 'right' or not. A second is: God, Stewards are terrifying and I'm not happy with how drawings and comics can't even begin to convey the sharpness in a displeased Steward's words or tone of voice. While I can't even imagine faces, I know exactly what Steward Sebastian sounds like. I can easily imagine and hear his voice in my mind. I know what his hands look like and all the small gestures he makes with them and how he holds his dear bone china coffee cups. And I know that a displeased Steward has a presence such that if this was an RPG their Presence stat would need their own rules and scales. (I sometimes jokingly tell people that Steward Sebastian could probably single-handedly avert the apocalypse itself by just telling the Four Horsemen that mankind wasn't done yet and that they would have to wait for a while longer, and they would probably slink off in shame.) A third: That terrorkitten should consider themselves lucky that they caught Steward Sebastian, who is old and experienced and very safe and secure in himself and his abilities and incredibly difficult to scare (one can basically only scare him by threatening other people; by the Council does he care about other people), and not some younger and more inexperienced Steward who would probably have taken a giant terrorkitten about to eat him as a real threat and gotten terrified and utterly destroyed them without warning. Steward Sebastian can afford to be reasonable and give warnings. That terrorkitten is probably more than ready to leave in peace in the end, and is probably considering taking up the vegan lifestyle. I can't blame it. I'm terrified of Stewards and would rather eat my own leg than try to eat one of them. They're most definitely the scariest things in these woods, and I would never raise my paws or claws against one. When I was doing the lineart for that last panel, my mind went: "It's not really 'bowing down' if you're just cowering in terror," which I thought was very fitting. One does not bow to an annoyed Steward; one just cowers in terror and try to let him know one has realised one's mistake and one will never repeat it and show with one's entire being please don't hurt me please don't hurt me please don't hurt me pl Anyway, on the whole I really love this one and I will make a digital colouring of this eventually, but not now. I'm glad to know that Steward Sebastian would not let the terrorkitten pose enough of a threat to come to harm. Steward Sebastian would care even for a huge monster trying to make a meal out of him. It's just the kind of amazing person he is. I love him for it as much as I'm furious at it working out for him, but it's not like his life is all roses and sunshine. He works very hard for it. This entry is already far too long, so... I just hope you enjoy this short comic thing.

I just felt like drawing a huge terrorkitten nomming a bunch of Protectors. So I sketched about seven. Then I decided to just do quick lineart, just keeping it sketchy still. Then I figured I should just add some quick colour and then suddenly it was ten to eight in the morning and *internal screaming intensified* I really enjoyed this. I'll make more. I still have a bunch to do lineart of. At some point I will add blood to some of these. The Protectors seem much less enthusiastic, for some reason. They're not all that thrilled at being someone's next dinner; it's in their nature to not want to be eaten. Not that there is much they can do about it in this case. They shouldn't have seemed so inviting. It was their mistake. This is still really funny to me. I'll never get tired of this.

While the Sheely is not a bird to be considered aggressive it has very long, sharp talons and a very sharp beak one should not take lightly.  The Sheely is a fair bird and will often strike down on those who mob other birds for suspicious or cruel reasons.  For those who earns the Sheely's favour and trust it's a very loyal bird and it will defend them too, no matter of what species they are.

Thank you, dear friend, for making this.  Accept this drawing, with my eternal gratitude.  <3 

Since I have been told that this is a real, valid thing people actually do and not just me being strange, next time it happens I will take plenty of screenshots of what I find there!

I decided to try to draw a portrait of a human Steward Sebastian, considering he's supposed to actually be a human and all. Still couldn't resist throwing in a hermit shadowkin youngshade on his shoulder, figuring that it wouldn't really be Steward Sebastian unless he had at least one monster around him. I wish I could say it fits the mental image I have of him, but I'm faceblind (really, it's really bad), and I literally can't even imagine faces. I'm not joking. In my mind, people don't have faces. Not even friends. It's really strange, but just how things are for me. I'm still very pleased with this one. I should really draw more human people.

I figured I needed to put all my immense gratitude down on paper somehow, and this is the result.

I was in need of some comfort art, so I did an experimental colouring of an older sketch, because I find Steward Sebastian very comforting and this is an adorable thing.  If I was more of a Protector I would feel annoyed and embarrassed at liking a Steward so much, but now thankfully I’m not so I’ll just shamelessly enjoy every moment of it. One of the things I've been doing a lot do to amuse and calm myself lately is thinking about a terrorkitten who has made their home in Steward Sebastian's Agency, and their adventures and misadventures there. I drew this thing based on the idea of them doing that normal cat thing of waiting for their human to wake up to feed them. For some reason this seems so much more terrifying when the cat in question is a three metre long, venomous monster creature, but always trust a Steward to keep calm even when waking up to a massive amount of teeth an inch from his face. Also, always trust a pao with drawing one of her fursonas in bed with a person/character she admires and loves and it still being entirely innocent. This will always amuse me too for some reason.