Questions that I recently asked myself or questions that I saw on my notebook and then decided to answer some:
1.Β Β Β Β Β Β How will you describe yourself?
I would describe myself as someone whoβs trying to live in the middle. Iβm not hitting rock bottom nor striving for success. Just the barest minimum of living life. I think to myself, maybe Iβll be a corporate slave for the rest of my life because I do not want to start a business, or make myself the CEO. I wanted to be a follower, a slave, for the rest of my life. I donβt have the directions to tell myself where Iβm going that is why I am letting others dictate what I should do.
I donβt have anything that I like, nor do anything, in particular. Itβs like Iβm just here, living, for money, so I can spend it on a temporary happiness until that happiness fades and then I wait for my next paycheck so I can spend it on temporary happiness.
But I know, I should find the purpose of my existence on things that are not too extravagant. Maybe my existence is important because Iβll be a home to some dog Iβve never met or the person whoβll remind things to people. The little responsibilities that I do should probably give me some sort of purpose.
2.Β Β Β Β Β Β Describe one of the best days you have recently?
My family and I went to a park. We bought food and then ate it in this lot where we parked our car. It was nearby the lake or beach? It was a mixture of it and then we took photos. I had fun because we were all in a good mood and the air was good. It slaps cold air on your face.
3.Β Β Β Β Β Β List all the things that make you happy today, big or small.
Drive to work
Chips
Watching Netflix
Listening to a new song by a band
Looking out the window
Reminiscing about the times I went out with my boyfriend 4 days ago
4.Β Β Β Β Β Β How do you feel about your body?
I feel insecure about it all the time. I want to be slim, but then again that process is hard and I get lazy. But I know Iβll get to my target weight someday. Iβm eating very little, I donβt even know if these are nutritious anymore which definitely defeats the purpose of slimming down. I feel like if Iβm not thin, Iβd lose my physical beauty. Feeling hungry seems right and an empty stomach feels pretty.
7. Describe a life changing moment.
When I finally made terms with myself that everyone dies and we wonβt see them anymore, ever again. No matter how you ask God or the heavens above to extend your term, or to keep you safe, death will be inevitable if the grim reaper is in front of you. That is why making my decisions are based heavily on death. Will my dead self be grateful about this decision? Will I be able to find peace in this decision on my death bed?
8. What is going well with your life right now?
My familyβs relationship. Thatβs the only thing Iβll say that will be going well without them ever leaving Β me. The fact that a relationship could end or friendship could end is still present, so I taught myself to never rely on others especially to people thatβs not my family.
2024 ME: Questions that I recently asked myself or questions that I saw on my notebook and then decided to answer some:
Answering these questions after like three years. This is why I love putting out me answering journal prompts or questions because I get to be grateful of where I am today. So hereβs me and my 2024 self answering:
How will you describe yourself?
I would describe myself as being kind to others and being kind to myself. Also exploring things just because I can and exploring it with fear in my heart and mind. I surprise myself with all the things I have done here since I moved abroad. I ventured a lot on different situations where I was so afraid and anxious but I pushed through even with fear. They do say that the first thing to courage is stepping in even if you are afraid. That, I think, is what my life motto is these days.
2. Describe one of the best days you have recently?
When we went to Fujairah. It was a road trip and the scenery was just so beautiful and seeing the mountains and trees and camels and donkey (yep, a donkey casually beside the road) was healing. Road trips are very healing especially if you get to see what mother nature has built.
3. List all the things that make you happy today, big or small.
I feel happy today because I am excited to read or start a new series. I have been getting into enemies to lovers trope. Read fourth wing but I feel like the romance was too corny. Loved the plot but I wish the main couple was lessβ¦.corny.
4. How do you feel about your body?
I feel like shit. As usual. It is so weird because I noticed that my watch was fit. It was fit and my watch had an allowance and I was panicking because that meant I gained weight. But it was just sticky thats why it stuck and rush of relief went through me. Still really trying to love my body because every time I look in the mirror, I wish I was thinner. I gained like 10 pounds since I moved abroad but everyday, I teach myself to accept it and lose weight healthily. I always do like crash diets and stuff, but im really preventing that from happening again because I wont let this get in the way of enjoying the moment.
5. Describe a life changing moment.
Moving abroad. Breakup. It was TOUGH. All the plans you thought you will have in the future was destroyed in a single decision. But I feel like it was the best thing that happened to me. The break up happened three months ago. Moved abroad eight months ago and I have grown SO MUCH as a person. I have learned so many experiences and hear life stories from different people. In Godβs time.
6. What is going well with your life right now?
My job, profession, my relationship with myself, my relationship with my sister, my mom, and communicating with others.
Half of the Year ME: Questions that I recently asked myself or questions that I saw on my notebook and then decided to answer some:
How will you describe yourself?
I would describe myself as someone that is willing to take the risk. Iβm trying to talk much more and trying to not be intimidated by my coworkers or someone higher with authority. I fail a lot on trying to mask my fear with smile but that is the point. To just practice and practice until you get the hang of it. Specially that I am someone with authority as well.
I get to socialize a LOT now and I really am trying to be myself but sometimes I wonder if being myself is not good? On the contrary, the angel on my shoulder states otherwise and says I am perfectly fine and its all in my head. It is in fact all in my head because I am still here and kicking.
2. Describe one of the best days you have recently?
Went to Kinokuniya book store. Gawd that place is good. I feel at home and books are just something I am used to seeing, reading, feeling. What is worse though is that I do not have the money to buy the books. Also, went with my sister so it was super super fun.
3. List all the things that make you happy today, big or small.
I got to clean out some of the junk in our store room. I get to also listen to a 30 minute video about someone explaining how to retain the information that I am reading. Highlighting, taking notes, and organizing it by topic. I just want to learn and learn a lot because we are blessed to have such easy access with technology and then get to learn many things on the internet for FREE.
4. How do you feel about your body?
Like shit. As always. Iβm trying to eat healthier now and reducing my sugar intake but I always feel like its not enough. Thereβs definitely moments where I feel fine but most of the time I ask the question βWhen will I ever get to have that body that I had when I did a crash diet which resulted irreversible damage to my brain and physical standβ Again, I am really trying hard to eat healthy and move my body around but there are some days where I get so impatient. It is fine. Other people get me grounded that I have to be patient.
5. Describe a life changing moment.
Got back with my ex. Became a person of authority. Managing people.
6. What is going well with your life right now?
My new job is going well. My relationship is going well. I am blessed with my family. At this point in my life, I can say that I really made it and I am so proud of my past self for pushing through even though there are times I dont see any reason to push through.
October 25 Me: Questions that I recently asked myself or questions that I saw on my notebook and then decided to answer some:
How will you describe yourself?
I describe myself as an adventurous woman. I love going out and socialize with people even though at first its hard for me to connect with new people because I always have this thought that they wont like me and they probably hate me. I know its all in my head but it cant be helped. Recently, I can talk comfortably with my coworkers. Its been a year since Iβm here in my school.
I am a woman who is now planning for her next great adventure which is probably solo trip? or at least have someone with me. Iβm planning Georgia?? Kazakhstan?? Depends on finances, really.
I am someone who is ready to explore and take on chances. Iβve really grown from last year. Iβve been to places and been exposed to certain experiences that have really grounded me to become someone more.
2. Describe one of the best days you have recently?
My sister is pregnant!!! Choir services! Hang out with friends. I have so many plans going on I think I have so many best days!
3. List all the things that make you happy today, big or small.
I got to drink a good cup of coffee for 15 dirhams. I ate something good. I ordered food for my advanced birthday celebration this Friday. I am surrounded by people who I treasure the most.
4. How do you feel about your body?
I feel a bit better. Weβve lost some weight during May 2025. We feel good on most days but of course still feeling like shit when we binge.
5. Describe a life changing moment.
Me joining the choir and hanging out with people Iβve never imagined hanging out with.
6. What is going well with your life right now?
My social life is going well. I met so many people and connected with them. Spiritually, I feel fulfilled. Never really thought about death that much because I reconnected with my faith through choir singing. Its something I never really knew I needed and Iβm thankful for the gift of friendship, and companionship, and love. I am very excited about the pregnancy journey of my sister and I am praying that she has a healthy pregnancy journey. I pray she is healthy and that the baby is healthy.
July 1, 2026. Me: Questions that I recently asked myself or questions that I saw on my notebook and then decided to answer some:
How will you describe yourself?
i describe myself as a person who takes risks and seek peace in knowing that i am going to be okay despite being in an uncomfortable situation. physically, of course, the feeling would never go away, i still feel fat. i dont think thats ever going to go away. my hair is honey brown. i love my hair dyed more than i loved my black, curly hair. its easier to manage and it doesnt take too much of my time in the morning. i am adventurous and is now seeking pleasure in looking forward to what the world is going to offer. i feel more confident. in my skills and in my being.
2. Describe one of the best days you have recently?
us going to R*VE Exp0 hotel. it was a really fun day with my family. i get to enjoy a really nice day off with them and had the opportunity to walk around, buy groceries, and just bathing in the chorus of their laughters. sometimes i find myself remembering the times when were all still living together under one roof in the Philippines. how it was so simple back then. how we didnt had any worries other than looking forward to the afternoon snacks and what mama has prepared for us. is it fried banana, is it a chocolate cake ordered online through facebook or just bread and orange juice? no one knows.
3. List all the things that make you happy recently, big or small.
watching Jenn's twitch streams on YouTube. she's so funny and im so glad i found her youtube channel.
ordering a coffee at uni 2x a week. i think i should stop doing that soon otherwise i'll go broke hahahaha
going home and unwinding.
the commute going back home. idk, i love my train ride time where i get to just read and drift off.
hmm, knowing that the Zoom shop outside Centrpoint metro sells fresh chicken burgers and salad for as low as 8 aed a piece.
my coffee cup which i forgot to wash and is the sole reason why ive been buying coffee at uni instead.
my baby bangs. inspired by Clairo i actually love it! but the thing is, sometimessss, it makes me look like a coconut husk. kulang nalang floor wax.
hmmm someone cutting ties off with me. thats something i need to practice on. if i ever ever feel uncomfortable in a situation, i have to put me first. that person just demonstrated it with me. good for it, honestly. respect the boundaries but i would never reply back.
4. How do you feel about your body?
go back to question 1.
5. Describe a life changing moment.
i got hired in my dream job!! who would have ever thought! i did this. i did it.
6. What is going well with your life right now?
my careeeeer! i think its all going well with my career because i dont have a love life XD hahahaha but i'll take it any time! thank you, Lord!
