The shape of their loving face I’ve become so accustomed to seeing the last 7 years-so different. Their body that I knew ever inch of-an unexplored terrain. Their loving eyes that stare into my soul-sifted but still holding the same love I’ve always seen.

I know he’s still the same person and I want him to be happy more than anything in this world. I just didn’t realize how hard it was going to be to watch the physically person I’m so familiar with change so dramatically and it’s only been a few months. What do the next few months/year hold?

I love him so much and stand strong by his side as my mind wages a war with my heart. My mind seeing someone who I do not know while my heart knows exactly who he is.....my world!

I have been pushed aside, yelled at, ignored, made the feel wrong for who I am and how I feel.

Why is this stilll the person I love?

-stupidity

-lack of self worth

-more afraid to be alone than miserable