איך דארף נאך חוצפה

At some point, enough has to be enough. I get it, you don't ask for much...but that's the problem. I mean, when did you become okay with not asking for more? Why do you allow your needs to go unmet every time?

You're downplaying your power...and everyone can see it, so they give you exactly the bare minimum. Someone as powerful as you will always be met with resistance. It comes with the territory.

There comes a point in time where you have to get real about the people around you and the experiences you've had. YOU set the standard. Forgive yourself for not giving yourself the world, and go out there and walk in your power.

Everything the world has to offer is your birthright...don't let anyone convince you of less just because they don't have the tools to give you what you need. Be willing to walk away from people that treat respecting you and loving you like a challenge. Be willing to close the door regardless of history. No more making excuses.

This is your reality check. This is your wake up call. Close the year on a different note and dedicate the next few weeks to YOU and creating and fine tuning your standards.

You're so close to your dream life...but what's stopping you is waiting for permission from others to live it. Living for others is a gateway to a life of regrets and a first class ticket to resentment. The happiest people live on their own terms, and anyone who can't get down with that, they peacefully say, "Thanks, but no thanks." and love from afar.

This month, this next year...you need to choose yourself. And that's non-negotiable. Now let's walk into our purpose and set The Standard... boundaries, substance, and self preservation. Whoever is unable to adhere to that can get left where we found them. Dollhouse meeting adjourned!

Queen of Cups and The Tower

Serbian folk costume Preć

I wanted the birds to look like they were actually in the space so first thing after doing the draft was to do a lighting study

after that I covered the walls in letters in lieu of a projector/vr headset bc i have neither of those :) Then i take a picture of the section of wall and superimpose the lineart over top of it so I can pencil in the lines

et voila

GIVE IT UP FOR BIRD NUMBUH 5, THE CANADIAN GOOSE, Branta canadensis!!!!

bird 5/14, Bluejay, Cyanocitta cristata

birds 6 and 7: American Goldfinch, Spinus tristis, male and female

BIRD NUMBER 8, (yellow shafted) NORTHERN FLICKERRRRR, Colaptes auratus

genuinely made me start questioning my sanity around day 3, it's half the size the of the goose, WHY did it take me 4 days to finish??

Bird number 9: Red-tailed hawk, Buteo jamaicensis

my chains are broken i am FREE. although i did have a great deal of fun with this, the barring on the wings itself took me like four days and i am READY to move on

this was a week and a half of continuous work so please excuse me for getting a little emotional in the bg 🙏

BIRD NUMBER 10!!! The Male Mallard Duck, Anas platyrhynchos

the male and female ones are gonna be posted separately bc they're taking a lot longer lol but yea! super happy i was able to capture the iridescent green of the head, i found metallic green and blue paint at a craft store that really made his head POP. it looks better in person i promise

ALSO!! As this is the 10th one, BIG announcement. The end is in sight!!!!! I plan to finish within the next 3 weeks and there will be a small dedication ceremony/ unveiling happening at the library to commemorate its completion on the 16th of May. If you live in the Western New York region and want to check it out for yourself shoot me a dm!

aaaand another one bites the duck,

we're movin right along with bird numero 11!! The lady Mallard!! Anas platyrhyncos

power couple that they are, here's bird number 12 and 13,

the Northern Cardinals, Cardinalis cardinalis

and NOW that they are complete, ITS GO TIME, in the next five days (library's closed for mother's day 😭😭) i need to have the GBH fully rendered, the names of the birds vectored, weeded, masked, applied to the wall, and then painted, plus additional cattails throughout. I may be able to get away with just getting the GBH done in time for the unveiling and then just have the names and cattails added later, but i'm gonna really try to get it all done in time. BUT, i have a plan. Part of why i take so long on these is because i really am just figuring it out as I do it lmao. there have been many a time where i am sitting on top of the ladder googling "how to paint birds" but I think if i take the time tomorro to do all that figuring out how to approach it beforehand, this will go a lot faster. I may also recruit some of my artist friends to help with the placing of the names... hrmm we'll see.

Anyways, shout out to the librarian who tracked down exactly the thing i needed so i could figure out where to place the highlights in my birds eyes, ur the real mvp

Bird number 14 out of 14,

The Great blue heron, Ardea herodius

thank you to everyone who reached out or got excited about this project, it genuinely gave me the fuel i needed to keep going. In total, the 480+ total hrs it took me to cover this wall pales in comparison to how long its expected to spend on there, hopefully imparting a sense of beauty and love for the natural world to the next generation and here's hoping i'm only getting started with these.

khorshid o mah/ the sun and the moon

Ten of Cups and The Moon