THEE VIRGO DOLL

This summer I have finally recovered that spark back. I’m anchored again in my feminine, faithful, expansive, unapologetic self. I’m never going to take this version of myself for granted again. It feels so good to be back.

Going to the hospital is scary and even someone totally unprepared to be a medical advocate or physical support will be better than nothing, purely from their presence. You can grab food, be there with your phone to search if theirs dies, go in search of a doctor, distract them from pain or discomfort... go with them.

I’m drinking Redbull and becoming someone. I’m downing Redbull and becoming something. At the peak of caffeination I am an              excitable wicked-genius                     lab-made   animal guzzling down electric shocks           I am a            black swan              calculator          saw-mill bottle rocket       pink bunny                    a dollhouse on unshaven legs lights on in every room        a               swimming pool opened for the season                   gloating                shimmering president of the good-time                              street corner gesticulator                   beheaded king lightning rattling through the window panes                     obnoxious ring-tone         plucked  daisy                  111 mg                                I drink Redbull in the front seat as a dog scurries out in front of the car staring down the headlights                        I drink Redbull when I forget how to laugh                I drink Redbull and can’t even taste it          I drink Redbull and keep the tab           I drink Redbull on my walks through my neighborhood        through the land of the open and shut case  my parched Suburbia meadow              77mg               I would do anything for a lift         a flutter of my silver wings                 a touch of divinity                             a laugh so loud people turn around to look at what could possibly be worth a noise like that      I will take my bliss however it comes         no matter the crash                       Redbull is my serum                   my milk         my dosage              my cure                my highest bid                  my lucky charm            I want it every day             I want it all of the time