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Time is Imaginary

The current time is 2:03 AM on Tuesday April 28th.

For the past five hours live been very mellow and extremely chilled out. I’ve been listening to music all night. Normally I’d be listening to music and texting people but tonight I decided it was music only. I’ll get back to that in a little...

I found a loop hole in the system for these blogs. I can write a blog right before midnight then I can write another right after. Technically, I am still fulfilling the requirement of not posting two blogs on the same day. There’s a little tip for everyone. Y’all can thank me later. This is going to be another short blog because I want to write what I am feeling right now while listening to my music.

Throughout the night, I’ve been listening to the “Tender” Spotify playlist. This playlist is dropping me into a drugged up state of mind. Everything is clear as I lay here in my bed. I have my ceiling fan on full blast so I can get the repetitive gust of cool air that rushes over me almost like clockwork. Thankfully, I have both my headphones in so I can’t hear it. The music has completely taken over my head. While I’ve been laying here in silence, I started to feel the chill LoFi beats pulsing in my chest and stomach. It’s such a weird feeling at first but then you soon fall into it’s trance. For the past 2 hours, however, that steady pulse has turned itself into a feeling of slowly falling down as I sink into my mattress. When the beat picks back up I feel weightless. While all of this is going on, I have the faint sound of rain and the distant roll of thunder whispering through the sky. You all definitely think I’m smoking some good stuff but I’m not. This is why I’m so passionate about music. It allows you to feel certain things you couldn’t possibly do on your own. The feeling of falling and floating, a clear mind, the beat rumbling in every inch of your body. It’s truly amazing. My eyes keep fading in and out of sleep. The playlist has completely put me at peace with myself tonight.

Current time at the moment of these words being typed is 2:15. It’s felt like I’ve been writing this an hour at least. Note to self... don’t listen to “Tender” playlist by Spotify while doing homework.

All lockdown I’ve never been able to calm down my mind and clear it entirely. Tonight I’ve finally obtained the peace of mind that I’ve desired for so long.

Goodnight Everyone. Enjoy Yourself

PaddyO signing off.

Another day another dolla... lockdown

So let me get this straight with you all. How long were we supposed to be in lockdown? 2-3 weeks “at max”? Ummmmm news flash people it’s been nearly... waif I’ve lost count. Shit. My dad has been in my back about college. “Get your dorm rooms picked out” “email the fraternities” “who has responded?” Jesus dad, I’m already stressed enough to with finishing school and now you are bombing me with more stress? Chill out man. Well since I briefly mentioned fraternities, I guess I’ll talk about them. So far I’ve heard back from 6 fraternities. Delta Tau Delta, Sigma Chi, Sigma Tau Gamma, Sigma Phi Epsilon, Kappa Sigma and the party animals Pi Kappa Alpha... aka the Pikes. So far I’ve communicated with DTD the most because it’s my cousin’s fraternity so I have been able to meet most of the brothers who are current members due to visits. I think I have a very good chance at locking down a spot come fall. Hopefully now my dad will get off my back... well, this is a short one I will admit. Nothing has really gone on over the last couple of days so I don’t have anything super exciting to write about. Live on and Roll mf Tide🐘!

PaddyO signing out

Gif featuring our lord and savior Nick Saban

The comeback

Guess what everyone... I’ve lived to write another blog. During my hiatus, I came to the realization that I need these blogs during this lockdown to survive and keep my head space clear and sharp. I’m able to talk about almost anything. What’s going on in my life, the boredom, give movie reviews and much much more. However today’s blog will be all about what is going on in the life of PaddyO. Welcome to number 13. The Shit Show.

A few days ago, although it feels like weeks, a few of the large lads got together at the Barbara Vick elementary school, right next to Kennedy park. The large lads consisted of Mike Egan, Matt Golab, Tim Dahil and Dj Wagner. Of course yah boy PaddyO was there supplying some major bangers. However, we ended up being a little light on numbers. I arrived at the back parking lot first. I was sitting there pounding down an IBC right as Egan showed up. “What’s up F**ker? How’ve you been” the classic Mike line for greeting. We talked for a little bit and then Golab showed up. I expected to see the sexy vette roll up but no, he brought the Avalanche. It took him a good 10 minutes to set up the bed of his truck then he sat down and devoured some Chipotle. I had my first lime chip that day. Those things are life changing. A little later, Tim and Dj rolled up. They set up their chairs in the back of Dj’s truck and the tailgate officially began. We sat there from 4 until 6:30. It was a good time with very “intellectual” discussion. We trashed Groot and J.B Pritzker a lot... things were said that probably aren’t school appropriate. Well who am I kidding, it’s not like we’re ever going back.

I’m going to end this blog here for today. Thanks for tuning it to read all about PaddyO! Stay safe everyone.

The End of A Journey

At the beginning of this whole process, I never liked the idea of blogging about my life in quarantine. Many times when I’d try and sit down and write, my mind would travel elsewhere because I’d have nothing to talk about. Everything would just repeat and repeat like clockwork. Day after day, night after night. Nothing would change. Wake up, barely eat all day, school, Xbox, movies, still don’t eat, work out, shower, hop on discord and then fall asleep at 6AM, after listening to hours of music to dull the pain.

It wasn’t until blog numbers 4-6 that my opinion really changed. I started reading more of my buddies blogs to see what they’ve been up to. Turns out it was basically the same as me. I started to realize that I’m not the only one suffering through this pandemic. This made me start reflecting on my day to day activities through a more narrow viewpoint. I started picking out the finer details. This allowed me to start writing more compelling and intriguing blogs. When I wrote about The Joker, the entire time, I was relating it all back to myself. This gave my post more of a deeper meaning which allowed the reader to connect more personal. I feel like during this quarantine, I’ve unlocked many writing abilities which I never knew I had. Writing about my own personal struggles allow others to realize that they aren’t alone in this world. Others are in pain too.

In the legendary words, “All good things must come to an end,” this is might be my end. At this very moment I’m contemplating the decisions I have in front of myself. Keep going or give up. This is blog number 12, all we need is 12. The number 12 has been circulating through my head for some time now. Now that 12 has came into the foreground, will I keep making my story known or will I end at 12. That is the decision I have for myself at this moment. I don’t care for the extra credit if I do continue. These blogs to me are more of a passion now rather than a requirement. If I do continue I know that I’ll be making an impact on anyone who reads these posts. I know it’s not a bunch of people, but those people mean the world to me. I wouldn’t be who I am today if it wasn’t for them they’ve helped me out through my darkest hours so to me this is me paying back the help they gave me.

Although my future seems daunting, terrifying, unknown and empty. I’ll always remember the ones who I was proud to call my brothers. If you are going through the same fears, just know that if you are reading this you’ll forever have me as one of your brothers.

We all are splitting on our own paths next year, just remember this. We maybe gone but we’ll never be forgot. Our struggles have brought us closer together. I never thought Marist could be right when they said “Students for four years. Brothers and Sisters for life.” Never forget that. We are all in this until the very end.

PaddyO signing off. Love you all for everything you’ve done for me.

The Beginning of The End

Today hands down was the most fun I’ve had all quarantine. If you know me, you know that I like to break the rules and stand up to authority. Groot ain’t got shit on me. I know that we don’t have to be formal during these blogs, but it still feels really weird being able to swear and use my normal language. Of course, I can’t use my full army of words waiting to burst out onto the page but that’s okay. I’ll work with what I have. #babysteps.

Anyways, getting back to the goods, I decided to meet up with a bunch of buddies from Shepard today in the Independence Middle School parking lot. We played catch, drank IBC root beer, blasted music and didn’t allow anyone to ruin our time. Multiple people came up to me and asked if I was of the legal age to be drinking... I’m bringing it back... I’d respond with a snarky, “it’s just IBC, I have a baby face anyways.” Surprisingly, we didn’t have the cops called on us for a noise complaint. That’s pretty rare for a Palos cop not to jump all over some teens for playing music really loud. Guess I need to get louder next time.

Breaking off from my day, I learned the stunning, and stupid news that Seniors have to still participate in school until the 22nd and not the 13th like we were supposed to be given. To me I think it’s totally ridiculous. We, as a class, have already been robbed of so many moments that we won’t get again in our lives. We won’t have another High School Senior Prom and we won’t have another High School Graduation. The least you can do for us is let us out early. So this is my formal message to all of my teachers... once the 13th hits, I will not be attending class or doing any assignments (mic drop).

The Crave.

Welp, it is currently 8:38 PM on this odd Wednesday, April 15th. I just pulled the car into the garage after my brother and I went on our 15th White Castle excursion during this lockdown. Are we technically breaking the rules? I don’t think so because it’s food, I mean come on, this is the only time in our lives that we are able to tell a cop that we are getting White Castle or just food in general if they pull you over. Think about it!

Officer: “Sir, may I ask what you are doing out of your house during this lockdown?” Me: “Aye, chill my man, I’m snaggin some White Castle!”

Officer: “White Castle?”

Me: “Damnnn straight! I currently gotta crave I need to fix.”

For a large lad, like myself, this is a dream come true! Well getting back to the day, I never woke up. I know that sound dark and scary but it’s true. I never went to bed last night. So, in technical terms, I never woke up. I opened my blinds to see SNOW on the ground! You heard me right, SNOW! I have lost all belief in global warming this morning. You can’t tell me that the earth is getting warmer when it is the middle of April... and still snowing. Yah, miss me with that bs. After my brother woke up we went downstairs into the basement and starting playing Xbox, this was a rare sight to see due to the fact that we never play 2 player games anymore. The game was Brawlhalla. It’s basically Super Smash Bros Brawl but free and for the Xbox. We haven’t done any homework until now because of the game and White Castles of course. So wish me luck as I cram every assignment I need to complete tonight. I mean I know I can do it, that why I call myself a procrastinator.

Lock and Key

I think I found something that I want to try after this lockdown is over. Drum roll please...... abandon storage unit purchasing. I know it sounds really weird, but the only weird thing about it is what you can find inside of them. People have the opportunity to find very unique and expensive items in the abandon units. Of course you can come across a complete bust, however, I think I have a fair bit of luck on my side when it comes to abandon places or items. You may be asking yourself how I got attached to this idea. Well, I’ll tell you. YOUTUBE AND BOREDOM. These two things together never go in my favor but I think this time might be different. After scrolling or hours on what to watch, I came across “Hitting It Big From ABANDON STORAGE UNIT!! Tons of LEGIT ITEMS FOUND!” So, I let my curiosity take the best of me. I watched the entire video in awe of what these guys found. Rifles, old military equipment, high end jewelry, old memorabilia and so much more. I’d break to 400 word limit if I listed off everything these guys found. In the end the people made a profit of over $500. Think about it, you buy a unit for $100-$400 and you could walk away with a total evaluation of $900! That’s insane! For a little bit of time and effort going through boxes and crates just to find hidden gems among the trash. I know it’s stupid to think about it but yes, my life has come to me watching countless videos on people getting fat stacks from storage units! So boys, who’s down to buy a storage unit?

I’m done following the rules. I can’t stand being locked up in my house. Big fat Pritzker and Lori “Groot” Lightfoot can’t control me anymore. I started off my Friday by waking up fairly late. One in the afternoon to be exact. Do you think I cared? Not at all. I decided to take up the idea to drive around by myself for a few hours. I thought my parents would be cool with it, they were surprisingly. Little did they know... I had no intention of just driving around. I had places to be, people to see. If you lads know me well enough you know where I ended up. I won’t go into detail. From two all the way until midnight I stayed at the house. Once I finally got home, hair blown crazy from the wind. The ask me what I was doing the entire time. Did I tell them the truth? Absolutely not. I keep my ways in secret. No one will ever unlock the true power that I bestow in the Art of lying. Butttt, besides that... my day was normal otherwise. Then yesterday, Saturday, I had a FaceTime video with the Rush Chairman of Fraternity Delta Tau Delta at the University of Alabama (Roll Tide). That FaceTime went pretty well. I learned about the different guys rushing. 5 of them are from Orland believe it or not. They all go to Sandburg. Hopefully, I’ll be able to reach out to those guys so I know more people to try and fill my quad dorm room with. Don’t worry Mike, I got this in the bag. Floor 5 baby!

PaddyO signin out!

Procrastination?

What is procrastination? Well to begin with, it’s the only “school” skill I’ve mastered. For years and years I’ve been able to put off my school work til the very last night even when my teachers say “ThIs AsSiGnMeNt CaNt Be DoNe In OnE nIgHt!” I view that as a challenge. However, these bookmarked and writing tools assignment are a force to be dealt with. I can not procrastinate these assignments. During the actual school year (oh how I miss those days), the assignments were never this time consuming. Have I broken multiple pens and possibly a table trying to do them? You know damn well I did. For a little bit of background to my last blog post, it all started when Antonio texted me asking if I knew what to do for the WT 1-5 assignment... I didn’t even know we had them! I used some vulgar language that can’t be repeated here and I immediately hopped on the discord to figure out what we had to do. Being the special little boy I am, I couldn’t understand which chapters we had to read for said assignment. Once again the vulgar language started spilling out from frustration. I couldn’t get my mind in order. What did I do you might ask? I put in my headphones, told my brother to shut up and I started in on the assignments. After 3 hours I felt completed... welllllll expect for the fact I did them all in BLUE PEN! Like lightning I changed the filter on my camera to black and white. Snapped some pics and turned them in. Mission accomplished. After this I needed to calm down and have some me time. I sat down in the theater and turned on Joker. I knew the basics of the movie but I had no idea what I was getting myself into. Two hours of crying later I finished the movie, ranted on Snapchat and then ranted again on my last blog post. As you can obviously tell. I’m not a happy camper at the moment. The boys, however, saw this and came to my side to see if I was okay. I wasn’t but that’s a tall tale for another time. Now to get out of the feels, I think it’s time for a movie review. My overall opinion on Joker was that it’s a very strong moving movie, I understand that people might not have liked the whole idea of a “lunatic” being portrayed as a “hero”, but honestly, everyone deserves to be treated like a hero every once and awhile. It makes us all feel better about ourselves. With this being said, GN everyone and remember, you may not think largely of yourself but people still view you as a hero.

I’ve reached my breaking point. Tonight, I decided to sit down and watch Joker, alone. It probably wasn’t the smartest move because I cried the entire time. Now before you say anything. Yes, I cried at a movie about a villain, deal with it. Watch out everyone, sh*t is about to get real. The whole premise of the movie was about a man with a mental disorder which people didn’t seem to understand. He was beat, bullied, put down, and laughed at, although he was trying to be a comedian, they weren’t laughing for the right reasons. This is very true to my life too. I try my best to be someone who everyone can like and talk to but in the end, people will just beat you down until you have nothing left. I’ve always thought of myself as a comedian, always making the boys laugh when we’re together, but in reality if other laugh, it’s not with me but against me. I never thought that a movie... A MOVIE DURING A PANDEMIC LOCKDOWN would make me realize people’s true colors. I’ve tried to be nothing but nice to people and I guess my best just doesn’t cut it anymore. So what am I gonna do about it? Cut them out along with it. Answer me this, am I the real Joker? This has been a deep rant by PaddyO. See you guys around.

To be totally honest, I’ve ran out of ideas for the blogs. I’ve forgotten to keep up with them so this might affect my grade but do I care at this point? Not at all, we don’t have finals anymore, I’m already accepted into college, what else is there to do? If it was up to me I wouldn’t even have the rest of senior year! It’s POINTLESS! Everyone has been put through hell and back due to this pandemic, both emotionally and physically. I know I’m going on a bit of a rant but for Christ sake people, STAY INSIDE! I get it if a family member needs your help or if you’re considered “essential”, but if you just want to go out and get drunk. . . Stay home and have fun drinking by yourself! Am I condoning drinking alone? No, however, this situation is more important than your stupid little get together. It will definitely get shut down by the parents so don’t even try. If you can’t tell by during this whole time people have really been pissing me off.

Although certain people have been pissing me off, I still find time to enjoy myself with the boys. WE DONT ALL MEET UP IN PERSON! That’s why we made a discord. Hands down the easiest way to all talk to one another without being in person. Of course the social distancing is really hard but the quicker we adapt to it, the quicker this will all be over. So please stay inside, we have nothing better to do.

#Life2020

#socialdistancing

Today I can officially say I’ve lost my mind due to the quarantine. My sleep schedule is out of whack... exactly why I’m writing to you all on this beautiful March 31st at 1:31 AM. In the past week I believe I’ve accumulated the number of total hours slept. Turns out 10 hours in 7 days isn’t enough. Boredom has completely taken over. During elearning today, I had the bright idea to change my account background. Hence the name of this blog entry. Let me allow myself to introduce you to my head at the moment. It’s truly a work of art. I call it... crash and burn.

The days are dragging on longer and longer. Everything is becoming repetitive. Even what I say during these blogs. Luckily I came to my senses tonight. I decided to join the BIG discord. Yes, we have a Snapchat group chat and a discord, sorry your not as cool as us. While all the other members were playing Minecraft, I was off smashing the dreams of 6 year olds in Modern Warfare. It’s an amazing sight to see. Today, my mind went numb. I didn’t think about anything that much. Just school work and my possible personal chef/catering business which I will be starting up. But then, out of no where my mind lit up. I remembered an important tool that Mike bought me for my birthday. The train horn. From 11:00PM until now, I’ve been contemplating the amount of fear I can strike into people as I drive past them in the Red Phoenix blasting a train horn. As of right now, however, those are the only non-boring thoughts I have. Other than that. My mind is in flames. Life is prison. Corona has taken over the world and we are just living in it. Tune in next week for more updates about my spiral into insanity. This is PaddyO signing off for the night.🔥

#life2020 #crashandburn

Hello From The Inside (PaddyO remix of Adele)