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❝ how light carries on endlessly even after death ❞
❝ with shortness of breath you explained the infinite ❞
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bro im so sorry i made you wait like 3 weeks for a reply im sorry that's entirely on me #imsosorry
anyways it was a really good question. just that the thing is my pseudonym ruii is actually tied to rui from kimetsu no yaiba ( aka bemon slayer)
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✿ SELECTION I ───── CHAPTERED SERIES
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✿ SELECTION II ───── ONE-SHOT
┌── 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗿𝘁𝗲𝗲𝗻 𝗰𝗿𝗼𝘄𝗻𝘀 ──────────────────┐
━━━━━━━━━━━ ˖ ݁♟️ MEPHISTO ゛
— courage of a star ( mephisto x demon kings' general.reader ) ✦ they say stars are born from fire. mephistopheles has always believed something slightly different: stars are not born — they choose to keep burning.
to spend one's existence feeding the very flame that consumes them. to continue offering warmth long after the fire has become agony. to illuminate a sky that may never once stop to wonder how much of the star has already turned to ash.
that, is what earns one the title of a star. and perhaps that was why, of all the lights that had ever graced the netherworld, yours alone lingered within his memory.
Lowkey still thinking of Mephisto being created artificially(or idk, he just aint a natural demon). Maybe by the Deities or the will and magic of the Netherworld, for the sole purpose and existence to choose the Demon King that will rule Netherworld and build it with them.
Something that ALL demons have, is bloodline magic. They get it from their genetics, and its a proof of your ancestors and which bloodline you belong to.
The Gaap family got their bloodline magic from a Deity. Safe to assume, ancient demons dont have what we call Bloodline Magic now, and some point gained them. Or maybe magic in general? Because from the beginning of the demons, it seems to be more of literal strength that they gained, their features like horn and claws are to show its strength and teeth, wings and tail are what to enforce that strength. Nothing about magic. So maybe Deities, who are the natural forces of the Netherworld, at some point gave it to them?
Naberius family, while their Cerberus is not the traditional Bloodline Magic, its still technically Bloodline magic as only those with Naberius blood will have the Cerberus.
Mephisto is someone who does not have bloodline magic. He is the only one of his kind. He still has magic. The unique thing about him, is that he has the ability to reborn. Or well, either reborn or immortality. Demons still have a lifespan, even if its crazily longer than humans. Seeing as Dokfel, a demon king, tasking to Mephisto to choose a new King because he will die soon.
Bro literally ceased to exist until the Trickster Plan start launching frfr and he got brought into the 13 crowns immediately.
Probably over-thinking it cause I love mephisto, but im delulu to believe that there is more to mephisto, and his title and role is just surface level and that he is more powerful than what we currently know.
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Oh hey sorry I sent a request honestly didn’t see that ur requests were closed bc the pinned post wasn’t loading in
it's alright now that you've apologized. also took this as feedback and adjusted my inbox title a little — it's 'petitions closed' now instead of something that simply matched the aesthetic
heads-up: please don't send requests or messages like "if your requests are open, can i request ... " or "can i request this when your requests reopen" while my requests are explicitly marked as closed.
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it's become a recurring issue lately and i'd appreciate it if everyone could respect the status of my requests. thank you.
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actually i would love to see a 200 follower milestone event. but it depends on you and if you have the time and energy for it!!
i’ve actually been considering hosting an event myself for a while now. the only thing i’m a little worried about is whether there’ll be enough participants to make it worthwhile . . maybe a quick poll would help me gauge the interest first methinks
if i were to host an event, would you participate?
a routine wellness check on NABERIUS KALEGO during his evil cycle quickly spirals into an afternoon neither of you will ever be able to explain — especially after another coworker of yours walks in at precisely the wrong moment.
ⓘ starring 、evil cycle.naberius kalego x babyls teacher.reader
ⓘ content warnings 、spoilers up to chapter 319, likely ooc kalego (even his evil cycle can't justify this one atp lmao)
ⓘ production note 、reader's a demon, childhood friends trope, pre-established relationship, can be read as either romantic or platonic (tho it noticeably leans toward the former) & kalego misses you but he'd rather die than admit it
ⓘ script length 、~ 2,256
“kalego—”
“don't.”
“but look—”
“do not.”
a soft sigh nonetheless slips past your lips, your gaze wandering across the room its occupant currently calls home.
to describe it as a bedroom would be . . . exceedingly generous.
it bears far greater resemblance to the forsaken chamber of some long-abandoned estate, where neglect violence have long since taken root. deep claw-like gouges rake across the walls in uneven trails, while shattered furniture lies strewn about as if something had reduced it to splinters in a fit of blind fury.
what little remains of the curtains hangs in ragged strips from their rods, mercilessly torn apart until only frayed tatters continue to sway in the stagnant air. broken wood, shattered ornaments, and scattered debris litter every corner, leaving scarcely a single surface untouched by whatever calamity seems determined to revisit this room time and time again.
. . . that's the poetic way of putting it. to be perfectly frank, however — kalego is currently in his evil cycle. and, evidently, rather upset.
the evil cycle of the naberius bloodline is said to be extraordinarily rare. according to kalego himself, some members of his own family have gone their entire lives without experiencing it even once — which only makes the current situation all the more concerning.
you suppose whatever transpired during the deviculum or something like that truly managed to get under his skin. after attending that gathering of demon nobility, kalego returned carrying an amount of stress and pressure you had never quite seen before — for reasons you have yet to piece together yourself.
whatever the cause, it eventually proved enough to drag him into his wicked phase, forcing him to take a temporary leave from his duties at babyls.
which, naturally, is why you're here — just a quick visit; a simple wellness check on your childhood friend, as routine as any of the others you've done before — nothing more and nothing less.
. . . the only issue being that it was supposed to remain quick.
“kalego, i'm serious. listen—”
your earnest attempt is answered by little more than a low grumble. or perhaps something closer to a hiss.
it isn't that you're trying to close the distance between the two of you in some misguided attempt at comforting him; the truth is — there isn't any distance left to close.
if anything, there is far less than what most demons would consider appropriate.
because you're currently being hugged. or, more accurately — held captive.
the ever-stern, ever-intimidating naberius kalego; the guard dog of babyls; one of the academy's most fearsome instructors—
—is hugging you.
truthfully, even entertaining the sentence sounds absurd — and yet reality has already decided to prove otherwise. the sheer absurdity of it almost has you convinced this must be some particularly vivid dream, one from which a good hard pinch ought to awaken you.
that is, if kalego's claws weren't already doing a convincing job.
they dig ever so slightly deeper each time you attempt to wriggle free — not enough to break skin, merely enough to remind you that escape is, for the time being, decidedly out of the question. maybe even in his current state, some corner of his mind still refuses to let your uniform — or your person — share the same unfortunate fate as the floorboards and furniture scattered throughout the room.
knowing words are unlikely to get through to him in his current state, you gradually abandon your rather futile attempts to wriggle free and simply settle where you are.
with only the slightest tilt of your head and the smallest shift of your posture, you make yourself as still as possible, careful not to startle him. by some means or other, you can't shake the feeling that merely witnessing him like this — especially you of all people — is already pushing the limits of what his pride can tolerate. maybe such awareness is simply the byproduct of spending years walking beside him.
and so, you wait.
long enough for silence to descend upon the room and comfortably curl up between the two of you. if left unattended for much longer, you're fairly certain it'd start paying rent.
despite the dull ache recurrently blooming on your back from being pressed against the hard-surface sofa, along with the all-too-familiar complaint from your neck, you still remain exactly where you are.
you cautiously clears your throat.
". . . feeling any better?"
"yes."
". . . can you—. ." your fingers twitch faintly against his sleeve as you attempt a tentative shift, only to stop midway. "—move a little?"
all that consideration on your part is met with nothing but a familiar, dreadful silence — then again, that much hardly comes as a surprise.
words have never been kalego's preferred means of expression — let alone now, when even his composure has been thrown into disarray by his wicked phase. if his mouth remains stubbornly shut, however, his actions are anything but.
the vice-like grip that had kept you caged so fiercely — like some instinctive part of him feared you might simply vanish the moment he loosened his hold — gradually relents, albeit with visible reluctance.
just narrowly enough for the crushing pressure threatening your ribs to ease by a mere fraction. enough for the talons that had stubbornly dug into the fabric of your uniform to finally withdraw — though not nearly enough to be mistaken for actually letting go.
". . thank you."
you experimentally straighten your back.
as someone who has somehow accomplished what most demons would deem outright impossible — befriending the guard dog of babyls, to borrow iruma's rather fitting description — you've spent more than enough years at kalego's side to recognize when something is genuinely amiss. checking in on him every now and then has simply become second nature; especially now, when he's clearly suffering under the effects of his evil cycle.
even so, you can't honestly say you yourself ever anticipated this.
if anything, this alone speaks volumes about just how severely his wicked phase has taken hold.
unfortunately, regardless of how much you wish to remain here — whether to care for him properly or simply keep him company until he calms down — you are still, first and foremost, a teacher at babyls.
and teachers, regrettably, do not possess the luxury of an endless schedule.
truth be told, you've already slipped away in the middle of your shift just to check on him. and you have the distinct feeling kalego is fully aware of that fact — which only makes his current behavior all the more contradictory.
". . . as much as i'd like to stay with you," you begin cautiously, each word chosen with the same care one might exercise when approaching an injured animal liable to bare its fangs at the slightest wrong move. "you know i'm still on duty, don't you?"
"i can't just disappear for the rest of the day without telling anyone."
"that doesn't mean i can't stay with you," you murmur, voice mellowing of its own accord. "i can always request a leave of absence. the earliest they'd approve it, though, would probably be tomorrow."
"either way, i have to head back first. i still need to ask for permission, seeing as i don't even have my phone with me. if you really want me to stay with—"
"quit talking."
the demand comes barely above a mutter, muffled against your shoulder.
". . ."
". . ."
the words you had been about to say gather at the very tip of your tongue, only to wither there before they are ever given the chance to escape. whatever retort, persuasion, or compromise you had hoped to cobble together suddenly no longer feels worth uttering. not when he looks this miserable.
with a half‑hearted puff, your eyelids drift shut for the briefest of moments.
there it is. complete, undeniable surrender.
every attempt to coax yourself free has, for all intents and purposes, sunk without so much as leaving a ripple behind. if you can't pry yourself out of his embrace, then perhaps the only remaining hope lies with another close coworker of yours — balam shichiro.
if memory serves, he'd also been asked to drop by with kalego's medication. unless he'd already come and gone before your arrival, there's still a chance salvation might walk through that very door sooner rather than later. and even if he had already finished delivering it, you're fairly certain the koala currently clinging to you won't be keeping his captive forever.
hopefully.
so until then, you suppose there's little harm in making the situation a touch more bearable — for both of you.
with that thought in mind, you cautiously ease one arm free from the confines of kalego's embrace, moving with painstaking care as if even the slightest misstep might shatter the fragile calm he'd finally settled into. once liberated, your hand slowly rises toward his back, stopping only a few inches away, suspended in the air to test waters whose depth you can't yet discern.
one of kalego's pointed ears gives a faint twitch. a low, almost inaudible rumble escapes him — not quite a growl, yet not entirely unlike one either.
. . . you decide to interpret that as permission — only then does your palm finally settle against his back.
the first pat is hesitant, feather-light — little more than an experimental touch. then comes another, and another after that — your hand gradually falling into a slow, unhurried rhythm as it gently travels up and down between his shoulder blades.
from the way the tension in his shoulders eases — if only by the slightest margin beneath your palm — perhaps you're doing something right after all.
"you know," emboldened by what you deem to be a sufficiently comfortable stretch of silence, you begin. "you don't actually have to pounce on me like some starving beast as a greeting next time if all you wanted was a hug."
"you could always just admit you missed me and i'd be more than happ—"
they don't pierce your clothes, nor do they so much as scratch your skin, but the unmistakable pressure of his talons digging into your side is more than enough to make you jolt.
"alright, alright—!" a startled yelp escapes before you can stop it. "owch— it was just a joke, that's all."
"will you ever learn to keep your mouth shut?"
". . yessir."
with all the dignity you can salvage, you awkwardly sink back against the sofa's unforgiving cushions, letting your body go limp against both the furniture and the apparently immovable demon attached to your side.
before your mind is even aware of it, sleep has already claimed you as swiftly as the blink of an eye. the rigid sofa at your side proves far from the most comfortable place to drift off, yet exhaustion wins regardless, pulling you into unconsciousness before you can so much as protest.
somewhere amidst that hazy slumber, you vaguely register the faint sound of a door easing open.
bleary-eyed, you slowly pry your eyes open — only for the dreadful, no less humiliating realization to strike you square in the face.
balam is here.
and, judging by the small, ever-so-understanding nod he offers upon noticing the two of you occupying the very same sofa — resting well within one another's personal space in what could only be described as a rather intimate position — he has already reached whatever conclusion his wonderfully imaginative mind has decided upon.
before you can utter a single word to defense your little dignity left, he quietly places the medicine onto the coffee table.
". . . it seems kalego‑kun is well cared for, then. i’m relieved.”
with that, he offers another gentle, closed-eyed expression — the unmistakable air of subtle delight radiating from him despite the mask concealing whatever smile surely lies beneath it — before politely excusing himself.
"s-shichiro, wait—!"
your voice rises on instinct, only to falter midway through as you simultaneously realize kalego has, at some point, also drifted off beside you.
". . . i can explain! it's not what you think it is!"
unfortunately, by the time the words leave your mouth, balam has already slipped beyond the doorway — perhaps a little too quickly. or, rather, deliberately.
after all, as the self-appointed captain of a certain ship that had long since set sail, one can hardly blame him for choosing not to interrupt what he almost certainly believes to be a long-awaited breakthrough between the two of you.
". . ."
somehow, you have the terrible feeling this perfectly innocent wellness check is about to snowball into an astonishing number of misunderstandings.
and, knowing balam . . .
by tomorrow morning, that ship will have reached every dock in babyls.
DIRECTOR'S COMMENTARY ──────── ✦ is it just me or does kalego look even more put together in chapter 319 than when he's not in his evil cycle . . either way i just know he's a big fat ahh yearner. like bro will spend the entire day thinking about you and then act like your existence is a mild inconvenience the moment you show up gsyadickj (and supportive sweetheart balam yayyaa)
mass attacks on art fight are honestly the best imo. i’m reading the comments and it feels like. i’m wagging some imaginary tail. darting around like a crow or swimming through water. all these friendly and welcoming strangers online . . like. i lob you guys /pp
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"Kafka's ambivalent take on authority—his ability to respect it, rebel against it, and blame himself for everything—seems to come mainly from his relationship with his father. Kafka never managed to emerge out of his father's shadow and escape his self-hatred."
—METAMORPHOSIS, AUTHOR'S BIOGRAPHY
Every night, a gust of wind oozed into Gregor's room via an unresolved crack; his only permanent connection with the outside world. When the weather went rogue, all the little vermin would use it as an entryway, turning his bedroom into their refuge and an ecosystem.
A great many of their little hidey-holes burrowed into the moist carpet beneath it, scattered in a trypophobic arrangement.
It was an odd curiosity. No fix of homemade plaster sufficed, the dressing cracked and peeled right off like an overused bandage — melting into the puddle. When he used his dresser as shield, the bugs went in a roundabout, chipping away at the wood for all their trouble.
Normally, he left the type of nuisances he could do nothing about alone.
But the worst part? The worst part was what his overactive imagination did instead.
You see, for men like Gregor, well-advanced in years; the well of childish hopes tends to shrivel up by the age of twenty, give or take. Fortunately for him, he had the privilege to skip the waiting line.
But when he thought he'd outgrown his dreams, they'd in fact hibernated inside him, emerging from their pupa into their truest form.
A grotesque nightmare.
Deep in the grip of sleep, that area would warp and twist — deforming into the portal to hell. The shadows birthed a hand that tore through the obstruction, the fingers writhing with the intensity of a hundred insect legs.
Some nights, it'd get close. Too close.
He visualized the gloved latex — then the fingers, then the trace of sterile antiseptic, stroking his cheek with a faux tenderness. The smell, so potent it was poisonous, burrowed into the lows of his throat.
Then he'd wake up in a cold sweat and find nothing but the gaping void where it penetrated.
So he didn't like how it looked. Raw, obtrusive — but it was too much an inconvenience to fix. Shouldn't have bothered him in the first place.
Like all else, he let it be. Gregor turned his back against the anomaly and tried his best to fall asleep.
Tried was the keyword. He did all kinds of shifting and twisting to find a position that would let him fall sleep.
The first thing he did was sleeping on his back. But looking at the roof made him uneasy, so he reconsidered laying on his other side. Unfortunately, no amount of switching tossing and turning could fix the preturbation, and Gregor was back to fixating on the crack.
About to relent to his discomfort, Gregor stopped trying to conform when a little fellow made themselves known by his bedroom door. Half your face slotted through the slim opening; your frantic pupil flitting in the dark to seek his presence.
Rubbing the sleep off his eyes, Gregor parted with his bed.
He stifled over to the door, careful of the loose floorboards, and set the door ajar.
"…Something you need?" He mumbled, his voice rising to a yawn.
You were hugging your pillow with a listless, unanchored gaze. A glossy line connected the end of your eyelid to your rigid jaw.
"Ah. Can't sleep?"
Your nod was slow and hesitant.
He sighed, "Me either."
He opened his bedroom door wider. "Come right in."
Your little footsteps rippled against the walls of his room.
Before you came into his life, he didn't have the energy to clean, or to make his bed, or to shed tears.
But after being tossed into the gullies of guardianship, the one strife he could choose, he was now responsible for a life dependent on his own.
He managed to get some of his crap together overnight. Working as a salesman wasn't something he expected to acclimate to quickly, but the consequence of failing made him adapt fast.
While his salary wasn't enough to live comfortably, you didn't want for much. Besides, on the off-chance that you picked up a hobby, three medals sufficed for an instrument and a book or two.
You climbed onto bed — assuming the side closest to the gaping crack, and the one most vulnerable to his prosthetic.
Despite your closeness to these hazards, it was, in juxtapositional irony, where you felt safest. You felt comfortable nowhere else, a preference he learned on your first bad night.
Which turned into the fifth, then the tenth…
He caught onto the excuse early. But with how comfortable you looked, he needed the resolve to crush a butterfly if he wanted the guts to rebuke the habit.
Gregor tucked you in. Then he followed suit and slid under the blankets.
The counterpane stopped at your sleeves and ended inches by his waist. He swore it was only yesterday when he had to leave his forearm bare for the blanket not to suffocate you in your sleep. There'll come a day when you outgrow him and this dump. He hopes it's soon.
"Nighty-night schatzi," He pat your head, "Don't let the bed bugs bite."
He clasped his pincers together with a goofy grin.
… You turned away.
Clearing his throat, he laid on his back and let his gaze abstract to the roof.
The structure's bloated beer belly hung loose. Its somehow managed to keep itself together for weeks, though with the introduction of mold, he's not sure how long before its consumed by the amalgamation entirely.
To let you live like this… he's selfish, isn't he? Dragging you down in this filth. Taking on a responsibility he wasn't ready for. He let his fragile ego get the best of him.
On the positive side, you're alive. Gotta be a worthy achievement for someone like him, no?
…
Hah.
He can't help wonder — what else could he do?
If he knew how to be a better caretaker, he'd burn himself out till he was the best. If he knew how to soothe your night terrors, he'd make sure you never had them again. If he could give you the world, a better one, it would be yours in a heartbeat.
… But love alone can't feed a kid. She knew.
He was nursed on the nectar of apples, only apples, their variation in correspondence to the quality of his performance.
Hard. Crumbly. Sappy.
What they all had in common was not having a core.
If he looked deep inside himself, would he be any different?
Gregor was brought back to reality when your head brushed against his insectoid half. On instinct, he raised his arm in a high arch to arrest sudden movements.
You were no longer facing the wall and headbutted him with a sad pout.
"Gah, sorry bud. The hole bothering you? Was gonna start repairs sooner or later, but uh..."
When his gaze drifted to the right, he felt as though the fissure penetrated through the dresser. The shield was starting to erode.
Pretty sure that wardrobe's seen more than he has.
You shook your head, and pointed to his face.
Confused, Gregor brought his hand to where you pointed. His palm slipped on his cheeks.
When his hand shifted upward, tears bunched on the heel of his palm.
"…I'm fine." Gregor chuckled, more at himself than you.
"Thought too much 'bout something. That's all."
You made an unpleasant expression — the one you always made when he did what you weren't fond of.
When you sensed his lies.
"Worrying'll wither you. Don't wanna end up a sorry creature like me, 'ne?"
You shook your head. Firmer.
With a resolute expression, you shoved your hand against his face so he wouldn't miss your message.
'TOO LATE.' You signed.
'ALREADY THE SAME.'
You dove in for a hug.
…
…That's right. That's how you ended up in his care, wasn't it?
Because the world didn't want you. Because the world left you to die in the winter-bitten streets. Because when you called out for mommy and daddy, they were 8-feet asleep, and the sky stopped your cries from reaching heaven.
So Gregor picked up the slack, because no one else bothered to.
Gregor's sadness was dry. He had already spent his tears.
You laid against him a while. Though you fluttered, and eventually went weak, your embrace remained.
From the other side of the room, the narrow hollow glared. It could seethe all it wanted.
Gregor dipped into the covers to kiss the crown of your head, bringing you closer when you shifted in your sleep.
Der apfel fällt nicht weit vom stamm.
If he was anything like you, there was hope for him after all.
the realism of canto iv's ending in depicting how japan got away with their war crimes
yi sang's trip to baechon hot springs (less of an analysis, more on infodump) -- LENGTHY
atla (za last airbender)
critique on s1 e17: northern air temple (reblog chain, discussion shifted to cultural preservation and heritage. ideas mostly focused on pierre nora's "between history and memory") -- LENGTHY
usage of coal symbolism in s1 e6: imprisoned
trok (te rise of kyoshi, subset of atla)
lek's death from a thematic viewpoint
note: my analysis r rarely long. i indicate the ones that are with "--LENGTHY"