~Pickles~

LOL i love passing out for a solid five minutes in front of this guy i hvnt seen since last semester 😝 maybe let me take a break but lwk felt so good knowing i actually get the fainting feeling now idk why.

WOOWOOOWOOO i finally did it i am 118lbs! gonna try and go for 110 😋🤭 slowly but surely

Ive been back home for a month. i’ve gained weight, i wanna be mad and try to lose it again but i can’t lie i genuinely hv no motivation. overall ive just lost motivation to do jack shit. coming home is making me go crazy. i have no genuine friends, my birthdays in 2 days and im stuck planning everything out FOR MY BIRTHDAY. I CANT EVEN GO TO THE BEACH I WANT BC SOMEONE DOESNT LIKE IT. i keep shoving food in my mouth and i feel disgusting after but i can’t stop myself. the one friend i really care about i hvnt been able to see bc of work and when i do see her she brings along another person LIKE YOURE MY PERSON WHY CANT I BE YOURS. maybe i should js use that as motivation to lose weight but idk anymore. 🤷‍♀️

oh lawddd im home for summer break. i’m scared im going to gain weight again bc my mom makes sure i eat… god why am i back. don’t get me wrong missed everyone but this one lil factor js ruins everything.

i did molly and now i js feel so bleh and i keep shoveling food down my throat bc i genuinely js feel like shit. i want to go home i fucking hate college.

i just got irl meanspo! i was walking to do my laundry n this group of guys just straight up started laughing. i didn’t think anything abt it until one of them said why are u laughing at her and they started whispering and they all laughed… welp guys never showing my face in campus or eating again!!! god what did i even do man.

ahem i hv a confession. i go out to eat w my friend sorder something eat a bit do it and give it to my other firends so they get fat. idk why i do it but it makes me feel better bc one of them complains abt being fat and says he doesn’t eat that day and it annoys me so when i give them my food it makes me smile. its not that i don’t him lie he smy friends but idk

i went back home for winter break i go into work and the first thing someone said to me is i look so much skinnier than when u left. WOOOOO genuinely made me feel good. worst part about break is i went to guatemala w my boyrfriend really fun btw, and when we come back he breaks up w me so IM SINGLE NOW WOOOOOO. js love the turns of events this winter break im using it as motivation to keep losing weight

guys… i’m going back home for winter break i need to lose some weight while im away from college any tips? i’m really down for anyy possible method!!