bennie: old

After everything they'd gone through together, all their history, their love spanning 6000 years, they literally vanished into dust.

Their "human versions" are not them. They met each other in their 50s? 60s? and will get like 30 or so years together.

No sticking together for centuries despite being from opposite factions in an eternal conflict, no developing their rivalry, friendship, and eventually love throughout the ages, no having each other's back despite the dangers of doing so, no bickering, no rescuing each other, no "you go too fast for me, Crowley", no 'our' Bentley, no "angel" as a pet name, NO THEM. At all.

‘It was the Hell you’d feared in childhood, come to devour the children. It was treading over the corpses of your friends so that you might be killed yourself. It was the congealed evil of a century.’

— In Memoriam, Alice Winn

HOORAY john came out. i cannot believe he's only just doing it now because lets br. glass closet. on that topic charles feels kind of aro to me idkkk i feel it in my heart of hearts i feel it. until canon contradicts me this is what i am believing for now.

also i CANNOT believe he tried to get john to ask him to have sex by saying “oh you know i'd do anything you told me to do haha”. guy who is. soooooo emotionally constipated. like bewteen that and trying to die in a war like john clocked him so hard he Does do everything in an ill conceived and roundabout way (unfortunately this is exactly how i talk)

also the cigarette??? crazy as fuck. intricate rituals and all that. john really is working his ass off to flirt with this oblivious bastard like "oh no i'll just have some of your cigarette" and i was already kind of going Wow man at that and then the. the pause?? and the "you couldve just handed it to me" I AM LOSING MY MIIIIND charlie baby. please take a hint his fingers were on your mouth

also the way you can tell "friendship" means soooo much to charles. like its so hard for him to admit that he basically always wanted to be friends with john. and he considers it an "overture of that nature" which to john immediately reads as intimate because friendship IS intimate to charles. im losing my mind someone sedate me (he is so aro to me)