journeys through the mind

me: great, I'll work on one of the urgent/important tasks i haven't been able to finish

me, that night: tomorrow i will do dishes

i hope it is okay for me to ask ( if it's not, then, just don't answer this, m sorry:(((( ).

im doing some research on bpd because im pretty sure that i may have it? i recently found out that im autistic, and im basically having an existential crisis. not that it has nothing to do withthis, but,

what are your symptoms for bpd, personally? i cant go to a therapist or anything because they're just... not good. last therapist basically kind of denied my autism by saying it was aspergers and that it had nothing to do with it.

i hope this is okay, ahhh, sorry if its not 💗

Hi! First of all, I'm sorry for the wait in a response! Things got really hectic for a bit in my personal life. I hope you are doing okay <3 It's absolutely OK to ask and I'm glad you're seeking out information, when I was dxed with bpd I was super overwhelmed! (Note that I was professionally dxed but this is a self-dx supportive space!)

Everyone experiences bpd differently, that's why the DSM has multiple criteria and people don't always experience all of them. (Of course the DSM has its issues but just as a starting point ya know.) For me the major symptoms were very unstable moods, a lot of distress (+sh), really unstable relationships (not just romantic but close friends too) where I dealt with idealization & splitting. Fearing abandonment and taking desperate measures to avoid it. And dissociation. A lot of people experience impulsive/"reckless" behavior as well. I hope that helps! Kind of underpinning everything is not really having a sense of identity/self.

Not being autistic I don't have much experience about how you might experience comorbidity (multiple dxes because they can sometimes share symptoms or affect each other) but I know there are ppl on here who do.

I know that's a lot but I hope that helps and if you have more questions/that didn't quite get at it please let me know!