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Be Silent and Listen, NJ

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Recently, when I was going to bed after using my bathroom, I started hearing sound of drops of water from the tap in slow successions, but since it was dropping into an empty bucket, I decided to let it be. But, alas! When I woke up the next morning, around 5am, the bucket was almost full! I was surprised that just drops even in such slow successions could produce that much. I couldn't help it, 'Just drops?!' I questioned rhetorically. But the following night, I made sure that the tap in my bathroom was locked completely and I checked the bucket and saw that it was empty, though wet. Then I went to sleep. I guess you already know what I saw the next morning. The bucket was not wet as I had left it, but it was now dry! Then I realized the importance of a drop and how much difference it can make in all ramifications of one's life compared to a dry tap. Imagine letting the drops be for a year, I would be scooping with drums at the end of the year! So, how about that drop of savings? How about that drop of kindness and love everyday? How about a drop of reading useful books today and every day? How about that drop of a verse of the scripture today and every day? How about that drop of prayer today and every day? How about a drop of worship today and every day? How about a drop of step towards your God-given dream today and every day? How about a drop of giving into your heavenly account? What virtue and discipline will you start today in little drops? Never neglect the importance of a drop, for when the harvest time comes, you would have made a big difference. Ponder on these thoughts

Days slip into weeks, weeks turn into months and months transform into years. Calendars are changing and so am I. Yes, I am changing.In certain things age has mellowed me down, in others I have become more aggressive . Sometimes I find myself acting very wisely and sometimes I just go crazy. Certain issues will have me speaking vociferously whereas at other issues I just shrug and remain silent. Yes, I am changing! After loving my parents, my siblings, my spouse, my children, my friends, now I have started loving myself. Yes, I am changing. I just realised that I am not “ Atlas ” and the world does not rest on my shoulders. Yes, I am changing. I have now stopped bargaining with the poor vegetable and fruit vendors. After all, a few rupees more is not going to burn a hole in my pocket but it might help the poor fellow save for his daughter’s school fees. Yes, I am changing. I pay the auto wallah / cab wallah and walk away without waiting for the change.The extra money might bring a smile on his face.After all he is toiling much harder for a living than me. Yes, I am changing. I have stopped telling the elderly that they have already narrated that story many a times.After all, the story makes them walk down the memory lane and relive the past. Yes, I am changing. I have learnt not to correct people even when I know they are wrong. After all ,the onus of making everyone perfect is not on me.Peace is more precious than perfection. Yes, I am changing. I give compliments freely and generously now . After all its a mood enhancer not only for the recipient but also for me. Yes, I am changing.I have learnt not to bother about my creased shirt or mismatched dupatta. After all, personality speaks louder than appearances. Yes, I am changing. Nowadays I don't bother if my eyebrows are not done or fine lines are showing on my forehead. After all beauty of my soul outshines the beauty of my face. Yes, I am changing.I am learning not to let others make me feel incompetent.After all I am not only what they see in me. I might not be good at certain things but I am excellent at others. Yes, I am changing. I walk away from people who don't value me.After all, they might not know my worth, but I do. Yes, I am changing. I remain cool when someone plays dirty politics to outrun me in the rat race.After all I am not a rat and neither am I in any race. Yes, I am changing. I am learning not to be embarrassed by my emotions. After all it's my emotions that make me human. Yes, I am changing. I now tell people if I like them.After all ,there is nothing wrong in liking someone. Yes, I am changing. I have learnt that its better to drop the ego than to break a relationship. After all, my ego will keep me aloof whereas with relationships I will never be alone. Yes, I am changing.I demand for whatever is due to me.After all, accepting injustice is almost as bad as doing injustice. Yes, I am changing. I have learnt to live each day as it were the last.After all, it might be the last . Yes, I am changing. I am doing what makes me happy.After all, I am responsible for my happiness, and I owe it to me. And I am loving the new me!

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Life is too short, And I choose you!

Berdoalah…. sama halnya seperti kau menulis diary. Mencurahkan isi hati tanpa membekaskan tinta dan coretan sana-sini. Kau hanya berbicara pada Allah tentang apa yang kau rasakan. Tidak perlu membuang kertas yang akhirnya terbuang dan terlupakan. Mintalah ketenangan pada Allah agar kau lebih ikhlas berjalan esok hari. Cukup! cukup Allah yang tahu isi hatimu tanpa memaksakan seseorang mencari tahu tapi hanya untuk mencelamu.

Apa yang harus aku lakukan Yah? Laki-laki itu tept dihadapanku! Jika memang Allah sudah menakdirkanku, kita bisa berbuat apa?

Aku tak tahu kemana hatimu, Aku tak tahu apakah aku cukup layak! Tapi, aku terlanjur riang terjebak dalam duniamu.

Be Silent and Listen, NJ

Lagi-lagi Palestina kembali berduka atas penyerangan Zionis Israel baru-baru ini. Saudara-saudari kita di Palestina kembali kehilangan nyawa : Suami, istri dan paling banyak anak-anak  mereka yang masih berumur belia meninggal dengan rintihan senjata dan bom oleh laknatullah Israel. Kita mungkin masih bisa tidur dengan tenang dan bisa shalat dengan khusyuk tapi mereka di sana sama sekali tidak sedetik pun merasakan ketenangan karena dentuman bom dan senjata yang selalu terdengar. Bahkan selama peristiwa ini Sholat wajib yang 5 kali dalam sehari harus mereka tambah denga 6 kali shalat wajib dalam sehari : Subuh, Dhuhur, Ashar, Magrib, Isya dan Sholat Jenazah. Adakah kita merasa berduka dengan kejadian ini? Saudara-saudari sekalian Rasullah SAW bersabda : "Perumpamaan orang-orang mukmin dalam berkasih sayang bagaikan satu tubuh, apabila satu anggota badan merintih kesakitan maka sekujur badan akan merasakan panas dan demam" (HR. Muslim). Kalau kita tidak bisa ikut berperang melawan penjajah Israel maka rasa kecintaan kita kepada saudara kita di Palestina adalah mendo'akan mereka agar tabah dalam menghadapi musibah dan selalu mendapat pertolongan dan perlindungan dari Allah SWT. 

My most fav. words

I should actually hate you The more I embrace you, it hurts Although when morning comes, I will look for you again I should actually push it back This love that can’t be used anymore Because time will blur us, somehow I’m sorry that I still think of you, That I still love you That I won’t be able to completely let you go in the end Let me love you Just for one more day This is the lie I say again But when I see you, I forget about it as I give you a smile And I fall in love with you again These are words I can’t keep If I don’t see you, I’ll hurt again, I’ll cry But I still promise myself I’m between heaven and hell because of you I hate myself For becoming more desperate when things go more awry I’ll smile so you won’t figure out my heart completely In the end, Hearts are blurred! Re-Arranged, NJ