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Pengen pensiun dini woy tapi uangnya manaaaaa😭😭😭

Mungkin ga yah YaAllah 5-10M itu. Ga gede kan kalo dibandingin sama korupsi pejabat 😭

Damn

Did it makes u feels like is happy everlasting ever exist?

Did it makes u doubt and suddenly hoping, is it gonna be a storm if i am this happy?

Then being happy just a moment then numb again.

And suddenly bam you are just happy and cant process, can i be this happy? Can i? Am i deserve it?

Gimana ya paling personal, his song was there when i was in the dark, doing the thesis, internship, some fam struggle, me struggling in myself, work. You were there so im not feeling alone in this world as the eldest daughter 😭👊

Istilahnya kaya naadin di konser ini semua aku dirayakan woyy😭😭😭

Malemnya apa gua beli lagi ya tiket day 2 anjir sebuah pemikiran impulsive yang tidak dewasa. Eh masih ada jualan merch di pp doi juga kesana, yaudah ke pp aja. Mayann kualitas merch nya bagus qualitynya. Menemaniku selalu commute bekerja kemana2 huhuhu

So that's why I am not aceepting myself yet

How come?

Then I didn't get why I always end up friends with someone out of my league, they're fun, our jokes match, but there's always something I cannot related with them, and I wont confirm it, I dont want they know.

Is it like, am I a liar?

I am not honest with myself.

They have their richness, their love life, their privilleges from their parent. And I am not, and I wont admit it, and I am not proud with it.

Can I go as far as I can?

Can I just sleep forever?

Is there any happiness left for me? So that's the reason why I live longer than my friends? I hope so.

The last thing I was the happiest was, when I am in the concert of ROC, it's like all of the darkness in ny thought was being celebrated in there. :").