This is a massive preemptive tw about death.
Hey yโall. Mod Silver here.
So obviously this blogs been. Pretty dead. Iโd be amazed if anyone who still follows it is active anymore.
And I mean, thereโs a good reason for that. Several, actually. Iโve been slammed out the butt with school; Iโve been maintaining a job I love; Iโve lost and gained partners. Some more permanently than others.
When we first started this blog, Mod Rainbow and I were dating in secret. We did for several years, until we both grew tired of the relationship and wanted to return to being friends like we were beforehand. So we did, and things were good.
Until a few months later, when she got sick. Real, real sick. She was diagnosed with leukemia in October of last year. We were promised that she was young, she would get through this. But then they had complications with the chemo and she got infected with a necrotic bacteria and the wounds werenโt healing. She just kept getting worse and worse, but promised she was okay, that she would be able to move back and we could be at the community college together and things would be good and safe and normal.
If you canโt tell by now, thatโs not how things went. Mod Rainbow is gone, she passed away in October of this year.
Iโve been lost ever since. My best friend of 15 years is gone. I donโt know what Iโm doing. Especially when it comes to this blog. What has been posted here since has been by mistake, because I donโt know what to do with it. Itโs got memories, good and bad. We wanted it to make it big, to be a comfort to those around us and to grow as individuals ourselves. But now, without herโฆI just donโt know what to do.
Maybe Iโm asking for help. Maybe Iโm asking for attention again. Maybe I just wanted to ramble into a void. This blog wonโt be removed, not yet. But. Thatโs an explanation to all of you.
~Mod Silver




























