Mega Pussy Juice :)

anyway, school is pretty overwhelming and people really want to pretend that the medical track isnt guaranteed emotional wreckage. but i hate to be the bitch whos only aspect of identity is this job, and yet i have no time to cultivate any other of my identities. i am a woman of worth and a woman with much to offer the world, but i dont have the means to handle it all. all on top of literal depression. imagine down to the workings of your muscles, you literally cannot bring yourself out of bed? that shit is debilitating, a blow to morale, and a time suck like no other. trudging my way through another mental breakdown while not disturbing the ecosystems of human lives going on around me and remaining a useful part of the society i have to survive in and contribute to, is fucking hard work and then you have to pretend to not be livid when someone calls you lazy :) and then on top of that, being a med student who thinks this is a real stupid way to spend my damn 20s so its not at all a daMN FLEX. AND THEN HAVING NOTHING TO RUMINATE ON BUT YOUR DEPRESSION AND YOUR STUPID ASS CAREER SO ITS ALL YOU CAN TALK ABOUT BC THE REST OF MY PERSONALITY IS TOO TAXING TO BRING OUT BC  anyway im not okay but i have to pretend to be okay bc i have too many responsibilities to not keep it pushing and ow brain