Team Still Here

More Like Brothers

Quite practiced at shading the truth himself.

I need to go to bed.

But I’m so happy to see ‘Adne Thorne’ in my save files again. Different appearance because I love this character and feel like they fit Adne more.

Field/Combat Medic specializing in blight sickness and midwifery

Warden Warrior

Interact more.

Maybe make new friends.

I’m nervous. And afraid.

But maybe I should do it, anyway.

Redownloading Veilguard to create a safe escape. Because I don’t really know what else to do right now.

Other than crawl into a hole. Or step in front of a train. Not actively considering, brain is just creating ideation. Constantly.

I’m so tired of this.

It never ends. 😔

I know I’ll even out again but these highs and lows…I wish medication helped. But it tends to come with a host of other extreme symptoms.

I’m just so damn tired.

39 in November and this has been going on since middle school.

Sunshine Opal Iris

Forest Gnome Druid

They/them, They/she Non-Binary

Contractually “employed” by Raphael

Current mood? Agitated and wary with an undercurrent of terror. Less with the tadpole, more with disappointing their boss. Sunny has some…issues. And they were in the middle of a job when this happened. A complete mind-flayer transformation would not be considered an excused absence. A dormant tadpole? Even less so.

I have enough money for 2 more representations. TWO. I am so done with this fiscal year. It’s been so much. 😭

Also? I started another BG3 playthrough. Because of course I did. Still taking a little Veilguard break.

I know where this story is going and why. I resolved a major plot issue. I understand motivating factors better now.

I didn’t realize whose story I was telling until I started writing things out. This OC has been one of my favorites but I always struggled with the Crows being their salvation. Now the Crows are the cause of the Rite of Tranquility, not the reason for its reversal. The mental conversations with Viago (and other Crows) has already started rl change.

Anyway…I’m hoping to flesh out some details and actually put pen to paper this week.

If anyone would be interested in talking about this story with me, please let me know. I’d love the opportunity to just…talk about a few things with fandom folks.

I guess I could just post notes here, too. But sometimes privacy is nice when working on plot details.