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just choso malfunctioning everytime you kiss him <3
choso is not prepared for how casually affectionate you are.
he knows youâre loving. he understands that in theory. what he does not understand is how often you decide to express that love by just⌠kissing him whenever the thought crosses your mind.
which is often.
heâs sitting on the couch one afternoon, carefully untangling one of your necklaces like itâs a delicate operation, brows furrowed in deep concentration. his fingers are precise, gentle, moving slowly because the last thing he wants is to break something that belongs to you.
youâre watching him with your chin in your hands.
âbaby,â you say softly.
he hums in acknowledgment without looking up. âalmost done.â
you lean forward and kiss his cheek. itâs quick, light, thoughtless.
choso freezes. completely.
his hands stop mid motion, necklace dangling between his fingers. his shoulders lock. his brain empties in one clean sweep, like someone wiped the slate.
you blink. âyou okay?â
he nods once, too fast. ââŚyes.â
he is not okay.
his cheek feels like itâs on fire, his heart is beating in his throat, he is suddenly hyper aware of every inch of space between you.
you smile like nothing happened. âthank you for fixing it.â
ââŚyouâre welcome,â he says carefully, voice quieter than usual.
he does not resume untangling the necklace for a full ten seconds because his motor functions have temporarily abandoned him.
this happens every time.
you like kissing him as punctuation.
he learns this quickly.
a kiss when you pass him in the hallway. a kiss when he hands you something. a kiss when he says something you find cute, which is often because you think everything he does is cute.
heâs leaning in the kitchen doorway one night, watching you stir something on the stove like itâs the most fascinating thing in the world, when you glance up, smile, and walk over just to press a soft kiss to his lips.
you pull away immediately and go back to cooking like that was normal. (which, really, it was very normal of you to do.)
choso is still standing there processing.
his brain replays it once. twice. three times.
ââŚyou kissed me,â he says finally.
you look over your shoulder. âyeah?â
ââŚokay.â
he doesnât move for the next minute.
the spoon in your hand clatters against the pot and you turn to find him staring at the counter like heâs trying to remember how gravity works.
âbaby?â you laugh. âyouâre doing the thing again.â
âwhat thing,â he asks, dazed.
âthe buffering.â
he nods slowly. âyes.â
that feels accurate.
you kiss him when youâre proud of him.
he finishes folding laundry. kiss.
he opens a jar for you. kiss.
he remembers where you left your hair ties. kiss.
each one lands like a small explosion in his chest.
one evening, you crawl into his lap while heâs sitting on the floor and cup his face with both hands.
âyouâre doing so good,â you tell him seriously.
he blinks. ââŚdoing what?â
âbeing you,â you say.
and then you kiss him.
soft. warm. lingering just long enough to make his thoughts trip over themselves.
when you pull back, choso is staring at you like youâve just revealed a secret of the universe.
ââŚthank you,â he whispers.
his hands come up automatically to steady you, fingers resting at your waist like he needs to anchor himself to something.
you grin. âyouâre welcome.â
he will think about that kiss for the rest of the night.
your favorite thing is surprise kisses.
choso never expects them. not because theyâre rare, but because every single time his brain convinces itself he is prepared.
he is not.
heâs brushing his hair in the bathroom mirror when you sneak in behind him, wrap your arms around his waist, and tilt your head to kiss his shoulder.
his reflection visibly short circuits. the brush stops halfway through a stroke, his eyes widen just slightly.
ââŚhello,â he says to the mirror.
âhi,â you hum, kissing his shoulder again. âyouâre pretty.â
he swallows. âthank you.â
his grip tightens on the brush like heâs grounding himself. he finishes brushing his hair in complete silence, moving on autopilot while his thoughts spin uselessly in circles.
you leave the bathroom humming.
he stands there for another thirty seconds before whispering,
ââŚwow.â
the thing is, you never mean to wreck him.
to you, kissing him is as natural as breathing. itâs affection. itâs comfort. itâs joy. you do it because you like him, because heâs warm and soft and safe, because your heart tells you to and youâve never been good at ignoring that voice.
choso, on the other hand, experiences every kiss like itâs the first one heâs ever received.
like a small miracle. like something fragile and rare that heâs terrified of mishandling.
so he stills every time. melts every time. forgets how to function every time.
and when you curl into his side later that night, pressing one sleepy kiss to his jaw before drifting off, he lies there wide awake, heart steady and full, thinking the same thing he always does after you kiss him.
how does something so small feel this big.
he wraps an arm around you carefully, holding you close, and lets himself relax into the warmth of it.
because if this is what love feels like he wants to malfunction forever.
naoya is probably the worst one to have as a yandere but god do I love reading about him
And just that short fic (start of jjk characters obsession) - naoya
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no fr it's a guilty pleasure. like i know i should hate him, he's disgusting and icky and gross but i love disgusting icky gross men i need therapy :/ i hate him and love him, esp yandere naoya ugh
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yes there will be!!! i have a lot planned for dilf toru actually!! the problem is my attention span, i have so many ideas and i keep jumping from writing one fic to the next it's actually torture TT but hopefully i will be posting some more dilf x bimbo fics in the next couple of days!! stay tuned <33
ŕ¨ŕ§â⢠warnings: smut, 18+ minors do not interact, oral sex (m. and f. recieving), unprotected sex, p in v sex.
youâre on your back in the middle of gojoâs massive bed, legs hooked over his shoulders while heâs got you folded in half, cock buried so deep you swear you can feel him in your throat. heâs thrusting slow and filthy, long, deliberate drags that make your sparkly nails rake down his back and your glossy lips part in needy little gasps. his blue eyes are glowing brighter than usual, that cursed energy flickering like tiny stars and heâs smirking down at you like he knows exactly how ruined you already are.
âfuck, baby⌠look at you,â he groans, voice all lazy and teasing. âtakinâ me so good. my dumb little angel, all stretched and pretty.â
youâre whimpering, trying to focus on how full you feel until your hazy gaze locks on his eyes. theyâre practically lighting up the dim room, swirling with that endless blue, and your brain just⌠stops.
ââtoru⌠wait, waitwait,â you gasp out, hips still rocking up to meet his even as you reach up to cup his face. âyour eyes⌠do they glow like nightlights? like⌠do they get brighter when you cum? are they gonna light up the whole room when you finish inside me?â
gojo freezes mid thrust.
his cock twitches hard inside you, but otherwise he doesnât move. he stares down at you for a solid three seconds then bursts out laughing so hard the whole bed shakes.
âbaby what the actual fuck-â
âno no listen!â you whine, pouting up at him, still clenching around his length because you canât help it. âtheyâre so pretty and bright! what if theyâre like⌠mood lighting? or like⌠orgasm flashlights? do they get super bright when youâre close? i wanna see!â
heâs wheezing now, tears in the corners of his eyes, but his hips start moving again. slow at first, teasing, keeping you right on the edge.
âyouâre riding the edge of the biggest orgasm of your life,â he pants between laughs, âand youâre asking if my eyes turn into disco balls when i nut?â
you nod frantically, cheeks flushed pink. âyes! itâs science! cursed energy science! i need data!â
gojo groans, half amused, half feral, and suddenly picks up the pace. every thrust slams you up the mattress, making your tits bounce and your tears smudge your mascara.
âfine,â he growls, leaning down so his face is inches from yours, eyes blazing brighter now. âyou want data? iâll give you fuckinâ data.â
he fucks you stupid, the wet slap of skin on skin filling the room. one hand slides between you to rub messy circles over your clit, the other pinning your wrists above your head.
âwatch,â he pants, voice wrecked. âwatch my eyes, princess. see how bright they get when iâm about to fill this tight little pussy.â
you canât look away. theyâre glowing so intense now, electric blue, swirling faster, lighting up every inch of his face and the sight alone makes your tummy coil tight.
ââtoru, âtoru ohmygod!!â
âyeah?â he snarls, hips stuttering. âgonna cum for me? gonna cream all over my cock while my eyes light up like you wanted?â
you shatter, clenching so hard around him your vision whites out, crying out his name in broken sobs. his eyes flare impossibly bright right as he follows, burying himself deep and spilling hot inside you with a guttural groan, grinding through the aftershocks while those blue lights pulse like theyâre matching his heartbeat.
when he finally collapses half on top of you, both of you panting, heâs still chuckling softly against your neck.
âso,â he murmurs, pressing lazy kisses to your sweaty skin, âscientific conclusion: yes. they get brighter when i cum. happy now, my little researcher?â
you giggle weakly, all floaty and blissed out, reaching up to trace the fading glow in his eyes.
âmhm⌠best experiment ever.â he snorts, pulling you closer.
âyouâre ridiculous,â he whispers, voice fond. âand iâm never letting you go.â
â˘âSUGURU GETOââ˘
youâre on your knees in the middle of suguruâs quiet bedroom, legs spread wide on the soft rug while heâs got his face buried between your thighs, long black hair spilling over your skin like silk. his tongue is lapping slow, lazy circles around your clit then dipping lower to lap at your entrance, making your hips twitch and your sparkly nails tangle in his hair. heâs humming low against you, the vibrations pulling soft whimpers from your throat and youâre already so close your toes are curling.
âsugu feels so good,â you breathe, voice all floaty and sweet. âyouâre so perfectâŚâ
he groans quietly in response, hands sliding up to grip your thighs, keeping you open for him. until your hazy gaze drifts down to the messy half ponytail heâs wearing. strands are falling loose around his face, and suddenly your brain latches on.
âsuguâŚâ you gasp out, thighs squeezing his head just a little as you reach down to play with the loose pieces. âyour hair⌠itâs so pretty. can i braid it? like, right now? it would look so cute with little flowers or something.â
suguru pauses. tongue still pressed flat against your clit, but he doesnât move. he slowly lifts his head just enough to look up at you through dark lashes, eyes calm, unreadable, a faint sheen of your slick on his lips.
ââŚbraid it?â he repeats, voice low and smooth, that quiet amusement he always carries when you derail him like this.
you nod frantically, cheeks flushed pink, still rocking your hips in tiny needy circles because you canât stop. âyeah! itâs so long and soft and i could make it all pretty while you⌠you know⌠keep going. itâd be romantic!â
he exhales slowly through his nose, a soft, patient sound, and lets his head rest against your inner thigh for a second like heâs deciding how much to indulge you. then he reaches back, pulling the hair tie free so the rest of his hair falls loose around his shoulders.
âyou want to play with it that badly?â he murmurs, voice velvet and low. âwhile iâm tasting you?â
you bite your glossy lip, nodding again, fingers already threading through the dark strands. âplease? itâs so silky⌠and it smells like youâŚâ
getoâs eyes darken, something possessive flickering there. he doesnât laugh at the sudden shift, just watches you with that steady, intense gaze as he leans back in, tongue flicking slow and teasing over your clit again.
âfine,â he says quietly. âbraid it. but you keep those hips right here. if you stop grinding against my mouth, i stop.â
you squeal softly, happy and needy, and start sectioning his hair with trembling fingers while he goes back to eating you out. slow, thorough, like heâs savoring every taste. every time you tug a little too hard or pause to admire how pretty the braid looks, he sucks harder on your clit, making your back arch and a broken moan spill out.
âsugu ohmygod-â
âfocus,â he murmurs against you, voice muffled but firm. âbraid. or i tie your hands behind your back with it instead.â
you whimper, trying to keep going, fingers fumbling through the strands while he works you higher and higher. the braid is half done, messy and cute, when the pleasure finally snaps. you come hard, clenching around nothing, thighs shaking around his head and crying out his name in soft, shattered sobs.
he doesnât stop. just keeps licking you through it, gentler now, until youâre trembling and oversensitive. when he finally pulls back, lips shiny, hair half braided and falling in dark waves, he crawls up your body, caging you beneath him.
âlook at you,â he whispers, brushing a loose strand behind your ear. âmy pretty girl⌠couldnât even finish the braid.â
you giggle weakly, all blissed out, reaching up to finish the last bit with shaky fingers. âitâs⌠still cuteâŚâ
he hums low, pressing a slow kiss to your swollen lips so you taste yourself on him. then he flips you over gently, face down, ass up, and slides into you from behind in one smooth thrust making you gasp.
ânow,â he says, voice dark and calm against your ear, one hand wrapping around your tousled hair like a handle, âletâs see if you can keep braiding while i fuck you properly.â
â˘âKENTO NANAMIââ˘
youâre kneeling between nanamiâs spread thighs in your shared dining room, the late afternoon sun slanting through the blinds and painting golden stripes across the polished wood table behind him. his slacks are open just enough, tie still perfectly knotted, sleeves rolled to his elbows like heâs simply taking a brief, necessary break from paperwork. youâve got one hand wrapped around his thick cock, giving it slow, teasing strokes and your sparkly nails look almost comically delicate against the flushed, veined length.
youâre humming softly to yourself, all focused and sweet, when you suddenly tilt your head and start counting out loud in that breathy, innocent voice.
âone⌠two⌠threeâŚâ your thumb traces a prominent vein from base to tip, eyes wide with genuine fascination. âfour⌠oh wow, five⌠six⌠theyâre so pretty, ken. like little rivers. seven-â
nanamiâs breathing hitches, his jaw tightens and the hand that was resting calmly on the armrest curls into a fist.
âeight⌠nineâŚâ you keep counting the veins decorating his length, completely oblivious, other hand cupping his balls gently like youâre handling something precious. âten⌠eleven⌠gosh, thereâs so many!â
thatâs it.
nanamiâs control snaps like a taut wire.
in one smooth, powerful motion he hauls you up by the waist, effortless like you weigh nothing, spins you around and bends you over the table. your palms slap against the cool surface, papers scattering, a pen rolling to the floor with a clatter. your tiny skirt rides up instantly, panties shoved aside without ceremony.
âenough,â he says, voice low, clipped, dangerously calm. the kind of calm that means heâs about to ruin you.
he doesnât tease. doesnât ease in. he notches himself at your entrance and thrusts forward in one brutal stroke, burying every thick inch until his hips meet your ass with a sharp slap. you cry out, high and startled, nails scraping the wood.
âken-!â
âquiet.â one big hand clamps over the small of your back, pinning you down. the other grips your hip hard, his expensive watch digging into your soft skin with every punishing snap of his hips. âyou want to count? then count how many times i make you come before you forget your own name.â
he fucks you like heâs trying to imprint himself into your body, deep and hard, the table creaking under the force. every thrust shoves you forward, tits pressed flat against the paperwork, sparkly lip gloss smearing across a contract youâre pretty sure is important. his watch leaves faint red crescents on your hip with each brutal grind, a perfect little brand of his restraint finally breaking.
âlook at you,â he mutters, voice rougher now, strained. âdistracting me with your pretty little hands and your ridiculous questions. this what you wanted? me losing control?â
you can only whimper, nodding frantically, thighs trembling. the angle is merciless. heâs hitting that spot over and over, the wet slap of skin on skin loud in the otherwise quiet room. one of his hands slides up to fist your hair gently, tilting your head back just enough so he can see your flushed face, your teary eyes.
âcome on my cock,â he orders, low and firm. ânow. show me how sorry you are for teasing.â
you shatter almost instantly, clenching around him so hard your vision whites out, a broken sob of his name spilling from your lips. he doesnât slow down. keeps pounding through your orgasm until youâre shaking, oversensitive, pleading only then does he finally follow with a low, guttural groan, burying himself to the hilt and spilling deep inside you, hips grinding slow circles like he wants to make sure you feel every pulse.
when he finally stills, he doesnât pull out right away. just leans over you, chest to your back, breathing hard against your neck. his watch is still pressed to your hip, warm metal, faint imprint already blooming pink against your skin.
youâre both panting when you whisper, all soft and dazed, âdo you think⌠there were twelve veins? i lost count after elevenâŚâ
nanami exhales. a long, slow, long suffering sigh and presses a surprisingly gentle kiss to the shell of your ear.
âweâll count them again later,â he murmurs, voice gruff but fond. âafter iâve fucked the curiosity out of you properly.â
he finally eases out, turns you around, and lifts you onto the table so youâre sitting facing him. his hands smooth over your thighs, thumb brushing the watch shaped mark on your hip like heâs inspecting his work.
ânext time,â he says quietly, âkeep your hands to yourself until i say otherwise.â
you giggle weakly, nuzzling into his chest.
he sighs, but his arms wrap around you anyway.
â˘âCHOSO KAMOââ˘
chosoâs sitting up against the headboard in his dimly lit bedroom, dark hair messy across the pillow, eyes heavy and half lidded as you straddle his lap, thighs spread wide while you ride him slow and filthy. your tiny skirtâs shoved up around your waist, nails clawing at his shoulders and his big hands grip your hips, helping you bounce down hard onto his thick cock every time you drop.
âfuck, baby⌠so tight,â he groans low, voice rough and wrecked, thumbs digging into your soft skin. âkeep taking it like that my greedy little slut.â
youâre moaning, head thrown back, tits bouncing under your crop top until your gaze locks on the sharp black blood manipulation mark stretched across the bridge of his nose. it cuts over his features like a wicked slash, and in the low light it looks almost alive. your brain zeros in instantly.
you slow your hips to a dirty grind, still stuffed full of him and lean in close, pressing wet, open mouthed kisses right along the mark. then you drag the flat of your tongue over it, slow teasing laps from one cheekbone to the other like youâre tasting candy.
chosoâs whole body jerks. his cock throbs hard inside your dripping pussy, hands clamping down on your hips so tight it stings.
âshit- baby-â his voice cracks, raw and desperate.
you hum against his face, tongue flicking over the mark again in filthy circles, savoring the faint salt of his skin and that dark, addictive taste thatâs pure him. âitâs so sexy, choso⌠like a hot little tattoo. does it make your cock twitch when i lick it?â
he shudders violently, hips bucking up involuntarily ,burying himself deeper with a choked groan.
âno oneâs⌠ever put their mouth there,â he rasps, voice thick with lust. âfuck- keep going. donât stop.â
you smirk, all bratty and needy, and drag your tongue along the mark again, long, wet stripes this time while you grind down harder, clenching around his length like a vice.
âlike this?â you purr against his skin, tongue swirling right over the center. âyou gonna cum just from me licking your pretty mark?â
that breaks him.
chosoâs hands dig bruises into your hips and he starts fucking up into you, hard, fast, erratic, cock slamming deep with every desperate thrust. the wet slap of your pussy taking him fills the room, obscene and loud.
âfuck fuck- canât hold it,â he growls, eyes rolling back. âyouâre gonna make me-â
he comes hard, sudden and messy, spilling deep inside you with a guttural moan, hips jerking as thick ropes of cum flood your cunt. you feel every hot pulse, every twitch, and it drags a filthy little whimper from your throat.
but he doesnât stop.
he keeps pounding through it, cock still rock hard, still throbbing, fucking his own cum deeper into you with sloppy, greedy thrusts. his hands yank you down until your tits are smashed against his chest, mouth right against your ear.
âagain,â he pants, voice wrecked and demanding. âlick it again. make me cum inside you twice. fuck, i need it.â
you moan, tongue immediately dragging over the mark once again while you rock your hips to meet every brutal snap of his.
âa-ah! fuck cho- yes-â
he snarls low in his throat, pace turning feral, fucking you so hard the headboard bangs against the wall. the wet squelch of your cum stuffed pussy is shameless, dripping down his balls.
âcum on my cock,â he growls. âmilk me dry. now.â
you shatter around him. clenching tight, screaming his name as your orgasm rips through you. the squeeze sends him over the edge again. he buries himself balls deep and comes a second time, even harder this time, flooding you with another thick load, hips grinding like he wants to keep every drop locked inside.
when it finally ends, heâs panting against your neck, cock still twitching inside your overfilled pussy. his hands stay locked on your hips, holding you down so you canât move.
âfuck,â he mutters, voice rough and satisfied. âno oneâs ever made me lose it like that. licking my mark while you ride me stupid.â
you giggle breathlessly, nuzzling against his cheek, tongue flicking out for one last teasing swipe over the mark.
âgonna do it every time now,â you whisper, all smug and floaty. âlove how hard it makes you cum inside me.â
he groans low, hips giving one last lazy grind.
âgood girl,â he rasps, pressing a rough kiss to your jaw. âkeep that up and iâll fill you till youâre leaking for days.â
you melt against him, already clenching around his softening cock.
â˘âTAKUMA INOââ˘
takumaâs got you on your back in the middle of his messy bedroom floor, the rug soft under your shoulders while heâs settled between your thighs, cock buried deep and slow rolling his hips in lazy, perfect circles that make your toes curl. your legs are hooked loosely around his back, sparkly nails tracing random patterns on his shoulders as he fucks you with that easy, goofy rhythm he always falls into when heâs lost in you.
âgod baby, you feel so fucking good,â he groans, voice low and breathless, forehead pressed to yours. âso wet⌠so tight⌠like you were made for me.â
youâre moaning softly, all floaty and happy, until your brain takes one of its classic detours. your eyes flutter open, locking on his face sweaty, flushed, grinning that lopsided grin and the thought hits you like glitter exploding in your head.
âtakuma⌠wait⌠wait a second,â you breathe out, hips still rocking up to meet his even as you cup his cheeks. âwhat if⌠what if our souls are fucking too? like⌠right now? while our bodies are doing this⌠are our souls just⌠banging in some cosmic plane?â
ino freezes. mid thrust. cock throbbing inside you, but he doesnât move.
he blinks down at you once. twice. then a slow, delighted grin spreads across his face.
you giggle, cheeks flushing pink, clenching around him just to feel him twitch. âright? like⌠maybe this is what the universe wants. two souls slamming into each other forever. maybe thatâs the whole point of everything.â
he laughs soft, warm, the sound vibrating through his chest and into yours. he pulls back just enough to look at you properly, then leans in and kisses you slow and messy, tongue sliding against yours like heâs tasting the idea itself.
âmaybe,â he murmurs against your lips, hips giving one lazy roll that makes you whimper. âmaybe this is the meaning of life. you and me. souls fucking. bodies fucking. all of it.â
he starts moving again, every thrust punctuated by another soft kiss to your jaw, your neck, your collarbone.
âor maybe,â he whispers, pulling almost all the way out before sliding back in with a filthy grind, âthe meaning is just⌠making you giggle while iâm balls deep inside you.â
you burst into giggles, the sound turning into a moan when he hits that spot that makes stars burst behind your eyes. âtakuma ohmygod thatâs so cheesyâ
âcheesy and true,â he says, grinning wider. he stops moving entirely, buried to the hilt, and just holds there letting you feel every thick inch while he kisses you again, slow and sweet and silly.
âthink about it,â he mumbles between kisses. âbig bang? maybe that was just two souls meeting for the first time and going âoh fuck yes, letâs do this forever.ââ
youâre laughing so hard your whole body shakes, pussy fluttering around him and he groans at the sensation.
âstop stop making me laugh while youâre inside me!â you whine, but youâre still giggling, hips squirming.
âcanât help it,â he pants, starting to move again faster now, deeper. âyouâre too cute. too perfect. gotta philosophize while i fuck you stupid.â
he keeps going thrusting hard and steady stopping every few strokes just to lean down and kiss you again, whispering dumb, beautiful nonsense against your mouth.
âmaybe enlightenment is cumming so hard you forget your own name,â he groans, one hand sliding between you to rub messy circles over your clit. âmaybe nirvana is your pussy squeezing me like this.â
youâre moaning and laughing at the same time now, tears of pleasure and amusement pricking your lashes.
âtakuma, takuma pleaseâ
âyeah?â he pants, hips snapping faster. âgonna cum for me, baby? gonna let our souls high five while you cream all over my cock?â
that does it. you shatter around him clenching tight, crying out in broken giggles and moans, orgasm ripping through you like fireworks. he follows right after with a low, wrecked groan, burying himself deep and spilling inside you, hips grinding slow and filthy through the aftershocks.
when he finally collapses half on top of you, both of you panting and sweaty and still tangled together, he presses a lazy kiss to your forehead.
âso,â he whispers, voice hoarse and happy, âmeaning of life achieved?â
you giggle weakly, nuzzling into his neck. âachieved. multiple times.â
â˘âHIROMI HIGURUMAââ˘
higuruma has you bent over his heavy oak desk in the quiet home office, the single desk lamp casting warm shadows across scattered legal briefs while he stands behind you, tie loose, sleeves rolled to his elbows, cock sliding into your dripping pussy with slow, measured strokes that make the wood creak softly.
his voice stays low and precise, that same courtroom cadence rolling over you like a verdict.
âyouâre taking every inch so obediently,â he says quietly, each word calm and authoritative. âsuch a good girl for me, even after a long day.â
youâre whimpering, nails digging into the papers, trying to focus on the deep stretchâuntil he speaks again in that rich, commanding tone, and your brain completely pivots.
âhiromi,â you gasp out, pushing back against him just enough to make him pause. âyour voice⌠itâs so sexy when you talk like that. like youâre in court. can you⌠can you sentence me? sentence me to more dick? please?â
higuruma stills. cock buried deep, but motionless.
he exhales slowly through his nos, the sound of a man who has heard every absurd claim and is now hearing one mid fuck.
ââŚsentence you,â he repeats, voice flat and dry. âto more dick.â
you nod fast, cheeks flushed, clenching around him. âyes! like⌠âthe court finds you guilty of being too needy⌠sentence: hard fucking until you cry sparkly tears.â please? use the voice.â
he pauses a long second, dark eyes unreadable behind his glasses, then the tiniest twitch pulls at his mouth.
âvery well,â he says, voice dropping to that exact domain expansion timbre, smooth and unyielding. âthe court has considered the evidence. the defendant is found guilty of chronic distraction, excessive prettiness, and criminal cock teasing.â
he pulls back slow, agonizingly slow, then slams forward in one hard thrust that makes your palms slide across the desk and a sharp cry spill from your lips.
âsentence,â he continues, hips snapping in a steady, brutal rhythm that rocks the desk, âis immediate execution by deep, relentless fucking until the defendant is a sobbing, sparkly wreck. no parole.â
you moan brokenly, thighs shaking, tears already welling up as he pins you with one hand on your lower back.
âlook at this filthy little slut,â he murmurs, still in that perfect courtroom tone while pounding harder. âtaking her punishment so eagerly. the court approves.â
every word lands heavy and resonant, vibrating through youuntil youâre dripping around him, mascara streaking, lip gloss smeared.
âhiro-hiromi please-â
âsilence,â he orders softly, leaning over you, one hand circling your clit with precise pressure. âthe defendant will come when instructed. not before.â
you sob, sparkly tears spilling freely now and clench so tight he finally falters, a low curse slipping out as he fucks you faster.
âgood girl,â he praises, voice rougher at the edges. âcrying so prettily while you serve your sentence. highly satisfactory.â
the desk rattles, papers scatter, and you shatter, clenching hard, screaming his name in teary sobs. he follows with a restrained groan, burying deep and spilling inside you, grinding slow to push every drop where it belongs.
he stays inside you after, breathing steady against your neck, thumb gently wiping a tear from your cheek.
âsentence served,â he murmurs, voice softer now. âcourt adjourned.â
you sniffle-giggle, still trembling. âretrial tomorrow?â
higuruma sighs, fond and adoring and kisses your temple. âdenied. but supplementary sessions are⌠encouraged.â
you melt against the desk, still full of him.
â˘âRYOMEN SUKUNAââ˘
youâre sprawled across the massive silk sheets in sukunaâs private chambers, legs spread wide, tiny little yukata barely clinging to your shoulders while heâs got you pinned beneath him. four strong arms hold you in place, two gripping your wrists above your head, one wrapped around your throat just tight enough to make your head spin and the last one digging bruises into your hip as he fucks into you with brutal, punishing thrusts.
his cock is thick and merciless, stretching you open every time he slams home, making your sparkly nails claw at the sheets and your glossy lips part in broken little whimpers. âs-sukuna ohmygod!! too deep-â
âquiet,â he growls, voice low and dangerous, crimson eyes narrowed down at you. âyou take what i give you, little thing. every inch.â
heâs relentless, hips snapping hard, the wet slap of skin on skin echoing through the room until your hazy gaze drifts past his shoulder to the doorway.
one of the younger male servants is standing there, frozen, tray of sake still in his hands. heâs pretty. soft features, dark hair falling into wide eyes and heâs staring right at you, cheeks flushed, clearly unable to look away from the way your tits bounce with every brutal thrust.
you blink slowly, brain all fuzzy and pleasure drunk, and without thinking you whisper, âheâs⌠kinda cuteâŚâ
sukuna stops. completely.
the air in the room turns thick, heavy, like the moment before a storm breaks.
his hand tightens around your throat, not enough to hurt, but enough to remind you who owns you. his other three arms flex, muscles rippling as he slowly turns his head toward the servant.
the poor boy drops the tray. sake shatters across the floor. he stammers something incoherent and starts backing away, but sukunaâs voice cuts through like a blade.
âleave. now. or iâll rip your spine out through your mouth.â
the servant flees so fast he nearly trips over his own feet.
sukunaâs gaze snaps back to you, dark, dangerous, burning with something possessive and furious. his lips curl into a wicked, predatory smile that shows every sharp tooth.
âcute?â he repeats, voice dangerously soft. âyou think heâs cute?â
you whimper, trying to squirm under him, but he holds you pinned. âi-i didnât mean-â
âoh, you meant it,â he snarls, suddenly yanking your hips up higher so he can drive into you even deeper and harder, making your back arch off the bed with a sharp cry. âmy little dumb slut, getting distracted by some worthless insect while iâm fucking you stupid.â
he starts pounding into you with punishing force, each thrust slamming you up the bed, making your tits bounce wildly, your sparkly tears smudging your mascara. one of his hands slides down to rub rough circles over your clit, too much sensation all at once.
âlook at me,â he commands, gripping your chin so hard your lips pout. âeyes on your king. not some pathetic servant who wouldnât last a second in your tight little cunt.â
you nod frantically, sobbing with pleasure and overstimulation. âs-sukuna please- iâm sorry!â
âsorry?â he laughs, dark and cruel. âyouâll be sorry when i fuck every thought of him out of that empty head.â
he flips you over in one brutal motion, face down, ass up, then slams back inside you from behind, one hand fisting your hair to yank your head back so youâre forced to look at him over your shoulder.
âsay it,â he growls, hips snapping so hard the whole bedframe groans. âsay who you belong to.â
ây-you sukuna, only you-â
âlouder.â
âonly you! only sukuna, fuck please-â
he curses under his breath, pace turning feral and rough, animalisti until youâre screaming his name, clenching around him so hard he snarls and spills deep inside you with a guttural groan, filling you until itâs dripping down your thighs.
when he finally pulls out, you collapse onto the sheets, trembling and dazed. he rolls you onto your back with surprising gentleness, looming over you, four hands stroking over your skin like heâs claiming every inch.
ânext time you look at anyone but me,â he murmurs, voice low and dangerous against your ear, âiâll make sure you canât walk for a week. understood?â
you nod weakly, all floaty and happy despite the ache between your legs. âyes, sukunaâŚâ
he smirks, pressing a rare soft kiss to your swollen lips.
âgood girl.â
â˘âTOJI FUSHIGUROââ˘
toji has you folded in half on the bed, knees shoved up to your chest in a tight mating press, ankles hooked over his broad shoulders while he rails into you with slow, punishing thrusts that make the headboard smack the wall every time he bottoms out. your clothes long gone, panties shredded somewhere on the floor, and you're clawing uselessly at his scarred forearms as he pins you down with his weight, scarred lips curled in that lazy, dangerous smirk.
âfuck, doll⌠this pussyâs takinâ me like it was made for it,â he rasps, voice rough and smug, hips snapping forward hard enough to punch a high whimper out of you. âstill so tight even after all the times iâve stretched you stupid.â
youâre moaning, head thrown back and tears of pleasure pricking your lashes when your hazy eyes catch on the faint gray at his temples, the deep lines around his eyes when he grins, the way his muscles flex like heâs still got everything to prove. the thought slips out before you can stop it, all sweet and oblivious while your hips still buck up to meet every brutal slam.
âtoji⌠youâre so old,â you gasp between moans, voice breathy and innocent like youâre just noticing the weather. âare your knees gonna give out? like⌠a-are you gonna collapse mid thrust? do old guys get tired faster? should i be on top s-so you donât hurt yourself?â
toji freezes. cock buried balls deep, throbbing angrily inside your fluttering cunt but he doesnât move an inch. then he lets out a low, dark chuckle that vibrates through your whole body and makes your pussy clench involuntarily.
âold, huh?â he repeats, voice dangerously soft, scarred lips brushing your ear. âyou think this old manâs gonna tap out while heâs balls deep in your greedy little hole?â
before you can answer he yanks your legs higher, folding you even tighter until your knees are practically by your ears and slams back in with one brutal thrust that makes your eyes roll back and a sharp cry rip from your throat.
âkeep talkinâ shit about my age, doll,â he growls, hips pistoning faster now, harder, every snap of his waist driving him deeper than before. âtell me again how old i am while i breed this tight cunt full. go on. see if my knees give out before i make you scream.â
you whimper, trying to form words but only managing broken moans as he pounds you into the mattress, the wet slap of skin on skin loud and filthy, your poor pussy stretched wide around his thick length.
âtoji- toji youâre⌠youâre so strong for an old guy-!â
he laughs meanly again and shifts his grip, one big hand wrapping around your throat just enough to tilt your head back while the other pins your hip down so you canât squirm away from the relentless pounding.
âthatâs right,â he snarls against your mouth, teeth grazing your bottom lip. âold enough to know exactly how to fuck a bratty little thing like you stupid. old enough to fill this pussy up until itâs leakinâ me for days. now cum, cum while youâre begginâ this old man not to stop.â
the angleâs merciless, heâs hitting that spot over and over, cock dragging against every sensitive inch and the filthy words combined with the brutal rhythm send you over the edge. you shatter around him, clenching so hard your vision whites out, screaming his name in teary, broken sobs as your orgasm rips through you.
toji follows right after with a guttural groan, burying himself to the hilt and spilling thick and hot inside you, hips grinding deep like heâs trying to make sure every drop stays where it belongs.
when he finally stills, he doesnât pull out. just keeps you folded beneath him, breathing hard against your neck, scarred lips brushing your temple in a soft kiss.
âstill think my knees are gonna give out, doll?â he mutters, voice gruff and satisfied.
you giggle weakly through the aftershocks, nuzzling into his neck. âno, youâre perfect. even if youâre ancient.â
he huffs a rough laugh, nipping your earlobe hard enough to make you squeak.
âkeep talkinâ like that and this ancient cockâs gonna breed you again. right now.â
â˘âSHIU KONGââ˘
shiu relaxes on the worn leather couch in his dimly lit living room, legs spread, cigarette glowing between his lips as you straddle his lap sideways, skirt shoved up around your hips. his hand is between your thighs, two fingers sliding slow and deep into your soaked pussy while his thumb grazes lazy circles over your clit.
âlook at you, princess,â he murmurs, voice low and smooth. âalready dripping down my fingers clenching like youâre scared iâll stop.â
youâre whimpering, head tipped back against his shoulder, nails digging into his forearm until the sharp scent of tobacco hits you again and your brain latches on.
âshiu,â you gasp out, thighs shaking around his wrist even as you squirm in his lap. âsmoking is so bad for you⌠like, really really bad. your lungs are probably all black and gross inside. youâre gonna get sick and then whoâs gonna finger me like this? you have to quit, okay? promise me-â
shiu doesnât stop moving. his fingers keep stroking that perfect spot inside you, pressing harder now while he takes a long, deep drag from the cigarette without breaking eye contact.
he exhales slowly through his nose first, then leans in close, lips brushing yours.
âopen,â he says quietly, voice calm but edged with that dry amusement he saves just for your lectures.
you part your lips automatically, because when he uses that tone you always obey, and he blows the smoke directly into your mouth, thick and warm, filling your lungs until you cough softly, eyes watering and cheeks flushing hotter.
âthere,â he murmurs, thumb pressing firmer on your clit while his fingers crook harder against your gspot, rubbing in tight, relentless circles. ânow youâve got a taste of how bad it is. still wanna keep preaching, princess?â
you try to answer, you really do, but the smoke and the pressure inside you turn your words into a broken whimper. your hips jerk in his lap, pussy fluttering around his fingers, slick dripping down his wrist and soaking the front of his pants.
âsh-shiu! please-â
he chuckles low, taking another drag then leans in again, this time blowing the smoke slower, letting it curl between your lips while his fingers fuck faster, deeper, hitting that spot over and over until your thighs start to shake violently against his.
âyou gonna keep talking?â he whispers against your mouth, voice low and dark. âor are you gonna cum like a good girl and squirt all over my hand?â
the combination, the smoke in your lungs, the filthy words, the perfect pressure on your gspot snaps something inside you.
your back arches in his lap with a high, shattered cry, pussy clenching hard around his fingers as you cum hard, squirting messily over his hand and wrist soaking the sleeve of his shirt and the couch beneath you both. your whole body shakes, tears of pleasure spilling down your cheeks, sparkly mascara streaking while you sob his name in broken little gasps.
shiu doesnât stop right away. he keeps stroking through it, slower now, drawing out every tremor until youâre whimpering from overstimulation, thighs quivering in his hold.
only then does he ease his fingers out, slick and glistening, and brings them to your lips.
âclean them,â he says softly, still holding the cigarette between two fingers of his other hand. âtaste how good you came for me, even while you were lecturing.â
you part your lips again, obedient as always, and suck his fingers clean, tongue swirling around them while he watches with that lazy, satisfied smirk.
he finally stubs the cigarette out in the nearby ashtray, pulls you closer against his chest and presses a slow kiss to your temple.
âstill think i should quit?â he murmurs against your hair, voice gruff and fond.
you nod weakly against his shoulder, still catching your breath.
âyes⌠but maybe after you make me squirt again.â
he chuckles low, already sliding his hand back between your thighs. âdeal, princess.â
â˘âNAOYA ZEN'INââ˘
naoya has you bent over the long mahogany table in the dining hall of the zenin estate, skirt shoved up to your waist, panties yanked to the side while he fucks you from behind with sharp, arrogant thrusts that rattle the crystal decanter sitting nearby. one hand fists your hair to keep your cheek pressed to the polished surface, the other grips your hip hard enough to bruise, rings digging in with every punishing snap of his hips.
âfuckinâ take it,â he sneers, voice low and smug. âbent over my family table like the desperate little slut you are. should be honored iâm even touching this sloppy cunt.â
youâre moaning, tears streaking down your cheeks, ass bouncing back to meet him until your glassy eyes drift across the room and land on the ugly mustard yellow drapes, the chipped lacquer on the antique chairs, the dusty tapestry that looks like itâs been hanging there since the sengoku period. your brain completely derails.
ânaoyaâŚâ you gasp between moans, hips still rocking back greedily even as you twist your head to glance around. âthis room looks so bad⌠like really ugly. those curtains are awful and everythingâs so dark and old. iâm gonna have to change it all soon⌠maybe some pink and white? or cute little fairy lights? we canât keep living with this decor, itâs depressing-â
naoya stops dead. cock buried balls deep, throbbing angrily inside your fluttering pussy, but he doesnât pull out. the hall goes dangerously quiet except for your panting and the faint creak of the table under your palms.
then he lets out a slow, mocking laugh, cold and sharp, the kind that makes your stomach flip.
âthe decor,â he repeats, voice dripping disdain. âyouâre getting railed on my ancestral table and youâre critiquing the fucking curtains?â
before you can answer he yanks your head back harder by the hair, forcing your spine to arch until your tits press flat to the wood.
âstupid little girl,â he growls against your ear, free hand sliding around to pinch your clit meanly. âthinking about redecorating while iâm splitting your cunt open. you think you get to decide what happens in this house?â
he starts fucking you again harder, faster, punishing each thrust slamming you into the table so hard the crystal decanter rattles dangerously. the portraits on the walls seem to glare harder, but you can barely see them through the tears and the way your vision blurs every time he bottoms out.
âkeep talkinâ about the curtains,â he snarls, hips snapping with brutal precision. âtell me how much you hate the drapes while i breed this worthless pussy full. maybe if youâre lucky iâll let you pick new ones⌠after iâve fucked every thought of pink fairy lights out of your empty head.â
you sob high and broken pussy clenching around him like a vice as the mean words and relentless pounding send you spiraling. your orgasm hits like a slap shattering through you, squirting messily down his cock and thighs while you scream his name into the mahogany.
naoya follows with a low, arrogant groan burying himself deep and spilling thick ropes inside you, hips grinding like he wants to carve his claim into your womb.
when he finally pulls out he spins you around, lifts you onto the table so your ass is perched on the edge, legs dangling, cum already leaking out of you onto the polished wood. he steps between your thighs, grabs your chin, and forces you to look at the ugly yellow drapes across the room.
ânext time you get distracted by my familyâs decor mid fuck,â he murmurs, thumb smearing your tears and gloss across your cheek, âiâll bend you over every ugly piece of furniture in this house until you forget what color you wanted to paint the walls. understood?â
you nod shakily, still trembling, a dazed little smile on your tear streaked face.
âyes, naoya⌠but the curtains really are hideousâŚâ
he smirks, pressing a mocking kiss to your forehead. âgood girl. weâll burn them tomorrow.â
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pretty girls like you donât notice things like devotion. they donât notice the way someoneâs whole world rearranges itself around their smile. they donât notice the way a man looks at them like heâs memorizing the shape of their laughter just in case he forgets in his next life.
pretty girls like you are too busy living.
and god, you lived loud.
you waltzed into his life like you owned the planet. lip gloss shining, hair bouncing, perfume floating behind you like some expensive dream. you always had a new story, a new bruise on your heart from whatever guy was disappointing you that week, a new question to ask him with those soft, confused eyes heâd been in love with since the moment he first met you.
and he listened every time.
every single time.
like an idiot.
"toru," you said one night, walking next to him under the neon signs, heels clicking on the pavement, "do you think he meant it?"
satoru didnât ask who "he" was. there was always a he. some guy who didnât deserve you, some guy who had the emotional complexity of drywall, some guy who looked at you and saw a toy instead of a universe.
he shoved his hands in his pockets, exhaling a sigh that tasted like defeat. "no," he said gently. "i donât think he meant it."
you pouted, god, that pout, and leaned your head against his shoulder like it was the most natural thing in the world. like you didnât feel the way his pulse jumped. like you had no idea what you did to him.
"why doesnât anyone want me?" you whispered.
he nearly laughed. not because it was funny, no, it hurt so bad he felt it behind his ribs. but because the idea was so ridiculous he didnât know how else to process it.
"youâre⌠you," he said, voice a little tight. "youâre everything."
you didnât hear the tremor. you never did.
you just sighed again, dramatic and sad, lips glossy and eyes shiny under the city lights. "i just want someone who, like⌠actually likes me."
satoru swallowed hard.
"i know," he whispered.
and he did know. he knew exactly what you wanted. he knew exactly what you deserved. he knew exactly how he felt. but he also knew the truth that haunted him on nights like this, when you walked so close beside him he could smell the vanilla on your skin.
you didnât see him.
not like that.
you saw him the way pretty girls see good men, safe, reliable, comfortable. someone to run to after the heartbreak, not someone to fall for before it.
you stopped walking suddenly, grabbing his sleeve with those delicate fingers heâd never held in the way he wanted.
"i think iâm gonna call him," you said.
satoru closed his eyes, just for a second. just long enough to shove every feeling he had for you into a locked box inside his chest.
"yeah?" he said, forcing a smile. "go for it."
you lit up like it was hope. like it was a chance. like it wasnât another wound waiting to happen.
"toru, youâre the best," you said, rising on your toes to kiss his cheek before you ran off down the street, phone already in hand.
he stood there long after you disappeared.
long after the neon lights buzzed and the night swallowed your figure and the weight of what heâd never be settled back over his shoulders.
he didnât chase you. he never did.
because pretty girls donât notice the men who worship them.
and satoru gojo worshipped you more than anything heâd ever believed in.
â˘âSUGURU GETOââ˘
geto always thought he understood people. their patterns, their selfishness, the way they clung to whatever made them feel less alone for even a second. he understood desire in others the way a scholar understands text, academically, distantly, never personally. and then he met you.
you werenât supposed to matter. you werenât supposed to linger in the edges of his mind like sunlight leaking through paper walls.
but you did and it ruined him a little.
you showed up in his life like a warm breeze, all lip gloss smiles and soft sweaters and the kind of bright, gentle sincerity that made him painfully aware of every violent thought heâd ever had. you waved at him the first time you met, a small, silly flutter of your fingers, like you were greeting a friend and not a stranger whose entire worldview was a funeral home full of bad memories.
and he shouldâve ignored you. he shouldâve stayed distant. he shouldâve protected you from himself.
but instead he found himself watching, always watching, from the corner of whatever room you were in. there was something about your laugh, the way your face lit up like a lantern when someone said your name, the softness in your eyes when you talked about even the smallest things. he pretended he didnât care, but he learned every version of your smile like scripture.
the problem was that you never smiled like that at him. not the way he wanted.
you liked the wrong boys, that was your curse.
you liked boys who didnât text back, who took you out when it was convenient, who made you feel small in the ways that left bruises on the inside. and geto hated them. not out of jealousy, but out of something darker, something protective and consuming that curled under his ribs like smoke.
he saw you standing outside the school one evening, hugging yourself against the cold, mascara smudging at the corners of your eyes. the boy youâd been excited about, the one youâd talked to him about for a week straight, had just left with someone else. heâd brushed past you without even looking back and geto watched you break without making a sound.
"hey," he called softly, walking over like he hadnât been observing from a distance like a ghost, "you okay?"
your smile was fragile. "oh hey, suguru. yeah, iâm fine. iâm just⌠stupid."
his stomach twisted. "donât say that."
"itâs true," you mumbled, rubbing at your cheeks. "i always pick the wrong people."
he wanted to tell you that he would never do that to you, never leave you waiting, never treat you like an afterthought, never make you doubt the light you carried in your bones. he wanted to say that he noticed everything about you, how kind you were, how thoughtful, how you held your pain like something to be ashamed of instead of something that proved you survived.
but he said none of it.
instead he shrugged off his coat and draped it over your shoulders. "itâs cold," he murmured, "you shouldnât stand out here alone."
you blinked up at him with those soft, wet eyes and something in his chest cracked straight down the middle.
"thanks," you whispered, pulling the fabric close. "youâre always so nice to me."
nice.
he almost laughed. if only you knew.
if only you knew how he clenched his fists when someone spoke to you with anything less than tenderness. if only you knew how every shitty boy you fell for made him want to set the whole world on fire just to give you somewhere safer to stand. if only you knew how many times heâd imagined telling you the truth, that you were too good, too warm, too golden for any of them.
you leaned into him without thinking, cheek pressed to his shoulder, seeking warmth and comfort from someone you didnât know was breaking inside.
"donât worry," you sighed, trying to laugh it off, "iâll get over him. i always do."
and geto closed his eyes.
because you would. you would get over him and then youâd fall for someone else who wouldnât deserve you.
and geto would be there, steady, loyal, constant, silently stitching himself shut every time you handed your heart to the wrong hands.
"you deserve better," he said finally, voice low, steady, betraying more than it should.
you smiled up at him, soft and grateful and painfully oblivious.
"you always say things like that," you teased gently.
"i say them because theyâre true."
you nudged him lightly, missing every aching thing behind his tone. "suguru, youâre such a good friend."
friend.
the word landed like a knife.
he forced a smile. "yeah," he whispered, looking away so you wouldnât see the truth in his eyes, "something like that."
and as you slipped your arm through his and walked home beside him, warm in his coat and unaware of the storm inside him, suguru thought, he wasnât sure if he wanted you to notice, or if he was terrified of what would happen if you did.
â˘âKENTO NANAMIââ˘
nanami has always been the kind of man who keeps his feelings folded neatly inside himself, tucked away like pressed paper inside a book, quiet and private and impossible to read unless you already know what youâre looking for. and you, loud, sweet, soft in a way the world never deserved, never looked closely enough to see how every small thing you did carved him open gently, like a knife wrapped in silk.
you werenât trying to hurt him, he knew that. you never even realized what you were doing.
like tonight, standing outside that little restaurant near your apartment, shivering a little in the evening air while you checked your lipstick in your phone camera, shoulders pulled back and chest lifted like you were trying so, so hard to look confident for a man who didnât even deserve to breathe the same air as you.
nanami leaned against the wall beside you, hands in his pockets, pretending not to watch you in the reflection of the window. pretending his heart wasnât twisting itself into quiet knots every time you sighed out, almost under your breath, "i hope he likes my outfitâŚ"
nanami liked your outfit, he liked everything on you. heâd like you wrapped in velvet or lace or bubble wrap or newspaper. heâd like you in anything as long as you were standing in front of him, alive and real and still trusting him enough to confide in him like he was someone who could handle it.
the man you were waiting for wasnât worth the effort. nanami knew it, you didnât. that was the problem.
"do you think heâll think i look cute?" you asked suddenly, turning toward him with eyes too hopeful to belong to someone being strung along by a man who barely texted you back.
nanami forced himself to nod, even though it felt like chewing glass. "you look very lovely," he said, voice steady and warm and collected, the way he always sounded when he was breaking a little on the inside.
your smile was small and shy, the kind of smile he knew you didnât give to just anyone. but you gave it to him like it meant nothing, like it was casual. like it didnât ruin him every single time.
"youâre sweet, nanami," you told him, bumping your shoulder gently against his. "if i didnât want this guy so bad, iâd totally date someone like you."
someone like you.
he swallowed.
you had no idea those words were a knife. you didnât even see the wound.
you were checking your phone again when nanami finally asked, "are you sure heâs treating you well? it seems like he cancels on you quite often."
"yeah, but heâs just busy," you said quickly, too quickly, like youâd practiced the excuse. "guys like him have options, you know? i have to be patient."
nanami looked at you, really looked, at the way your fingers fidgeted with your bracelet, at the way you kept glancing at every car that passed like you were afraid he might not show up, at the way you kept smoothing your hair even though it was already perfect.
you deserved someone who worshipped the ground you walked on.
someone who would walk through fire just to make you smile.
someone who wasnât too much of a coward to say your name like it meant something.
someone who wasnât him.
because he knew you didnât see him that way. he knew youâd never look at him with that breathless, trembling hope in your eyes. he knew he would always be the man standing beside you while you waited for someone else.
a car finally pulled up and nanami watched your face light up. it killed him.
"thatâs him!" you whispered, fixing your lip gloss in the reflection of the window again. "wish me luck."
nanami did the only thing he could do. he touched your shoulder gently, steady, warm.
"you donât need luck," he murmured, "you need someone who recognizes your worth."
you didnât understand what he meant, he could see it in the confused little tilt of your head, but you smiled anyway, bright and hopeful, and before he could say anything else, you hurried off toward a man who didnât deserve you, didnât see you, didnât know he was holding something golden and fragile in careless hands.
you didnât look back.
nanami did.
he watched until your silhouette disappeared inside the car, until the taillights faded into the night, until it was just him and the quiet hum of the city around him, alone with all the words he would never say.
you were too good for him. and he would love you quietly for as long as he had to.
even if you never noticed.
â˘âCHOSO KAMOââ˘
choso doesnât understand a lot of human things yet. not the way you move or glow or drift through rooms like youâre made of something warmer than everyone else, not the way his chest tightens painfully whenever you laugh at someone elseâs joke, not the way jealousy coils in him like instinct, sharp and ancient, whenever you talk about some new guy who "might be nice this time." he doesnât get any of it. he just knows it hurts.
he sits on the couch with yuji, staring blankly at the wall while you blow past them in a rush of perfume and lip gloss and that soft little "wish me luck!" you always toss over your shoulder when youâre going out to see someone who isnât him. yuji gives him a look, the kind thatâs way too knowing for a seventeen year old, and choso tries to school his face into something neutral, but he knows heâs failing because yuji sighs like this is the hundredth time theyâve done this.
"you gotta stop torturing yourself," yuji mutters, nudging his shoulder. choso doesnât move. his eyes are still locked on the empty doorway you disappeared through. "sheâs⌠sheâs not gonna see it. you know that, right?"
choso swallows. "i donât want her to see anything." he pauses. "i only want her to be safe."
yuji gives him a flat look. "safe? dude, youâre in love with her."
choso opens his mouth, closes it, tries again. "i donât⌠understand that word the way you mean it."
"you donât have to understand it," yuji says gently, "you just have to admit it."
choso doesnât. he canât. it feels wrong to name something so big and terrifying. love in the tongue of curses was possession, hunger, devotion, none of which he wants to lay at your feet. you deserve someone soft, someone who knows how to speak gently instead of staring too long and struggling to breathe when you smile at him.
you come home late. you look tired. your makeup is smudged, your heels dangle from your fingers, and yuji immediately brightens at the sight of you, but choso feels the air leave his lungs because you look like youâve been crying. not a lot, not loudly, just that faint redness around your eyes that says you tried really hard not to.
"did it go badly?" yuji asks softly.
you shrug like it doesnât matter. "he wasnât⌠nice," you say, and itâs so quiet choso feels it like a bruise forming in his chest. "i thought maybe this one would be different. i donât know why i keep trying."
yuji shoots choso another look, the kind that screams say something, but choso sits motionless, hands clenched so tightly they ache. he wants to ask who hurt you, he wants to rip out the problem by the root, he wants to tell you that youâre soft and warm and good and any man who speaks to you without reverence should be dragged into the dirt.
but all he manages is a strained, "you deserve better."
you smile, small and tired. "thank you, choso."
you disappear into your room, closing the door softly behind you, and the apartment feels too quiet. yuji stares at him, exasperated.
"iâm serious," yuji says. "you canât keep doing this. she doesnât see you like that."
choso lowers his head, presses his palms together like heâs praying to something that doesnât listen. "i know."
"then let it go."
chosoâs breath hitches in a way he hopes yuji doesnât catch. "i canât."
and he truly canât. he doesnât know how to stop wanting you, how to stop being drawn to you like a compass needle pointing north. he doesnât understand how humans turn off feelings, how they pull roots from soil without shredding everything inside them. every time you smile at him, something blooms. every time you talk about another man, something breaks.
he sits there long after yuji goes to bed, staring at your closed door, listening to the quiet rustle of you moving around your room, maybe changing into pajamas, maybe wiping your tears, maybe wondering why the world keeps handing your heart to people who donât deserve it.
choso presses a hand to his sternum, right over the ache he still doesnât understand.
he canât move on. not when itâs you. not when the sound of your voice feels like gravity. not when heâs half human, half curse, and somehow entirely yours without you ever realizing.
heâll never say it, heâll never ask. heâll never take more than you give.
but gods, it hurts. and he doesnât know how to stop wanting you anyway.
â˘âTAKUMA INOââ˘
takuma had been stupidly, embarrassingly, violently in love with you for months. maybe longer, if he was being honest with himself, but he wasnât, because if he ever admitted the full extent of it out loud, heâd probably fold in half like a dying roomba.
you werenât even doing anything special. you were just⌠standing there. in that tiny outfit you claimed was "business casual," sipping a pink drink like it contained the secrets of the universe, adjusting your little hair bow with the concentration of someone disarming a bomb.
and takuma was absolutely losing his shit.
he kept stealing glances at you across the room, quick little looks that he pretended were accidental, like oh wow how did my eyes end up directly on her again? what a mystery. someone call a detective. but everyone knew, even nanami knew. nanami had stared at him once in pure disappointment.
and still, you remained blissfully, painfully unaware.
you shouldâve noticed by now, anyone else wouldâve. he wasnât exactly subtle. when you said you were hungry, he showed up ten minutes later with three separate meals "just in case." when you said you liked his hair, he spent thirty minutes in the bathroom trying to replicate the exact shape it made when you complimented him. when you said you were cold, he wrapped you in his jacket, tripped over a chair, fell down, stood up, and then pretended nothing happened.
you thought he was "silly."
takuma thought about walking into traffic.
but the real problem wasnât the way he looked at you like you hung the stars, or the way he flinched whenever you smiled at someone else, or the way he tried so hard to impress you that he nearly dislocated his shoulder attempting to lift something way too heavy, no, the real problem was the way you talked about other guys.
specifically guys who didnât deserve you if you gift wrapped yourself and hand delivered your own heart in a sparkly envelope.
youâd sigh, twirling your hair, pouting. "he hasnât texted me backâŚ"
takuma would feel his soul leave his body.
"i think i might like himâŚ"
takuma would internally combust.
"but he said iâm kinda dumb."
takuma would black out entirely.
and the worst part?
you said these things to him. directly to him.
like he was your emotional support golden retriever.
he nodded along, offered advice through gritted teeth, tried not to cry when you said things like "youâre such a good friend, taku," because friendly fire was still fire, and god, it burned.
he kept hoping, stupidly, delusionally, that one day youâd look at him and see it. the way he hovered around you like a planet stuck in your orbit. the way he lit up like a kid at christmas every time you said his name. the way heâd drop everything, mission, paycheck, dignity, if you so much as hinted you needed him.
instead, you kept chasing men who treated you like an afterthought.
one day, after a particularly soul crushing rant about some guy who ghosted you (takuma had memorized his name so he could manifest the opportunity to fight him in a back alley at 3am), something cracked a little inside him.
you were seated beside him on the couch, kicking your legs idly, sipping something fruity through a bendy straw, completely oblivious to the way he was staring at you like heâd die if you left the room. your head rested on his shoulder, your perfume sweet and soft, filling his lungs, short circuiting his brain.
"taku?" you asked gently, pulling back just enough to look at him. "are you listening?"
he was. unfortunately.
"yeah," he said, a little too fast, a little too breathless, "iâm- yeah. totally."
you smiled, that bright, guileless smile that made him want to kneel. "youâre always so nice to me. guys never are. they just⌠take what they want and then leave."
his jaw clenched. "theyâre idiots."
"mm," you hummed, leaning back against his arm. "sometimes i wish i liked nice guys."
his heart stopped. literally stopped. then restarted wrong.
nice guys.
he was right there.
he waited for you to say it, to look at him, to finally catch on, to realize heâd been offering you the world on a platter made of his crushed pride and undying devotion. but you just smiled at your drink.
"i think iâm gonna text him again."
takuma turned to stone.
you didnât see it.
of course you didnât.
you just tapped away on your phone, humming softly, a little pout on your lips as you typed a message youâd regret, while he sat beside you, shoulders tense, eyes dimming, heart caving in on itself.
you didnât notice the way he looked at the floor like it was the only thing holding him together.
you didnât hear the way he exhaled, quiet, sharp, pained.
you didnât know that heâd fallen for you so fast he couldnât remember a time when he wasnât already halfway gone.
you didnât know that you were too good for him, too bright, too soft, too heartbreakingly oblivious.
you didnât know that the man sitting beside you, the one who brought you food, carried your bags, laughed at your jokes, and stared at you like you were moonlight, wouldâve loved you better than anyone ever had.
you didnât notice.
and takuma?
he realized, with a sinking, bitter little twist of his heart,
that you never would.
â˘âHAJIME KASHIMOââ˘
hajime had lived long enough to understand lightning, war, death, and the quiet boredom of empty centuries. but absolutely nothing in his long, brutal life prepared him for you.
you, with your soft voice and pretty eyes and the way you smiled at men who didnât deserve the dirt under your shoes. you, who leaned in close when you talked, who smelled like perfume and sugar, who always touched his arm when you laughed like you didnât know it was the closest thing to a prayer heâd ever had.
and you never noticed what you did to him. not once.
you called him "kashimo," not "hajime," like everyone else and he hated how much that mattered. you waved to him across rooms, beamed at him when he entered, told him he "looked cool" in that airy, distracted way you complimented everyone.
and he pretended it didnât make lightning crackle under his skin.
the truth was simple and humiliating.
you were the first thing since sukuna that made him feel alive.
and yet⌠you talked about other men in front of him.
you twirled your hair while telling him about a guy you liked, one who didnât call you back, one who stood you up, one who couldnât care less. you sat beside hajime with your knees touching his, sighing dramatically about how "maybe he lost his phone or something," and hajime had to clench his fists to stop from summoning a thunderbolt strong enough to vaporize the man on the spot.
sometimes he wondered if you could hear the electricity buzzing beneath his skin, the low hum of jealousy, the dangerous static that rose whenever you said another manâs name.
you never noticed.
of course you didnât.
one night, you knocked on his door with mascara smudged and your voice small and cracked, whispering, "do you think thereâs something wrong with me? iâm⌠iâm never anyoneâs first choice."
and that nearly killed him.
hajime had walked through battlefield after battlefield without flinching, but the sight of you crying on his doorstep? that shattered something ancient in him.
"there is nothing wrong with you," he said, voice low, steady, too controlled for the storm inside him. "you are⌠extraordinary."
you blinked up at him with glossy eyes, completely missing the way he was looking at you like he wanted to carve your name into his bones.
and then you asked the question that nearly made him lose control.
"then why doesnât he want me?"
lightning flickered down his forearms.
"because he is blind," hajime said, too fast, too harsh, too honest. "because he is unworthy."
you smiled at him, soft and fragile, completely unaware that he wouldâve razed the entire city if you asked him to.
"youâre sweet, kashimo."
sweet. no one had ever called him that, he didnât know what to do with it.
you hugged him then, quick, warm, innocent, arms around his middle, cheek pressed to his chest.
his hands hovered, unsure, terrified of touching you wrong and making you pull away. you didnât feel the way he trembled as he forced himself to be still.
you pulled back and wiped your eyes. "thanks for listening."
he nodded like a soldier receiving orders. you left with a little wave.
he stood in the doorway long after you disappeared down the hall, staring at the place where youâd been, lightning sparking along his fingertips in tiny, desperate bursts.
you would never know, you couldnât, that kashimo hajime, a man who had spent centuries seeking nothing but battle, wouldâve given up every fight he ever lived for if you only turned around and said his name differently.
and you never did.
â˘âHIROMI HIGURUMAââ˘
higuruma had always known you were too soft for this world.
not stupid, not naive, just soft in a way he used to think no one had the right to be, not after everything the world does to people. but somehow you managed, walking through life with that gentle smile and those hopeful eyes and that stubborn belief that there were still good men somewhere.
just⌠not him.
youâd met through mutual friends, one of those accidental connections that shouldnât have mattered but did, because you laughed at his dry jokes and listened when he spoke and remembered the little details he mentioned once, in passing, like they were important. you brought him coffee when he worked late, checked in when he went quiet for too long, texted him that you hoped court went well today.
and he had the nerve to think that maybe, just maybe, the universe had given him something gentle on purpose.
until you introduced him to your new boyfriend.
a man who smiled too widely, touched you too possessively, interrupted you mid sentence like you were a background noise instead of a person. a man who didnât listen to a single thing you said, but you clung to him because you wanted so badly for someone to stay that you convinced yourself he was better than nothing.
"heâs good to me," you said softly, like you were trying to reassure yourself more than him.
higuruma just hummed, polite, neutral, unreadable, even though something inside him wound painfully tight.
because he could see it already. the small flinches you didnât even know you made, the way your smile dimmed when your boyfriend wasnât looking, the embarrassment on your face when the man told a story about you that wasnât funny at all.
you deserved flowers and soft words and someone who understood the way your heart worked. instead, you settled for a man who didnât even notice when you went quiet.
and when you excused yourself to the bathroom, your boyfriend leaned back in his seat and said,
"sheâs a little emotional, but sheâs cute, right? sheâll grow out of it."
higuruma just stared at him. long, silent, unblinking.
the man didnât even notice the danger.
when you returned, smiling like you were trying your best, higuruma felt something heavy settle in his chest, something like grief, something like longing, something like regret pressed under too many years of trying to be good.
"you okay?" he asked quietly when your boyfriend wasnât paying attention.
you nodded, that soft, helpless little nod that always meant no, but i donât want to bother anyone.
he wished, god, he wished, he had met you first. or met you before life taught you to settle. before you convinced yourself he couldnât possibly be someone who stayed.
but he said nothing.
because you deserved honesty, and care, and stability, and he was a man who carried too much guilt and too much blood and too many regrets. and you didnât need someone like him.
so he walked you both home, polite to a fault, said goodnight, watched you disappear inside, listened to your boyfriend complain about the stairs like a man who had accomplished something enormous just by existing.
and when he finally reached his own apartment, he sat on the edge of his bed, elbows on his knees, staring at the floor with that hollow kind of silence that comes from wanting something he had no right to want.
you werenât his.
but you should have been with someone who cared.
and he wished, for the first time in years, that he were a worse man.
someone selfish, someone who would take you by the wrist and say come with me instead.
but he wasnât. so he let you go.
quietly and slowly and achingly.
and the next time he saw you, weeks later, you smiled at him, small, tired, grateful, and he realized you were still with that man.
and he realized he would go on pretending it didnât break something inside him.
â˘âRYOMEN SUKUNAââ˘
you kept choosing the wrong men, but sukuna would never admit out loud that every time you came crying to him about another heartbreak, another disappointment, another man who treated you like you were disposable, he felt something acidic coil under his ribs. jealousy, rage, entitlement, disgust, need, all tangled into one rotten, ancient knot.
he told himself he didnât care. he told you he didnât care. he told everyone he didnât care.
but the truth was carved into the way he looked at you when you werenât paying attention, that sharp, hungry glint like you were the last bright, delicate thing in a world full of filth and he hated that you didnât know it.
"he said i was too much," you whispered one night, sitting on the temple steps with mascara smudged and lip gloss worn off in the corners. "and like, maybe i am too much. like⌠emotionally? and also vocally? because i do talk a lot. and sometimes i cry over cupcakes."
sukuna sat beside you, arms resting over his knees, jaw tight enough to crack stone. "you arenât too much," he said, voice low, controlled. "he was too little."
you sniffed, wiping your cheek with the back of your hand. "thatâs⌠really nice. are you dying?"
he clicked his tongue. "idiot girl. iâm simply stating facts."
but really, it burned him from the inside out, the knowledge that you kept giving your heart to men who couldnât hold it without dropping it like clumsy children. the knowledge that he would have worshipped you, if he let himself. the knowledge that he would have ruined kingdoms to keep you happy, if he let himself. the knowledge that he could have been everything to you, if he let himself.
but instead he just sat beside you, silent. watching you bruise and break and pretend not to care.
you had no idea how many times he had almost stepped in. almost intervened. almost ripped someone apart but stopped himself, not because he pitied them, but because he pitied himself.
because getting involved meant admitting something heâd rather die than say.
that he wanted you. that he needed you. that he hated how small he was becoming in your orbit.
"is something wrong with me?" you asked, soft and small in a way that made him want to shatter the world. "because itâs like⌠a pattern now. and maybe iâm stupid."
he turned to you slowly, eyes glowing faintly in the dusk. "you are stupid," he said, entirely serious, "but not in the way that matters."
you blinked up at him. "oh."
"youâre soft," he continued. "too soft. too bright. too trusting. too giving. you walk into a den of starving animals and expect them to treasure you instead of tearing you apart. that isnât stupidity, itâs naivety."
you frowned. "thatâs like⌠a big word."
"i know."
you whined softly, leaning against his shoulder without thinking. he went rigid, literally stiff as stone, because you never realized what you were doing to him. how close you sat, how warm you were, how your perfume stuck to his clothes for hours afterward, how you let him see every broken piece of your heart and never once wondered if maybe he was breaking too.
"am i ever gonna find someone good?" you asked quietly.
he swallowed, the movement sharp.
good.
he wasnât good. he had never been good. he would never be good.
but he wanted you, in a way heâd never wanted anything living, and the wanting made him feel sick.
"probably not," he said casually.
you gasped. "why not!"
he shrugged. "you have terrible taste."
"hey!"
"prove me wrong."
"I will," you said, jabbing a finger at him. "next time iâm gonna pick someone who treats me sooo good youâre gonna be, like, shocked."
he huffed a laugh. "weâll see."
but you didnât.
you picked another disappointment three weeks later.
then another.
then another.
and every time, sukuna watched with a kind of quiet, poisonous satisfaction, because each failure brought you back to him, and he hated that it pleased him. he hated how he felt when you curled into him while crying. he hated how he spoke softly only for you. he hated how he wasnât allowed to touch you the way he wanted. he hated that you kept choosing men beneath him when he lived centuries above them all.
mostly, he hated that you didnât even consider him an option.
one afternoon, after another breakup with another forgettable man, you curled into the crook of his arm and said, "youâre like⌠the only constant guy in my life, arenât you?"
he exhaled slowly. "unfortunately."
"hey."
"what?"
you hesitated. "why do you stay? people leave me all the time. but you never do. not even when iâm annoying."
that was when he nearly told you the truth. that was when he almost said the words. that was when his mouth opened before his mind could stop it-
"because-" but then you looked up at him with that dumb, soft, trusting little smile, and he swallowed the confession like poison.
he didnât say because i want you. he didnât say because i canât stand the idea of anyone else having you. he didnât say because when you look at me, i remember what desire used to feel like.
instead he said, "because youâd die without me."
you pouted. "thatâs rude."
"itâs realistic."
you giggled and nuzzled closer, and sukuna closed his eyes, hating how much peace you brought him. hating that he couldnât touch you the way he wanted. hating that he cared.
because you would never pick him. not with how you saw him. not with the softness he had let you see. not with the vulnerability he hated giving you.
but he stayed, he always stayed. because you didnât need a good man.
you needed one who wouldnât leave.
and he never would.
even if it hurt.
even if it ruined him.
even if it meant watching you break over and over in the arms of lesser men. because if you ever chose someone truly worthy, he didnât know if he could stop himself from tearing the world apart.
so he held you while you cried. called you stupid when you blamed yourself. told your exes to fuck off when they tried crawling back. glared at every man who looked at you too long. and pretended not to care when you told him youâd find someone better someday.
you wouldnât.
and he would wait.
forever, if he had to.
because you were soft. and stupid. and beautiful. and kind. and his.
even if you didnât know it.
â˘âTOJI FUSHIGUROââ˘
toji knows he has no right to feel anything at all. not when heâs spent his entire life breaking things that were softer than him, not when every relationship heâs ever touched has rotted in his hands, not when heâs fully aware that heâs cut from the exact same cloth as all the men whoâve used you, bruised you, lied to you, left you. he hears you talk about them sometimes, voice airy and exhausted, like youâre tired of the cycle but too sweet to ever say it out loud, and every time, something ugly twists in his stomach because he recognizes himself in every complaint you make.
he never answers my texts.
he said i was too much.
he likes when iâm quiet.
i just want someone nice for onceâŚ
toji sits there, arms folded, jaw clenching so hard it ticks, because he knows he fits every single category you should avoid. selfish, inconsistent, sharp edged in all the wrong places. heâs not gentle, not soft, not kind. he was never meant to hold something as delicate as you without cracking it.
and yet he keeps showing up.
and you keep letting him.
you flop onto his couch without knocking, kicking your legs in the air and rambling about some guy who ghosted you, again, and toji grunts like he isnât memorizing every word, cataloguing every detail, hating every faceless man he imagines in your stories.
"i think thereâs something wrong with me," you whine dramatically, rolling onto your stomach, chin cupped in your hands. "maybe i just attract⌠bad guys."
toji huffs a laugh, bitter and heavy. you donât attract bad guys, he thinks. you just donât think you deserve better. and he hates that more than anything, hates that the world has convinced you that softness equals stupidity, that kindness equals weakness, that your sweetness is something to be mined instead of protected.
you glance up at him, eyes wide and glossy, the way they always are. "you think iâm too much, toji?"
he freezes.
the worst part is that you mean it. youâre genuinely asking. you think his opinion matters.
his throat goes tight.
"nah," he mutters, turning away like your gaze physically harms him. "not too much."
you brighten instantly, the way you always do at the tiniest crumbs of affection, and it makes something in him ache with a violent kind of tenderness he refuses to name.
you ramble on, kicking your feet, babbling about the stupid guy who ditched you mid date, and toji listens with his head propped on his hand, pretending heâs bored, pretending he isnât carving that manâs name into the part of his brain where grudges go to rot.
you donât notice when his eyes linger on you too long. you never do. youâre lying sideways now, lips glossy, lashes fluttering, every careless shift revealing more of your thigh, and toji forces himself to look away because he wonât be like them. he wonât take advantage of your softness, your trust, your open, foolish heart.
you deserve better. and he knows damn well he isnât better.
but you donât know that, because you look at him with that same bright, guileless smile and say, "youâre nice to me, toji," like itâs the simplest truth.
he almost laughs.
nice?
heâs not nice. heâs just⌠trying. failing. trying again. pretending his chest doesnât tighten when you fall asleep on his shoulder. pretending he doesnât wait up when you go out. pretending he doesnât listen for your knock every night even though he swears he doesnât care.
"dunno about nice," he mutters, brushing a crumb of pastry off your cheek because you somehow always get crumbs on you, "but I ainât them."
you smile softly.
you donât understand what he means. heâs grateful you donât.
you lay your head on his thigh like itâs the most natural thing in the world. you tell him in your dreamy little voice that you hope one day youâll find someone who isnât like the others, someone who actually wants you, someone loyal, someone who wonât flinch at how soft you are.
toji feels something inside him split clean down the middle.
"yeah," he says quietly, fingertips brushing the ends of your hair before he can stop himself. "maybe you will."
maybe you will.
maybe you wonât.
he doesnât say anything else. he doesnât confess, doesnât touch you again, he doesnât let the words he wants to say escape, because they arenât his to give and you arenât his to claim.
he just sits there, watching you drift to sleep against him, knowing heâs no good for you, knowing heâll ruin whatever he touches, knowing heâll never be what you deserve, but still letting himself sit here for just one more night because itâs the only thing that keeps him breathing.
you fall asleep thinking toji isnât like the others and he sits awake thinking heâs exactly like them.
the difference is he wishes he wasnât.
â˘âSHIU KONGââ˘
shiu had always been decent at pretending things didnât bother him. there was an art to it, really. that cool, disinterested little half smirk he kept tucked at the corner of his mouth, the lazy eyes, the bored tone, the casual posture that made people think he didnât care about anything. but the truth was that you were the one thing he couldnât fake indifference about, no matter how hard he tried. and he did try. god, he tried.
you were leaning against the bar that night, all glossy lips and soft perfume, laughing at something stupid one of your friends said, and shiu felt that familiar ache settle into the pit of his stomach, the one that reminded him he wasnât supposed to want you like this. not someone like you. not someone soft and bright and warm. not someone who shouldâve been loved by a man better than him, someone gentler, someone who didnât have blood under his nails and a job that required him to be a ghost.
he watched you from the corner of the room, arms crossed, pretending he wasnât keeping track of every man whose gaze lingered on you too long. he pretended he didnât care when one of them approached you, buying you a drink and smiling too wide, leaning too close, trying too hard. he told himself it wasnât his business. you werenât his, youâd never be his, and he didnât deserve to even think about you like that, but it still stung when you smiled politely, that sweet little smile that he secretly collected like stolen treasures in his memory.
he didnât mean to stare, but you made it impossible not to. every time your hair fell over your shoulder he swore the air shifted. every time you giggled into your drink his jaw tightened without him telling it to. he wasnât jealous, or at least he wouldnât admit it, but he felt something sharp twist inside him when that same guy touched your arm like he had a right to.
you didnât pull away, you were too nice for that. too gentle. too⌠unaware.
that was the part that killed him, really. you had no idea how the world looked at you, no idea how easily men wanted to take advantage of that softness. and you definitely had no idea how fast shiu would put a blade through someoneâs ribs if they dared to do more than try.
your friend tugged you away before the guy could get any bolder, leading you toward the back door for air, and shiu finally let himself breathe when you disappeared from the manâs immediate reach. he didnât even realize heâd been watching every movement of that interaction with a trained eye, all instinct and calculation, marking escape routes and pressure points, making a mental list of exactly where to grab the guy if he needed to.
he hated how automatic it was.
he hated how much it had to do with you.
you were outside for a while, leaning against the cold brick wall, eyes closed like you were trying to steady yourself. your friend had gone back inside for something, leaving you alone, and shiu stepped out a few seconds later, not because he was following you, of course not, that would imply he cared too much, he just "happened" to need air as well.
you looked up at him the second he walked out.
"oh," you said softly, smiling in that way that made the world feel like it tilted, "hey shiu."
he tried not to choke on how pretty you looked under the streetlamp. "hey."
you fidgeted with the straw in your drink, looking embarrassed. "that guy inside was⌠um. weird."
shiu almost laughed. "just weird?"
your nose scrunched. "okay, creepy. i didnât wanna be mean, though."
"you wouldnât know how to be mean if someone paid you," he muttered before he could stop himself.
"is that a bad thing?" you asked, tilting your head.
"no," he said, voice dropping without meaning to, "itâs why people love you."
you blinked, startled. "love me?"
shit.
he looked away, jaw tense. "figure of speech."
it wasnât. you knew it wasnât.
you stepped closer, shoulders brushing his, totally unaware of what you did to him. you always were. that was the thing, you never noticed the way his breath hitched when you touched him, or how his eyes lingered on your mouth a second too long, or how he always positioned himself between you and anyone who might even mildly annoy you.
"youâre sweet," you said suddenly, so gently he almost forgot how to stand. "people donât give you enough credit."
he huffed a soft laugh, because if you knew even half of who he really was, youâd probably run. "you shouldnât say things like that."
"why not?"
because iâll believe you.
because i already do.
because itâs you.
because i canât want you like this.
"because," he said instead, quieter than he meant to, "iâm not someone worth saying it to."
you frowned, confused, and your hand brushed his, an accident, probably, but it felt like youâd taken a match to him.
"but i like being around you," you said honestly, leaning your head on his shoulder for just a second, "you make me feel safe."
safe.
he swallowed hard.
shiu didnât touch you back, he couldnât, but he stood perfectly still and let the moment settle into his bones, deep and heavy and addictive. you had no idea he would burn the world down just to keep you feeling that way. you had no idea he already watched you with the kind of hunger he tried to hide behind lazy smirks and bored eyes. you had no idea you were the one thing in his life that made him want to be better, even though he knew he wasnât.
and you had absolutely no idea that as you pulled away and smiled at him again, softly, gratefully, lovingly in that oblivious way of yours, shiu kong was already ruined.
â˘âNAOYA ZEN'INââ˘
naoya had always assumed that when you finally gave up on love, it would be because you realized men were beneath you, because you realized everyone was beneath you, not because some crusty, barely relevant clan heir with the personality of a brick proposed to you like you were a business deal he was signing off on.
yet there you were, sitting stiffly in the zenin estateâs quiet room, hands folded in your lap, lashes lowered as you murmured something soft and resigned about how "maybe⌠maybe this is just how life goes," and naoya felt something ugly, hot, and humiliating snap behind his ribs.
"you accepted him?" he asked, voice too thin, too strained.
you nodded slowly, the motion gentle and heartbreaking in a way that made his pulse spike. "heâs⌠nice enough, i guess. and i donât really have the energy to, um⌠fight anymore. maybe iâll be a good wife if i try really hard."
the words nice enough nearly made him blackout.
naoya scoffed before he could help it, stepping closer with a sneer that didnât match the frantic, furious pounding of his heartbeat. "nice enough? that man can barely form a sentence without drooling on himself."
you blinked up at him, wide eyed, head tilting the way it always did when you were trying to understand him. "well⌠he said he wants me to be his maid and, um⌠child carrier. isnât that what men want?"
naoya almost grabbed you.
almost.
the only thing that stopped him was how sad your voice sounded, small, exhausted, defeated in a way he hated more than anything his clan had ever done to him.
"you think thatâs all youâre good for?" he snapped, immediately regretting the sharpness when you flinched, your lashes fluttering like you were about to apologize for existing.
"i dunnoâŚ" you whispered, playing with the hem of your skirt. "isnât that what wives do? and he wonât⌠like⌠yell at me, i think. he doesnât care what i do as long as i look pretty. thatâs easy."
easy.
naoyaâs jaw tightened so hard his teeth clicked.
you werenât supposed to settle. you werenât supposed to fold yourself into nothing. you werenât supposed to go quiet and small and compliant because some useless clan son offered you the bare minimum.
you were supposed to shine, you were supposed to be adored, you were supposed to be impossible to touch unless someone earned it.
he forced a breath through his nose, forced his voice flat, forced himself not to show how deeply you were cutting him open without even knowing.
"youâre really going to marry that waste of oxygen?"
you shrugged, shoulders drooping in a way that made his stomach twist. "i just⌠donât want to disappoint anyone anymore."
for the first time in his life, naoya had no insult ready.
no sneer. no smug smirk. no superiority.
just the sickening, burning understanding that you truly had no idea how precious you were, and that someone else, someone unworthy, someone lesser, someone who didnât deserve to look at you, would get to keep you simply because you were too tired to believe there was anything better.
you stood up slowly, smoothing your skirt, giving him that soft little smile you always gave him, the one he pretended he didnât crave.
"i should go tell him i accept for real," you said quietly. "i think heâll be happy."
naoya swallowed hard, looking away so you wouldnât see the way his expression twisted.
"yeah," he muttered, voice low and strained, "i bet he will."
you waved at him, cheerful and oblivious and heartbreakingly sweet.
"thanks for listening, naoya! youâre always so honest with me."
he didnât answer.
because for the first time in his life, honesty tasted like poison. and losing you, not to someone better, but to someone beneath you, was the cruelest thing he had ever felt.
ŕ¨ŕ§â⢠note: back again with the bimbo!reader angst >:) this time the roles are reversed and im kinda loving it.... i already have part 2 written and formatted lemme know what you wanna see in part 2 though!!
ŕ¨ŕ§â⢠warnings: suggestive, no explicit smut, minors dni 18+ only
â˘âSATORU GOJOââ˘
you honestly hadnât meant to do it. really, you hadnât.
you were just stretching. a normal, everyday, totally innocent little stretch after sitting on satoruâs couch for like forty minutes scrolling through lipstick swatches and something in your back cracked in that weirdly satisfying way, and this soft, breathy, embarrassingly suggestive little sound slipped out of your mouth before you could stop it.
and the room went very, very still.
satoru froze mid sentence, halfway through bragging about some mission, one hand motioning wildly, the other holding an unopened bag of chips he had been meaning to eat for twenty minutes but kept forgetting existed. his head snapped toward you like someone had yanked his soul out by the collar.
you blinked up at him, innocent and sparkly and completely unaware of the emotional devastation youâd just caused.
âmmh?â you asked sweetly, tilting your head, lips glossy from the chapstick youâd applied seven times since you got here. âdid you say something?â
he did not say something. he couldnât.
his entire body felt like someone had unplugged him from reality and jammed the cord back in sideways.
your stretch had been cute enough, arms over your head, shirt lifting just a little, eyes fluttering shut, but the sound you made? that soft, broken, honey dripping little moan that escaped from your throat like youâd been touched somewhere sinful?
yeah. satoru was done for.
completely, irreparably done for.
âbaby,â he said slowly, voice cracking in a way it absolutely should not crack, âdid you⌠did you just make that sound on purpose?â
you blinked even wider. âhuh? what sound?â
he stared at you like you were holding a weapon to his chest.
âthat sound,â he said, and his voice dipped low, too low, âthe one that made me almost throw the chips across the room.â
your face scrunched. âi didnât do anythingggg,â you whined, pouting as you flopped sideways onto the couch next to him. âmy back just did that thing! you knowww, the thing where it goes âkrk!â and then my mouth just went âohhh.â it wasnât like, sexy or whatever.â
it was absolutely sexy or whatever.
violently so.
satoru dragged a hand down his face. âokay, sweetheart,â he said, voice thin. âi need you to understand something very important right now.â
âmmkay,â you said, kicking your feet cutely.
âyou canât,â he said, pointing at you like you were a fire hazard, âjust make sounds like that around me. like. casually.â
âwhy not?â you asked, genuinely confused, which somehow made it worse. âitâs just a noise. like sneezing.â
âitâs not like sneezing,â he said, horrified. âif sneezing sounded like that, people would have to be arrested.â
you giggled. âyouâre being dramatic.â
âam i?â he said, leaning closer, eyes wide and a little wild. âam i being dramatic? because you made that sound and i blacked out for like two seconds.â
you tilted your head, curls bouncing. âreally?â
âyes, really,â he said, leaning even closer, his knee bumping yours, his voice dropping into something dangerously low. âsweetheart, that noise was⌠illegal. spiritually. emotionally. physically.â
your cheeks went warm. âoh.â
satoruâs breath hitched. âplease donât say âohâ like that.â
âlike what?â you asked innocently, biting your lip because you were confused, and that tiny movement nearly snapped the last thread of his sanity.
he inhaled sharply. âlike THAT.â
you blinked. âthis?â
âyes,â he choked. âthat.â
your lips parted. ââŚthis?â
âbaby,â he said, and his voice sounded like he was restraining himself with actual divine power, âiâm begging you. please stop.â
you frowned softly. âbut i wasnât doing anything.â
âyou never think youâre doing anything,â satoru groaned, head tilting back like he needed to pray to a higher being. âand thatâs the problem.â
you scooted closer, placing a hand on his thigh because you wanted to comfort him, and he made a noise he definitely did not mean to make.
you gasped. âsatoru! you just did it too!â
âthat wasnât-â he tried, but his voice cracked again, âi- baby- no-â
you brightened instantly. âoh my god you did!â
and then, like the final nail in his coffin, you leaned in, your lips brushing his ear as you whispered, practically purring, âwas your moan sexy or like sneezing?â
he didnât answer, he couldnât.
because the look on his face said he was about two seconds away from ruining both of your nightâs plans in ways that definitely crossed the line into filthy, and you, still oblivious and sparkly as ever, just smiled at him sweetly.
and satoru realized, with a kind of religious clarity, that you were going to kill him one day. accidentally, with a sound.
â˘âSUGURU GETOââ˘
there you were, sitting cross legged on his couch in one of his shirts, because you said it smelled "warm and safe", absentmindedly eating a popsicle while reading something on your phone.
you werenât trying to be sexy, not even a little.
which was the problem.
because the second suguru walked into the room, he saw you drag your tongue slowly up the side of the damn thing, swirl it around the tip like you were tasting something delicate, then hollow your cheeks just slightly as you sucked on it.
and his brain just⌠shut off. completely.
"sugu?" you looked up, lips glossy and stained pink, mouth wrapped around the popsicle before you popped it free with an innocent little slip. "you okay? youâre staring."
he wasnât staring. he was in crisis.
"i-" he cleared his throat, which suddenly felt too tight. "didnât know you were⌠eating something."
"oh yeah," you nodded cheerfully, licking a stray drip off your thumb. "it was melting, so i had to, like, get it fast."
his jaw clenched so hard it couldâve cut diamonds.
"fast," he echoed, voice low in a way that was absolutely not appropriate for what should have been a normal sentence.
you didnât notice, just took another long, slow pull from the popsicle, brows furrowing adorably as you concentrated on not letting it drip onto his shirt.
suguru rubbed a hand over his mouth, exhaling through his nose like he was trying to conjure enlightenment.
"sweetheart," he said carefully, stepping closer, "do you normally eat it like that?"
you blinked. "like what?"
he swallowed. you blinked again.
and then, because you were you, you demonstrated.
"like this?" you asked, sliding it into your mouth again, lips closing around it as you sucked softly, head tilted in curiosity.
suguru closed his eyes for a long moment as if in prayer.
when he opened them, he was already on the edge.
"yes," he said hoarsely. "exactly like that."
"is it weird?" you mumbled around the popsicle, voice muffled, cheeks a little puffed. "youâre looking at me funny."
"no," he said, too fast. "not weird. just⌠surprising."
you brightened. "oh! want a bite?"
he actually choked. you held it out to him, inches from his lips, oblivious to the absolute weapon you were handing him.
"go on," you said sweetly. "iâll share."
he leaned in⌠slowly⌠deliberately⌠until his mouth closed around the very same spot yours had just been, tongue brushing the faint imprint of your lips still cold on the surface.
your breath caught.
and that, that tiny, surprised inhale, nearly undid him.
he pulled back, licking sticky sweetness from his thumb, eyes dark in a way that made your stomach flip.
"thank you," he murmured, voice low enough to be considered dangerous.
you blinked again. "for what?"
he smiled, soft but heavy with something you didnât quite recognize. "for unintentionally ruining my night," he answered.
you frowned, confused. "did i⌠do something wrong?"
he shook his head slowly.
"no," he said, brushing a finger under your chin, lifting your gaze to his, "you just have no idea what you do to me."
your lips parted.
the popsicle finally dripped onto his shirt.
neither of you noticed.
â˘âKENTO NANAMIââ˘
nanami prided himself on being composed, steady, measured in every sense of the word, whether it was work, emotion, or the way he held himself around you, because someone had to be rational between the two of you and he accepted that responsibility the same way he accepted everything else. quietly, dutifully, with a deep breath and a sense of impending doom.
but tonight tested him.
because tonight you walked into his office after hours, hair slightly mussed from the wind, lips glossy in that distracted way you did whenever you were thinking too hard, wearing one of those soft little tops that looked innocent until you moved and nanamiâs bloodstream caught fire like someone lit a match inside him.
you were just here to "keep him company," you said, because you were bored and missed him, which wouldâve been adorable and sweet if you hadnât chosen to sit on the edge of his desk with one knee bent up, your heel dangling from your toes, absentmindedly tracing circles on your thigh with the back of your pen while he pretended to read a spreadsheet he couldnât even see anymore.
"you work too much," you murmured, leaning forward just a little, the pen tapping gently against your skin in a way you had absolutely no awareness of. "youâre gonna get wrinkles."
nanami swallowed hard enough that it was audible.
"i appreciate the concern," he said, keeping his voice steady with every ounce of discipline heâd ever cultivated. "but iâm nearly done."
you hummed, sweet and soft, and stretched your arms above your head in a slow, sleepy arch, your shirt riding up just barely, exposing the faintest sliver of warm skin above your waistband. you didnât even realize you were doing it. nanami realized for both of you.
his jaw tensed.
you blinked at him, swinging your foot lazily. "are you okay? you look⌠red."
"iâm-" he cleared his throat, adjusting his tie even though it didnât need adjusting. "iâm fine."
you scooted closer on the desk, turning so your legs brushed his shoulder, and nanamiâs vision flickered. you were just trying to see his papers, completely oblivious to the way your perfume wrapped around him, how your breath brushed his cheek when you leaned in.
"you work so hard," you murmured, your voice warm and sincere as your fingers ghosted, just barely, over the back of his hand. "i donât like seeing you tired."
nanami froze.
your touch was light, innocent, unthinking.
his reaction was not.
he exhaled through his nose like a man on the verge of breaking every rule heâd ever given himself. "itâs⌠alright," he managed quietly, "you make it easier."
you brightened at that, the softest smile blooming across your face as you picked up his tie between your fingers, absentminded, curious, twisting the silk slowly while you talked about absolutely nothing, like you didnât realize you were holding the front of his composure between your hands.
"this is soft," you said, running your thumb over the fabric, gaze fixed on the weave as you leaned closer. "you always look so handsome in these."
nanami shut his eyes for a moment, because the warmth of your voice, the softness in your fingers, and the way you said handsome like it was a confession, you had no idea what it did to him.
"thank you," he said, a little too quietly.
and when you tugged him by the tie, just gently, just enough to pull him a few inches closer so you could straighten the knot, nanamiâs breath faltered completely.
you were inches from him, unaware of the tension radiating off him in waves, unaware of the way his hand curled tightly around the arm of his chair to stop himself from touching your waist the way he desperately wanted to.
"there," you whispered, smoothing the fabric over his chest with both palms. "perfect."
nanami looked at you, soft, unaware, glowing in the warm lamplight of his office, and something in him gave.
"you really donât know what youâre doing, do you?" he murmured, voice low, warm, dangerous in the gentlest way.
you blinked innocently. "doing what?"
he didnât answer, he didnât trust his voice.
instead, he stood, slowly, your hands still resting on his chest, your eyes widening as he stepped between your legs where you sat on the desk. his fingers brushed your jaw, barely there, his breathing calm but strained.
"you should go home with me," he said softly, firmly, as if stating a fact rather than offering a choice. "before i stop being responsible."
your lips parted. "are you⌠sure?"
nanami nodded once, the restraint in his expression cracking at the edges, his thumb brushing the corner of your mouth like he couldnât help himself.
"iâve never been more sure of anything."
and the moment you smiled, sweet, trusting, radiant, nanami let out a breath he didnât realize heâd been holding, his forehead resting against yours for a second that felt like surrender.
"come on," he whispered, voice warm enough to melt steel. "letâs go before you undo whatâs left of my self control."
and you did, completely unaware that heâd had none the moment you touched his tie.
â˘âCHOSO KAMOââ˘
choso had never been good at⌠people.
he could fight, and survive, and protect the ones he loved with an intensity that bordered on feral, but the whole "understanding normal human behavior" part? yeah. no. total blank space. and honestly, heâd been doing fine with that, drifting around you like a big, silent, protective shadow, until today.
today was different.
today, you did something so innocent, so casual, so hot that it short circuited every neuron he had left.
it started because you wanted dessert.
and choso, who would give you the moon if you asked, bought you a mochi ice cream and sat with you on the floor of your apartment like it was the most natural thing in the world. he liked being near you, he liked watching you exist. it made something warm and heavy pull inside his chest.
you opened the mochi, took one bite, and sighed dreamily. "choso⌠this tastes like a cloud made of happiness."
he swallowed hard. "yeah?"
you nodded, smiling so bright he thought he might actually die. "try some."
before he could answer, you held the mochi out toward him, but your grip slipped, and the mochi smeared across his knuckles in a slow, sticky streak of cream.
"oops," you giggled, "sorry, cho."
he opened his mouth to say something, anything, but he didnât get a single word out, because instead of wiping it off with a napkin like a normal human, you just⌠leaned forward and licked it off. slowly.
soft tongue dragging across his skin, warm breath ghosting over his hand, lips brushing the base of his thumb as you sucked a little spot clean like it was the most casual thing anyone had ever done.
chosoâs entire nervous system exploded.
he froze completely, muscles locked, air trapped in his throat as heat crawled up his neck and into his ears. "w-wait-"
"mmm," you hummed, tasting the mochi from your finger before going back for another unnoticed smear on his knuckle, "itâs melting. i didnât wanna waste it."
you said it like you were talking about the weather.
he was seconds from collapse.
you popped his finger into your mouth, gently, just to get the last bit of cream, and then released him with a soft "there."
his pulse was pounding so violently that he swore you could hear it.
you blinked up at him, wide eyed and sweet and absolutely oblivious. "whatâs wrong? did i miss some?"
he shook his head too quickly. "n-no. you- you got it."
you smiled, proud of yourself. "yay."
he stared.
he tried to breathe.
he failed.
because all he could think about, all he could feel, was the ghost of your tongue on his skin, the warmth of your mouth around his finger, the way his name sounded when you said it with that soft, airy voice.
"youâre acting weird," you said, tilting your head. "are you getting sick? do curses get sick?"
"iâm fine," he said, except he sounded strangled, wrecked, barely holding it together.
you scooted closer, worried. "do you need water?"
no. he needed you to stop licking him like that unless he was allowed to do something about it.
you reached for another mochi without even looking at him. "we can share this one too!"
and choso, still staring at his damp knuckles, still replaying the moment in his mind like a broken tape loop, realized something with terrifying clarity.
if you ever did that again, on purpose or not, he was going to lose every ounce of self control he had.
but you just sat there, swinging your feet, smiling like this was the calmest, sweetest, most innocent moment in the world, while choso tried to remember how to exist.
"cho?" you asked softly. "youâre staring."
he swallowed hard. "sorry."
"itâs okay!" you beamed. "you can stare at me whenever you want."
and that, that right there, was the moment choso knew he was doomed in ways he couldnât even begin to explain.
â˘âTAKUMA INOââ˘
it honestly wasnât your fault. you were just trying to grab something you dropped.
takuma was already staring at you like you were the sun dripping honey, leaning against the doorway with that lazy, hungry smirk he only ever got around you, when you bent over without warning to pick up the lip balm that slipped out of your pocket.
and your skirt⌠lifted.
not a lot. just enough.
just enough for him to see the tiniest flash of soft lace, a pastel bow, and the curve of your ass framed like a gift specially prepared to ruin his entire day.
his breath stopped so violently he almost gave himself whiplash.
your panties were pink.
pink with a tiny heart charm dangling from the bow.
pink and delicate and stupidly pretty, exactly the kind heâd fantasized about you wearing.
you straightened up like nothing happened, twirling the lip balm between your fingers, totally unaware you had just spiritually body checked your boyfriend into the void.
"takuuu," you whined playfully, "look! i found it!" you waved the little tube around proudly.
he didnât answer, he was too busy fighting for his life.
you noticed him staring, tilting your head in that sparkly, innocent way that always made him break a little. "are you okay? youâre, like⌠breathing weird."
he dragged a hand down his face, biting hard on the inside of his cheek to ground himself. "sweetheart," he said, voice wrecked and low, "you canât just- you canât bend over like that in front of me."
you looked confused. adorable. devastating. "like what?"
"like-" he gestured helplessly. "like youâre trying to send me to the ER."
you blinked, eyes round and glossy. "did i do something wrong?"
he stepped closer, hands sliding around your waist, voice dropping into something dark and trembling with restraint. "no. god, no. you didnât do anything wrong. you just⌠you donât know what you do to me."
you giggled, leaning into him, fingers playing with the zipper on his jacket. "youâre being dramatic."
"am i?" he asked, tugging you impossibly closer until your chest pressed to his. "because you just bent over and i saw your cute little panties and now i canât think about anything except getting on my knees and tasting you through them."
your breath hitched, "takuâŚ"
he smirked, lips brushing your ear. "yeah? you like when i talk to you like that?"
you nodded, cheeks warm, thighs squeezing together instinctively.
his eyes flicked down.
oh, that ruined him.
"sweetheart," he murmured, "if you keep looking at me like that iâm gonna forget every moral iâve ever tried to have."
you wriggled a little in his hold, and the movement made your skirt lift again.
he groaned. openly, painfully.
"baby," he warned, "donât test me. iâm trying so hard not to do something stupid."
you grinned up at him, the cutest, sunniest grin on earth, and said the sentence that completely fried his remaining brain cells, "itâs okay, taku⌠iâm stretchy."
he made a noise that definitely wasnât human.
your smile grew wider, proud of yourself for saying something you thought sounded sexy.
he grabbed your hips like he was seconds away from falling apart. "yeah," he said, voice shaking, "i know you are."
and then he kissed you, deep, slow, hot enough to melt his own bones, his hands sliding down just far enough to brush the lace he shouldnât have seen, and he whispered against your lips, "youâre gonna kill me someday, you know that?"
you just giggled, tugging him closer. "but like⌠in a cute way, right?"
and he was gone.
completely, hopelessly gone.
â˘âHAJIME KASHIMOââ˘
hajime honestly didnât understand why you insisted on sitting on him sometimes, especially when there were perfectly good chairs right next to him. but you had this habit of climbing into his space with the same mindless confidence as a kitten and he never stopped you, partly because he liked the warmth, partly because he was hundreds of years old and had long since given up pretending he didnât crave softness, and partly because telling you "no" always made you pout at him like heâd just deprived you of sunlight.
he should have stopped you today. he really should have.
you were meant to be watching a movie, but you ended up perched sideways across his lap, your arms loosely around his shoulders, your cheek resting against him while you rambled about how "smug the villain looked," and he was managing it fine, controlled breathing, relaxed posture, zero inappropriate thoughts, until you suddenly gasped at a jumpscare on screen and did the one thing his ancient self was absolutely not prepared for. you bounced.
not a polite shift. not a subtle wiggle. you bounced in his lap, soft thighs sinking onto him, weight settling right where he already struggled to keep himself calm, and hajime made a sound he didnât mean to make, something low, sharp, bitten off like heâd been hit, and you, being you, didnât even notice.
you just bounced again.
"oh my god, hajime, that scared me," you breathed, doing another excited little hop that landed directly against the thick outline in his pants.
his entire soul left his body.
his hands shot to your hips like he needed to hold you still or he would die on the spot, jaw clenched, eyes narrowing at the ceiling because he could not look at you while you were unknowingly grinding yourself onto him like some kind of adorable menace sent from the heavens specifically to ruin his self control.
"donât," he said, voice low, dangerous, strained in a way youâd never heard.
you blinked up at him. "donât what?"
and then you bounced again.
a full, innocent, cheerful little bounce.
hajimeâs breath stuttered out of him like heâd been electrocuted from the inside, his back going rigid, fingers digging into the softness of your hips with a restraint that physically hurt him.
"you need to stop," he managed, every syllable tight.
your lips parted. "oh! am i too heavy? iâm sorry, i-"
"thatâs not-" he hissed through his teeth, head dropping back against the couch like he was begging some higher power for mercy, "-thatâs not the problem."
you tilted your head, clueless and sweet. "then whatâs wrong?"
your weight shifted again, unintentionally rolling against him, and hajimeâs hand flew up so fast he nearly slapped a palm over your mouth just to stop the little surprised sound that escaped you, because if you made one more noise like that he genuinely didnât know what heâd do.
he swallowed hard, eyes half lidded, breath trembling against your cheek as he leaned forward just enough for you to feel the heat of him and hear exactly how ruined his voice had become.
"if you move again," he murmured, each word slow and deliberate like he was holding himself back with chains, "iâm going to stop pretending i donât want you."
your eyes widened, heartbeat tripping. "ohâŚ"
his fingers squeezed your thighs, slow, reverent, possessive, hot.
"yeah," he whispered, forehead pressing to your jaw as he exhaled shakily, "oh."
you didnât bounce again.
âŚbut only because the moment you tried to adjust, hajime dragged you perfectly still in his lap with a low warning growl that told you exactly what would happen the second you did.
and for the rest of the movie, he didnât take his hands off you once
â˘âHIROMI HIGURUMAââ˘
higuruma had always told himself he was immune to temptation. years of detached logic, barricaded emotion, and a legal career built on discipline and restraint leaving him with the firm belief that he simply wasnât the type of man who lost his composure. he had lived entire decades in grayscale, untouched by impulse.
and then he met you.
you, who had somehow slipped color into his life without even meaning to. you, whose laugh softened the edges of his mind. you, who kissed him slow like he deserved warmth. you, who still didnât understand the power you had over him.
which was why tonight felt like some kind of cosmic joke, because he truly wasnât prepared for something as simple, as innocent, as devastatingly erotic as you kneeling at his feet.
it happened so casually he almost missed it.
he had been sitting on the edge of the bed, half dressed for your quiet date night, rolling his sleeves and thinking about which bottle of wine he should get when you padded over in your little lounge shorts and pastel top, all soft and sweet and completely unaware that he was already trying not to stare at the shape of your thighs in the low lamp light.
"baby?" you said, tilting your head. "your shoeâs untied."
"iâll get it," he murmured automatically, already reaching down. but you were faster.
you pressed a gentle hand to his knee and lowered yourself to the floor in front of him, kneeling between his legs like it was the most natural thing in the world, your body settling into the space where his breath immediately hitched.
you didnât notice. you never did.
you just smiled up at him, god, that soft smile, and then bent your head, gathering the laces with careful fingers.
and higurumaâs world detonated.
because all he could see was you on your knees, right between his thighs, head bowed like you were about to worship him, and it hit him so hard he actually had to plant both hands on the mattress to steady himself. a slow heat burned up his neck, spreading across his chest, pooling low in his stomach with an intensity that almost scared him.
you tugged the lace gently. "see? you always double knot them wrong. it gets messy."
he swallowed. the sound was audible.
"is something wrong?" you asked, looking up at him with those wide, innocent eyes that made him feel like he was losing every remaining fragment of sanity.
your hands were still on his shoe. you were still kneeling between his legs. you were still too sweet to understand what he was imagining, your mouth on him instead of the laces, your lips parting around him so prettily, his hands in your hair, guiding your head just like-
he exhaled sharply. "nothingâs wrong," he lied, voice strained enough to crack.
you brightened, returning to tying the laces. "okay! iâll fix it, then."
your fingers brushed his ankle and he nearly groaned.
you didnât look up this time. "youâre breathing weird," you muttered softly, brows drawn in concentration. "do you need water?"
"no," he said too quickly, gripping the edge of the bed harder, knuckles whitening.
"oh. are you hot? you look hot."
he was. unbearably so.
"sweetheart," he managed, voice dropping in a way he didnât mean to let slip, "do you⌠have any idea what this looks like?"
you blinked up at him. "me tying your shoes?"
he stared.
you truly didnât know. you genuinely didnât see it. and that innocence, god, it ruined him.
you got up on your knees a little straighter, closer between his legs, hands resting on his thigh for balance, and higuruma felt every last shred of control snap like a weak thread.
"iâm just helping," you whispered, tilting your head. "why are you looking at me like that?"
because he wanted you. because he always wanted you. because seeing you kneeling between his legs made his mind fill with images he couldnât say out loud without losing what was left of his dignity.
he leaned forward, cupping your jaw, brushing his thumb along your lips before he even realized he was doing it. "sweetheart," he murmured, low and rough, "if you keep kneeling in front of me like this, iâm not going to survive the night."
your breath caught, eyes widening as understanding finally flickered across your expression, slow, dawning, devastatingly adorable.
"o-oh," you whispered. "you mean⌠like⌠umâŚ"
he smiled, warm and dangerous. "yes. exactly like that."
a soft, breathy sound escaped your mouth.
he leaned down further, lips brushing your forehead. "come up here," he said gently, tugging you into his lap, "before i forget every decision iâve ever made."
and you climbed into his arms with that same innocent trust, your legs folding over his, your hands finding his shoulders, your heartbeat fluttering against his chest, completely oblivious to just how close he had come to losing all restraint the moment you touched the floor.
he kissed you slow, deep, lingering, his hands sliding around your waist like he was anchoring himself.
"next time," he whispered against your lips, "tell me before you get on your knees."
you blinked up at him, cheeks warm. "why?"
he laughed softly, brushing his nose against yours. "because i want to be ready for you."
â˘âRYOMEN SUKUNAââ˘
it started because you were being sweet again, which was always a problem, because sweetness around a man like sukuna worked the same way blood did around a starving animal. you wandered into his throne room like you had every right to be there, hair messy from sleep, robe slipping off one shoulder in a way that was so innocent it shouldâve been illegal, carrying a tray of tea you insisted on making because "you wanted to try the fancy leaves."
the guards froze the moment you appeared. no one brought the king tea, no one walked right up the steps of his dais without permission, no one acted like sukuna was someone who could be approached at all.
except you.
you walked straight to him, barefoot, humming, a ribbon falling out of your hair, and he felt his jaw tense because you genuinely had no idea what you did to him. you set the tray down beside him and bowed in that clumsy little way you always did, the neckline of your robe dipping again, and his eyes dragged over every inch of you with slow, dangerous interest.
"i made it for you," you said, smiling like you hadnât just walked into a monsterâs den. "it smells really good, see?"
and then you made a mistake.
you leaned in.
close. too close. your hand rested on his thigh for balance, thoughtless, innocent, soft, and you lifted the cup toward him, letting him smell the steam rising from it. you didnât notice how the silk of your robe brushed against him. you didnât notice how the warmth of your breath landed on his neck. you didnât notice how every single guard dropped their gaze in terror because they could practically feel the air around their king shift.
but sukuna noticed everything.
his pulse throbbed once, hard enough that even he felt it. your hand on his leg was warm and oblivious, your body leaning into his like it belonged there, and he didnât even bother hiding the way his eyes dragged down the curve of your neck, the slope of your shoulder, the way your robe threatened to slip further with every breath you took.
"careful," he murmured, voice like gravel dragged across stone, "youâre getting awfully close to kneeling for me."
you blinked, confused in a way that made his teeth clench. "oh- i didnât wanna spill it! i always spill stuff if i donât get close."
you adjusted your grip on the cup and somehow, somehow, you managed to lean in even closer. your knee brushed his, he exhaled slowly, like a man genuinely trying not to destroy something fragile.
the teacup trembled slightly in your hand and you laughed softly, lifting your other hand to steady it, which meant you braced your palm even more firmly on his thigh, fingers curling just barely, unaware that you were digging your nails in like a lover marking territory. your breath ghosted over the skin of his throat this time, warm, soft, trusting in a way nobody had ever trusted sukuna in a thousand years.
"see?" you whispered. "it smells so nice."
and he snapped.
not violently, no.
just inwardly.
something low and primal clawed up the back of his spine, something hot and territorial and ugly that wanted to drag you fully into his lap and make sure no one ever saw you like this again. his hand shot up to your chin, fingers gripping with enough strength to make you gasp, but not enough to hurt, just enough to make you freeze, wide eyed, staring at him like you couldnât understand why he looked like he wanted to devour you whole.
"you walk in here half dressed," he growled quietly, "put your hands on me. breathe on me. lean over me like youâre begging to be ruined⌠and have no idea what youâre doing. do you?"
you blinked again, lips parted, genuinely confused. "i just wanted you to try the tea."
god, you were going to kill him.
his thumb dragged slowly across your lower lip, and you shivered, not because you knew what it meant, but because the touch was warm and possessive in the way that always flustered you.
"youâre lucky," he murmured, voice dropping lower, "that i like the way you taste on my hands."
you swallowed.
he smirked, because he felt it.
"and youâre lucky," he continued, leaning in so close your noses nearly brushed, "that i havenât decided yet whether i should send every guard out of this room or make them watch what happens when you crawl into my space like this."
you whispered, barely audible, "i just⌠wanted you to like the teaâŚ"
he laughed, low, dark, pleased, and let his forehead rest against yours for a single, dangerous second.
"oh, little mouse," he said softly, "i like far more than the tea."
your heart hammered. your knees wobbled. you were entirely unaware of what youâd done to him, how close he was to pulling you onto his throne and making a spectacle of you, but you felt the heat of his breath on your lips when he added, "next time you want to serve your kingâŚ"
his fingers curled under your chin again, tilting your face up. "âŚdonât come in here dressed like youâre offering yourself."
you stammered, "i- i wasnât- i didnât-"
he smirked.
"that," he murmured, "is exactly why youâre dangerous."
â˘âTOJI FUSHIGUROââ˘
you werenât trying to be sexy, not even a little bit. you were just standing in his kitchen in one of his shirts that barely covered your ass, humming something sparkly and brainless while making breakfast like it was the cutest domestic morning in the entire world. your hair was messy, your lip gloss was half faded, and you were holding a frying pan with two fingers like it weighed a hundred pounds.
and toji⌠toji was losing his goddamn mind.
he leaned against the doorframe, arms crossed, staring at the way the hem of his shirt lifted every time you moved, flashes of soft, perfect skin teasing him until something dark and hungry started crawling up his spine. he wasnât subtle about it either. the man was staring at you like a wolf in a fairy tale, tracking every sway of your hips while you tried to figure out if pancakes were supposed to bubble this much.
"tojiiii," you whined, poking the sizzling batter with a spatula like it wronged you personally, "why is it doing that? is it mad at me?"
his voice came out low, rough, almost feral. "itâs not mad, doll. itâs just cooking."
"oh," you said, blinking slowly. "i thought it was like⌠protesting."
he took a slow breath, knuckles whitening where his arms crossed, because you sounded so sweet and clueless and his, and it didnât help that your thighs were peeking every time you shifted.
you flipped the pancake (badly), and the shirt lifted again.
and that was it. he snapped.
the next second his hands were already on your waist, big palms wrapping around you and dragging you back into him, his chest against your back, his breath hot at your ear. you squeaked, more delighted than scared, melting instantly into his hands like you were made to be held there.
"toji?" you breathed, voice all soft and sugary.
"youâre killinâ me," he muttered, one hand sliding down your waist, fingers digging into the curve of your hip like he needed to anchor himself. "walkinâ around my kitchen wearinâ my shirt, makinâ me breakfast like youâre my little wife."
your cheeks went warm. "i like makinâ you breakfastâŚ"
"yeah?" he murmured, his lips brushing your neck, just a graze, just enough to make your knees buckle. "that why youâre beinâ so good this morning?"
"iâm always good," you said proudly.
he laughed, low and sinful. "sweetheart, you have no idea."
your fingers tightened around the spatula when his other hand slid down, gripping the underside of your ass through the thin fabric, pulling a tiny gasp out of you, one so pretty and soft he exhaled like heâd been punched.
you didnât even fight the way he bent you over the counter. your hands flattened against the cool surface, breath catching when he pressed his body flush to yours, his grip firm and possessive on your hips. his voice dropped to something dark and hungry, the kind of tone that dragged a shiver up your spine.
"breakfast can wait," he said against your ear. "needed to touch you the second i saw you."
you wriggled back against him, teasing without realizing you were teasing, and his fingers tightened so sharply you let out a soft surprised whimper, one that made his entire body go rigid behind you.
"toji-"
"donât start," he growled gently, one hand sliding up your spine, the other still cupping your ass like he owned every inch of you. "you bend over this counter in my shirt and expect me to be calm?"
"i wasnât expecting anythingâŚ" you mumbled, a little breathless.
"yeah, well," he whispered, lips grazing your jaw, "iâm expectinâ a lot."
his thumb stroked the dip of your waist, slow and deliberate, and the air between you went hot, thick, charged, the kind of tension that made your thighs rub together on instinct.
he smirked against your skin.
"careful, doll," he murmured. "you keep makinâ those little noises and iâm gonna forget this is supposed to stay pg 13."
you gasped. "this is pg 13?"
"for now."
and the way he said it made your whole body warm.
â˘âSHIU KONGââ˘
shiu really didnât ask for this. he didnât ask to be sitting on the edge of his couch polishing a gun, trying to remember every reason he had for keeping his life clean and precise and free of distractions, while you stood in front of the mirror in nothing but one of his shirts, half buttoned, half not, leaning in close with your mouth gently parted as you applied a fresh coat of lipgloss like you were performing a sacred ritual.
it was a stupid lipgloss. pink, sparkly, the type that tasted like candy and trouble, and he had never cared about anything less in his entire life⌠until you popped the wand back into the tube with this tiny little sound and smacked your lips together like you were practicing kissing someone.
he froze. completely.
he didnât even blink, didnât breathe, didnât move a muscle. the entire room suddenly felt too hot, too small, too filled with the sweet artificial strawberry scent radiating off your mouth.
"shinuuu," you whined softly, dragging out his name like it was made of sugar, turning around with your glossy lips shining in the light. "do you think this color is cute? or does it make my mouth look⌠i dunno⌠too much?"
too much?
he was going to die.
the shirt you were wearing hit mid thigh in a way that made his jaw lock. your glossed lips parted slightly as you waited for his answer, and he genuinely forgot how sentences worked.
"you lookâŚ" he swallowed hard, watching you take the gloss back out just to add another layer, slowly, carefully, dragging the wand over your bottom lip while looking at him through the mirror like you had absolutely no idea what you were doing to him. "you look good."
you giggled, smearing a little extra shine on the corner of your mouth. "only good?"
he stood up so quickly it startled you, gun forgotten on the couch, his expression sharp in that dangerous, unreadable way that always meant your brain should be worried but your body was definitely not.
he walked toward you slowly, like a predator humoring its own restraint, eyes locked on your mouth.
"come here," he murmured.
you didnât even have time to giggle again before his hand slipped around your jaw, tilting your head up gently but firmly, his thumb brushing the edge of your bottom lip and coming away sticky with glittering gloss.
his voice dropped low, rough, almost strained. "you have no idea what that does to me."
your breath hitched, your lips parting instinctively under his touch.
and that was all he needed.
he kissed you, slow at first, like he was tasting the gloss off your lips, then deeper, hungrier, pulling you in by the waist until you were pressed against him, your fingers curling in his shirt as his mouth moved over yours with the kind of heat that made your knees weak.
the gloss smeared between you, sweet and warm and messy, and he didnât seem to care at all, in fact, he kissed you harder for it, like he wanted every trace of shine transferred to him.
when he finally pulled back, you were breathless and glossy all over again, lips glistening, eyes wide.
he wiped the corner of your mouth with his thumb and brought it to his own lips, tasting the gloss you left on him.
"now," he said, voice low and dangerous, "ask me again if itâs âtoo much.â"
your cheeks flushed pink.
"âŚno," you whispered, flustered, "i think itâs just rightâŚ"
he smirked, leaning in to kiss you again, slower this time, softer, still intoxicating, still possessive.
"yeah," he murmured against your lips, "me too."
â˘âNAOYA ZEN'INââ˘
naoya really wasnât planning on bringing you to the clan dinner.
in fact, he swore he wouldnât. mostly because his relatives were vultures, but also because every time you walked into a room he immediately forgot how to speak like a normal, functioning adult male, which was embarrassing and he refused to admit it.
but youâd shown up in his doorway wearing the prettiest little outfit heâd ever seen on a human woman, soft pink dress, bows in your hair, perfume like sugared peachesm and youâd said, "nao-chan, can i come with you? iâll sit quietly like a lady~" while twirling your lip gloss between two fingers.
and that was it. decision made. he was doomed.
so now he was sitting at a long tatami table with several stern zenâin men discussing business, while you sat across the room with a cup of tea, legs tucked to the side, humming softly as you scrolled through your phone, completely unaware that every curve, every sway, every tilt of your head was slowly murdering him.
he kept pretending to listen to whoever was talking, nodding politely, but his eyes kept drifting back to you. the way your glossed lips pursed slightly when you read something funny, the way your hair caught the lantern light, the way your sweet little dress rode up your thighs when you shifted on the cushion.
one of his cousins leaned in. "zenâin⌠you keep staring. whatâs the deal with that girl, anyway?"
naoya didnât even try to hide the smug smile curling on his lips. "that girl," he said slowly, savoring the words, "is mine."
his cousin snorted. "yeah, but why her? she looks like she doesnât know the difference between a curse tool and a hairbrush."
naoya turned his head so sharply the table creaked.
"she doesnât need to know," he said, voice dangerously low, "because sheâs beautiful, obedient, and perfect. something none of you idiots are capable of finding."
his cousin opened his mouth to argue, but naoya kept talking, suddenly emboldened, leaning back like the worldâs most entitled aristocrat.
"and she cooks," he added, ticking it off with a finger. "and she cleans." another finger. "and she looks pretty doing absolutely nothing," the last one, said with a smirk that made several other zenâins tense.
"watch this," he murmured, chin lifting proudly.
across the room, you noticed naoya looking at you and you waved at him with both hands, smiling so sweetly it was almost cartoonish.
"hi baby!" you said, loudly, in front of everyone.
naoyaâs ears went red.
his cousin choked on his drink. "holy shit, zenâin, sheâs actually into you?"
naoya smirked like he had just won the national championship in every existing category.
"into me?" he repeated. "she adores me."
you stood up and floated over to him, dress swaying, perfume trailing, and naoya, the man who thought women should be silent ornaments, nearly stopped breathing as you knelt beside him to whisper, "my teaâs cold⌠can i sit on your lap while i drink yours?"
his cousin gagged.
naoya didnât even blink. "yes," he said instantly, the easiest yes of his life.
you climbed into his lap without hesitation, skirts bunching up, thighs soft and warm against him, and naoya felt his entire body tighten with immediate, humiliating need. you didnât notice, of course, you just leaned back against his chest, sipping his tea with a happy little sigh.
the table of men stared.
naoya tilted his head toward them, a deadly, satisfied smile stretching slow across his face.
"see?" he said quietly. "perfect."
and then, with absolutely no warning, you giggled softly, wiggling in his lap to get comfortable, your soft little ass pressing directly into him, and naoya had to grip your hip to keep himself from groaning like heâd been hit by a truck.
his cousin muttered, "zenâin, youâre so whipped itâs pathetic."
naoya didnât deny it.
he didnât care.
because you shifted again, batting your pretty lashes up at him, completely oblivious to what you were doing to him, and naoya felt heat flood all the way down his spine.
"baby?" you whispered sweetly. "are you okay?"
he swallowed hard. "iâm perfect," he managed.
his family looked horrified.
naoya looked like he had just achieved nirvana.
and you?
you just took another sip of tea, still curled up in his lap like his own personal, devastating little dream, unaware that every man in the room now knew one undeniable truth.
naoya zenâin would burn the entire clan to the ground if you asked him to.