so flood me like atlantic , weather me to nothing . ANASTASIA . twenties .
william & sherlock's darling . noé's amour . fyodor's kukolka . rintarou's princess & sebastian's angel .
wash away the blood on my hands . THE MAID'S NOTES .
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is it always the same . MASTERLIST .
all works are fem-bodied reader and while i try to keep pronouns gender neutral, some works may include petnames, outfit descriptions, etc. that are feminine. minors do not interact, i will block you.
do you wish that you loved me . GRIMOIRE #1 | black butler .
• this grimoire is empty...
do you pull at the chains . GRIMOIRE #2 | bungou stray dogs .
• this grimoire is empty...
or do you push into constant aching . GRIMOIRE #3 | moriarty the patriot .
• this grimoire is empty...
each and every day . GRIMOIRE #4 | the case study of vanitas .
• this grimoire is empty...
do you wish that you loved me . OTHER | noblesse, requiem of the rose king & misc .
• spread like a book : kinktober 2026 : nsfw & dark content.
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wc: 1300+ - a/n: i may or may not have gotten too carried away, not proofread
SFW
Despite what most people think, I believe if you're dating this man he's completely in love with you to the point of no return.
He wouldn't put himself through the trouble of being in a relationship with someone if his sole purpose was manipulation—he knows how to get his way without putting himself in unwanted situations, especially if it's pretending to be in love with someone he isn't.
He fails to accept he's fallen for you at first, not that he doesn't understand what he's feeling but rather the fact that he hates remembering he's human too.
He watches you a lot from afar before he even considers confessing in any way, analysing if you're really worth it and what he feels for you is truly real.
He'd prefer someone who sees the world similarly to his idea of it, but not someone who agrees with everything he says blindly. He loves hearing what you have to say and debate with him; it only makes him fall for you harder.
It takes him a long time before he says anything about his feelings, wanting to know for sure if anything were to happen it wouldn't end, he doesn't like the idea of getting that close with another person just to potentially be strangers with them in the future.
Getting used to physical touch is something he struggles at first, but something in him also yearns to be close to you. He gets used to it after some time and appreciates you being patient with him.
Avoids arguing with you if he can, I do believe he's the type to feel uneasy if he felt like you were upset with him. It only makes him lose his focus and he doesn't like having his attention being diverted when he has a goal to complete.
If you work with him, he loves pulling all-nighters with you by his side, as you hack into confidential government documents.
The breaks you take consist of going out to the balcony and slowly make out while the entire city sleeps, unaware of its impending doom.
He thinks you're the most beautiful thing he's ever laid eyes on and the best thing to ever happen to him, you can see it in his eyes as he drinks in the sight of you under the moonlight.
He loves kissing you, finding it to be one of the things which eases his nerves; and he regrets taking so long before he first did. Bonus points if he gets to slip his tongue in.
When he thinks deeply of it, he does find the idea of marriage illogical in the legal sense, but subconsciously entertains the idea of you two being bound together in a way people see as sacred.
Would propose if he realised that's what you wanted.
Once he's certain of your devotion to him, you're his top priority and would never do something to endanger you, he always finds a way to keep you safe no matter how impossible it may seem.
When he struggles expressing his emotions to you, he finds the solution in spoiling you rotten; it doesn't matter if you could buy everything you wanted, he wants to make sure you know you're important to him and the thought of you leaving him due to his lack of expressiveness hurts him more than he'd like to admit.
Leaving him is not really an option, unless you really wanted to—but he'll do anything to make sure you never feel that way.
Possessive AND jealous but not controlling due to his fear of driving you away.
Thinks sleep is a waste of time but his body isn't strong enough to bear sleep deprivation so he lays on your chest to nap during evenings before continuing.
Even though his introverted demeanour makes people think he's the quiet type, he could talk for hours in your presence and he is happy to know he's no longer alone and that he has someone who understands him.
Yours is the only smell which doesn't make him nauseous.
Loves board games of any sort and the quiet evenings when he can let go a little and play with you are his favourites.
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Loves naked intimacy without it going any further, it means a lot to him being able to let his guard down enough to do that.
Even though he'd die before ever admitting it but his sexual desire for you developed before you were even together.
Probably dreamt of fucking you a few times and woke up mortified, not wanting to look you in the eye the next day but still did to not seem suspicious, and tried to avoid being around you as much as he could before he missed seeing you.
He is more aroused by the emotional intimacy of it rather than physical, and being close to you in a way no other person can.
Could fuck you for hours if he could, and he sometimes falls weak to that urge as he finds himself delaying his work to have you pressed under him a little longer.
Intertwines your fingers together and presses them just above your head to pin you down harder but to also feel your palm against his.
Knows every single turn on and kink you have, without you ever having to mention it and indulges in most of them.
Dominant in a way of serving you instead of having power over you, and he isn't satisfied until you are overstimulated beyond consciousness.
He probably initiated it first—no matter how much he hated being seen as desperate, his desire for you has more power over him than his feeling of shame.
Almost always makes you cum once before any actual penetration unless he's extra pent up, but even then his priority is your pleasure.
Tries to hold back as much as he can until you're crying from desperation, you needing him is what he enjoys seeing.
Loves every single detail about your body and nothing about you could ever repulse him. If he were to hear you say something derogatory about yourself he'd feel personally offended to hearing you talk negatively about something he finds out of this world; before he fucks you in front of anything reflective so you could see how perfect you are just the way he sees you.
Pulls you onto his lap as he works so you could cock-warm him and hug him at the same time, even better when you kiss him occasionally.
He made sure to make your first time with him special, wanting you to know how much your well-being matters to him; and switched to a rougher side only if you urged him to.
He likes missionary mainly because he wants to look into your eyes and see every micro expression you make, but him flipping you onto your stomach and lifting your hips up is almost always inevitable.
Loves having a good view of him stretching you out, if the position isn't allowing him to look into your eyes, he's looking down to watch you gripping him.
As much as he enjoys eating you out, he loves seeing you on your knees for him and he struggles the most to remain gentle when you do before gripping your hair to pull your head closer to him.
He'll make sure you have no choice but to make sound, he'll decide he isn't doing good enough if you can stay quiet and won't stop until you're begging him to.
He lays you down on his chest and plays with your hair whether it's long or short before carrying you to the shower and fucking you one more time as you're standing with your back to him, and always carries you back to bed to lay you down before eventually having to go back to his work.
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blood play with rintarou mori... that man loves dragging his scalpel over parts of your skin, watching you shiver just to lean down and lap up the blood that beads in scarlet from your scratches. it's such a feral, metallic taste on his tongue while he's deep in you, the scalpel discarded on whatever surface beneath you — usually his desk — in favour of splaying his hands around your hips to hold you in place. he shares that taste with you, presses his lips against yours so you can experience the tanginess of your own blood as he ruts into you with a singleminded focus.
even more so, little blood pacts with the mafia's boss. rintarou so proudly wears a small vial of your blood around his neck. he finds himself toying with it in the rare circumstance that he doesn't have his scalpel on hand... and you, with a vial of his own as you go about your daily business. yes, rintarou is quite pleased that nobody else knows just how much he's always with you.
OH MY SO CUTE- Probably it will end up NSFW or slightly suggestive in some points, so be aware!
ᴛʜᴇ ᴄʜᴀꜱꜱᴇᴜʀꜱ ᴀɴᴅ ᴡʜᴇʀᴇ ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴋɪꜱꜱ ʏᴏᴜ
ROLAND 🌸 Cheeks, always and forever. Whenever you appear in front of Roland, be ready to be crushed in one of his bear hugs and to fall under a shower of cuddles and kisses, praised and worshipped. No way to escape, no use complaining and begging for mercy, you only have to surrender and take it. When you two are alone in your private chambers, your cheeks fall prey to his bites too, and the more you squeak and scream, the more they will have his attention ― until your bodies pressed together unleash other reactions and promises.
OLIVIER 🌸 Hand kiss, no matter if you know each other for years. With impeccable manners, Olivier’s lips touch your skin gently and slowly, and he retreats only when he is sure you felt all his love and desire for you in this gesture. When in private, however, his discretion falls in pieces and as soon as he pins you at the bed or on a surface soft enough to not hurt you, this gentleman wastes no time in worshipping every inch of your body with his mouth and to chase every jolt of your flesh with other kisses, holding your hips in a gentle but firm grip and loving every second you moan and cry for him.
ASTOLFO 🌸 Astolfo doesn’t kiss you often, nor he has a favorite spot; he does it when he feels to or when he sees you need it. His kisses are quick and light, still they always achieve their goal, bringing smiles and surprise. Still, Astolfo prefers to show affection in other ways, like brushing slightly the arm against yours or sitting next to you to enjoy each other’s warmth, or capturing a lock of your hair and playing with it while listening to you talking. Your presence is equal to a thousand kisses for him.
OGIER 🌸 Always eager for your kisses and to kiss you back, he aims at your neck and throat without any shame, holding your head still and stopping only when there is a huge mark on your skin. If Ogier sees you wearing clothes or shirts with high collars, his eyes widen in excitement and he takes it as a challenge thrown to him specifically: you caged your perfect body under layers of clothing, so, as your brave knight in shiny armor, he has the moral duty to free it. Also, if you two are in a secluded spot dark enough to shelter you, or if there is none around, Ogier takes occasion to kneel, squeeze your butt and, trapping your legs in his grip, place a kiss or two in the middle of your legs: he knows your weaknesses too well, and doesn’t think twice about exploiting them for both’s fun and pleasure. Especially his.
GANO 🌸 Gano rarely kisses you, and only to annoy and distract you; so, whenever there is a moment in which you have to keep your attention up, like during a meeting or while writing a report you must finish in a few hours, be sure you won’t. No, really, forget about it. The main target is your nape; and not to kiss, but to bite hard enough to elicit a scream. He lives for it. If you even curse, jackpot! When alone, you can try to take some revenge on his stunts by using your teeth against him, and sometimes you even succeed; but at a high price, since Gano is not the type to forget or forgive, and doesn’t hold back when you challenge him. He is always out for blood ― and some drops of yours (only some drops, since you are you) are enough to satisfy him. For some time.
CHARLES 🌸 He doesn’ kiss anyone, not even you. Come on, do you really think he will grace you by putting your lips over you, just because you are special to his heart? Nah, forget about it, and be the one to kiss him instead, showing your devotion and adoration to the great paladin by worshipping every inch of his supreme form.
MIRA 🌸 OF COURSE she goes for the mouth, using even her tongue. No matter where you are or what you are doing, if alone or in the middle of a crowd, Mira locks your lips with hers and lets you go only after a long, deep kiss that leaves you breathless and trembling every time. Then, this siren giggles and mocks you about how cute you are, and proposes to heal you by giving you part of her own breath. By now, everyone knows there is nothing one can do to change the way she is, so you are doomed to your fate ― a wonderful one. When alone, especially after some glasses of alcohol, she loves peppering your chest in soft kisses.
EARRING CHASSEUR (OLIVIER’S VICE CAPTAIN) 🌸 Oh, the cuteness; with him, you unlock the privilege of forehead kisses, especially if you two are alone at night, stargazing together with a cup of tea in the hands and a warm blanket over the shoulders. Not the type to show affection by words, actions speak louder; so, he prefers to show you how much he loves you in his tender ways.
GEORGE 🌸 Always gentle and discrete. Like Olivier, he tends to kiss your hand and, when you two are quite intimate, to leave a soft kiss on your lips whenever you two meet or depart. He is contented enough to see you smiling afterwards, without asking for anything more.
MARIE 🌸 The bright one always too shy and unsure to kiss you, even if she knows you for years or you two already have an established relationship. You can reassure her a thousand times, in words and actions, telling and showing her how much you crave for her mouth on yours; still, even if she never refuses a good kiss, Marie prefers to wait for you to make the first step, melting in your arms as soon as you hug and let her taste the sweetness of your lips.
MARCO 🌸 Please, just the thought of kissing you is enough to make the man pass away and regain consciousness only infinite time later. Go easy on him.
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my love withers . ABOUT ANASTASIA .
lady anastasia, at your service! you may call me ana, natsya or annie. 2001. they/them. i'm your local goth puppy, pianist & mortician. typically reading classic literature & poetry. my main blog is @onlyzandik.
across the universes . .
vanitas no carte : formerly louis de sade's lover, anastasia is the childhood friend of dominique de sade & noé archiviste. a quiet vampire, they blend into human society as a pianist. unfortunately their childhood friend can't let go of how they disappeared and so noé archiviste made his way back into their life.
moriarty the patriot : the head of an orphanage in rural england, anastasia uses it as a cover to head the biggest intelligence network in great britain. indebted to the moriarty brothers, their all-knowing presence is quite the problem for william moriarty & sherlock holmes.
bungou stray dogs : the armed detective agency's own little 'memory keeper' whose ability specialises in stealing (or safekeeping) memories of others in their vault. while they hate to be at the centre of attention, they certainly got noticed by the likes of fyodor dostoevsky & rintarou mori.
black butler : lady pauline has quite the peculiar maid with violet eyes. their loyalty towards the noblewoman is unwavering yet they dislike mostly everyone else around them, going so far as to look down on lady pauline's other staff.. it's quite bothersome and ever more noticeable around demon butler sebastian michaelis.