Rowan

Loving all of the posts about Eva Stratt being the trolley operator but what I think some people are missing in their trolley problem analogies for Eva Stratt's choice is that Stratt was not a bystander pulling a lever, the lever had already been pulled and the trolley was barreling towards all of humanity and Stratt's choice was to make a desperate attempt to block the trolley with her own body but no matter how desperate she was to solve it on her own she knew she couldn't, she knew she needed others, she needed people willing to help take the force. The trolley was mere inches away and she needed only one more person, that person was her right hand man, her closest companian, her best friend, and she begged him to sit at her side on those tracks and he refused, looking down at her where she sat on those track yelling at her how unfair she was being to ask him to sit down, as if she did not know the pain of sitting there since day one. Yes she had to tie him to those tracks kicking and screaming, yes it hurt, but she did not do it from the sidelines, she was standing on the tracks herself

what if a guy with bodily autonomy issues gave himself over to another person wholly, and trusted them to do whatever they needed (or wanted) to do. what if this person never even told him what they were doing? what if he trusted that person so much this relinquishing of control was a relief instead of retraumatizing? would that be crazy or what

kudos to Ryland Grace for finally being the true “I am alone in space” representation we deserve by sobbing his eyes out every chapter. Relatable. I do that and I’m not even light years away from my bed