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The End of a Fairytale

No matter what happens, no matter what I have to do, I have to make it real, not make-believe.

From here on out, I'm the one in charge. I'm the one who decides what's good and what's bad—and which way we're headed. And people had better remember that.

The moons were listening carefully. So were the Little People. And this very room she was in. She couldn't let it out of her heart, not one centimeter. She had to surround her heart with a thick wall so nothing could escape.

The moonlight wreaked havoc on her mind. It changed the tides in inlets, stirred up life in the woods.

As a single leaf on a tree, he turned off the light of consciousness, closed the door on any senses, and waited for the change of seasons.

My mind is like a brand-new steel nail—hard, sober straight. Hammered at just the right angle, into the core of reality. There's nothing wrong with me. I'm completely sane. It's the world around me that's gone crazy.

But this isn't their God, she decided. It's my God. This is a God I have found through sacrificing my own life, through my flesh being cut, my skin ripped off, my blood sucked away, my nails torn, all my time and hopes and memories being stolen from me. This is not a God with a form. No white clothes, no long beard. This God has no doctrine, no scripture, no precepts. No reward, no punishment. This God doesn't give, and doesn't take away. There is no heaven up in the sky, no hell down below. When it's hot, and when it's cold, God is simply there.

Unless you die once, you won't be reborn. But people face death while they're still alive.

let's go book 3!

Finished Book 2

I'm a coward when it comes to matters of the heart. That is my fatal flaw.

I want to push myself to my limits, and if things don't work out, then I can give up. But I will do everything I can until the bitter end. That is how I live.

midway through book 2

Where there is light, there must be shadow, where there is shadow there must be light. There is no shadow without light and no light without shadow.