drown me in coffee

need to stop drinking on days i’m restricting, one glass of wine totals me

considered getting a fast food breakfast but would rather save money and calories. plus a guy at the bus stop has mcdonald’s and i can smell it which is the only good part about fast food anyway, so there we go

oughhh too much caffeine early in the morning… i will be paying for this later

sitting with my friends being the only one not smoking… my resolve will only last so long

if i have to see AI bullshit every day for the rest of my life i’m going to kill myself in the next 5 years and nothing will convince me otherwise

i am Rather Intoxicated my father is a functional alcoholic

had 800c dinner as it was lowest c option tho.. feel quite sick

going to the gym today, not in control of my dinner though so idk how my intake will look today. feeling quite massive, wearing jeans makes me want to claw the fat off my body with my fingernails

grahhh headache

goddammit been logged out of tumblr on my laptop and of course i didn’t save my password again

as much as i dislike being in my hometown when it comes to the busier areas where i run the risk of seeing someone i know, i do love the quieter areas especially during the week. it’s very green and more closed off from roads than my uni town feels, so walking is more relaxing and the air feels cleaner.

think tomorrow i’ll go for a walk into the nearest town, get a coffee and read, then walk back and try get a job. then list some clothes for sale

being real i’ve eaten terribly this week. a few good days but still not good overall. need to actually lock in if i want to not feel disgusting at my graduation