ruhroh

This weekend I am going boofen

What’s boofen you ask?

It’s when you go to the Saxonian Switzerland National Park and go climbing, then stay the night in the outdoors in a “boof,” which is a designated area for people to sleep in. Outside.

And I’m noticing that my neutral mood is taking a dip as well. I’m feeling overall low. Just down, achey, and crappy. 

My acne is also getting worse. So this is really fun for me right now guys. :(

Today I went for a roughly 30 km hike (18.6 miles)

I found some cool beetles that were eating poop

And I found what has to be the world’s coolest pinecone

I didn’t get to do any trail running since there’s something wrong with my leg, and running is super painful probably also should not have gone hiking but ya kno wat

Today was a good day filled with lots of nature and like also lots of poop and beetles and I even saw a dead boar carcass??? 

I also measured my at home pole and once I get my paycheck this week I can go ahead and order the extensions!

I also took off my shirt and danced on a pole at the park because I have no chill.

I realized in this that even though we are not meant to be in a relationship together, she is my best friend and we will always be close. I will always love her. And also, sometimes you need these nights. I needed this. This wine night was appreciated and I will remember this. I am really gonna miss her and miss these kinds of nights.

I dont know the point of this post. I dont know what to say, really. I miss my best friend and I miss being able to be me around her. That's all, I guess.

This week I’ve been riding my bike at least 6 miles each day, been bouldering, have had pole classes twice, plus been dancing at home both on and off the pole.... I am SO TIRED AND SO SORE

I’ve had to cancel plans cause I also haven’t been sleeping so well. I can’t tell if this has to do with keto or not? I can’t tell if me being this tired and sore has to do with keto or not or if I’m just pushing myself?

I am like REAL into creepy shit. Avant garde, the macabre, unsettling things, the grotesque, the surreal, weird shit. And I LOVE butoh for that reason, among others.

Is there a style of pole dance that incorporates this sort of thing? Like, being sexy is fun, but being UNSETTLING is way better (for me, at least). Like I've seen contemporary dance incorporated, hip hop too, but what about like butoh? Does that go too far against what butoh is and is about?