tired of starting over!

Well.... tomorrow marks the 34th trip around the sun for me..... it hasn't been easy..... infact its been extremely difficult.... im not excited about it... but i cant stop it. Not that I haven't tried. More of just given up trying.... I guess we shall see what this next trip around has to offer......

Its amazing how the mind is such a unique thing.... it can be anything from the happiest place or scenario to the most horrifying thing ever... hell it can be completely blank one moment, and make you into the horniest thing alive the next..... it can process some of the most complex algorithms and comprehend the difference between time and space.... but yet in an instant things can go dark, unpleasant, and truly terrifying... it uses humor and false compassion to cover up things like depression and psudophsycho tendencies.... it creates love to make us feel attached and fulfilled... but yet uses that same love to reak havoc and cause the most morbid of emotion.... and the most amazing thing about it to me is.... every single one of us have our own.... our own thoughts, pleasures, love... our own sadness, darkness, demons.... we all love, grieve, experience happiness, sadness, anger... all in our own way... not one is wrong nor is it right... your mind is unique to you.. and only you...

🤔🤔 whale tail pics would really be nice right about now.....

I guess its that time of day to head home, get in the shower and bang my head against the wall until the water turns a nice shade of red.....

I wish I was skinny so I could go shirtless in this heat! But nooooo im cursed with a dad bod and hairy chest that Noone wants to see! Hahahahhahaha