CRYBABY.💫

““what is addiction?” 
addiction is cold sweats, hot flashes, and aching bones in the middle of the night. 
addiction is wearing long sleeves in the summer cause the withdrawals are so bad.
 addiction is canceling a trip with your bestfriend, because you cant go days without dope. 
 addiction is lying to your family when they ask where your money goes
 addiction is waiting 40+ minutes for your drug dealer to show up. 
addiction is not showing up for work because you’re dopesick
 addiction is pawning all of your things and stealing from the people you love.
 addiction is slowly losing all of your friends and not even caring enough to stop it. 
 addiction is calling your dealer at 1am because you finally got money and cant bare to feel sick any longer. 
addiction is not eating for days at a time because you’d rather buy dope than food. 
addiction is crawling on your bedroom floor looking for crumbs you may have spilled. addiction is sweating through 3, 4, even 5 layers of sheets because you couldnt get a fix before bed and now youre dope sick.
 addiction is knowing the dope is killing you but being too far gone to care.
 addiction is living everyday the same as the last because it is a never ending chase for it. addiction is neglecting everything unless it helps you get dope. addiction is doing things you never knew you were capable of because you need to get it somehow. addiction is walking past the mirror one day and feeling your heart sink when you don’t recognize the person staring back. addiction is finally seeing that the flame once burning so bright in you, went out years ago. addiction is weighing 89 pounds at the doctor, & you never even knew you got skinny.”