Play fighting but the thrill isn't in the verbal banter or in the wish to get forced into submission immediately, but into the will to keep fighting against that forced submission, the longer you fight the better it feels, the pride, the heavy breathing from both off you, your muscles losing strength, their grip tightening as they know your close to losing the fight, the pain rushing all over your body as the adrenaline wears off and comes back full strength every time they try something on you, your body reacting to defend yourself without you having to even think of it, the tears of exhaustion and shame on the edges of your eyes, but still the will to fight until the very end because you know one day you might actually win, and that'll feel fucking good too
