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Thank-you to all of my new Internet stranger friends for being so gracious about having my post shoved onto your dashboards. I loved reading all of your kind tags and comments! Both Martin and Bosco have been gone for several years now but for 24 hours, they felt very present in my life. I greatly appreciate this gift. â¤ď¸
Thank you to everyone who commented in their tags or messaged me. Indeed, today is âMartin and Bosco Dayâ. I originally whimsically blazed this photo on 13 July 2022. I never expected Martin and Bosco to travel so far and make so many new friends. The experience has been such a gift for me.
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In conversation with multiple posts going around discussing technical literacy and typing skillsâŚ
I HAD typing classes: my typing speed is less than 35 Words Per Minute
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I HAD typing classes: my typing speed is 36-45 WPM
I did NOT have typing classes: my typing speed is 36-45 WPM
I HAD typing classes: my typing speed is 46-55 WPM
I did NOT have typing classes: my typing speed is 46-55 WPM
I HAD typing classes: my typing speed is 56-69 WPM
I did NOT have typing classes: my typing speed is 56-69 WPM
I HAD typing classes: my typing speed is faster than 70 WPM
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âĄď¸ Take a typing test here (and you need an actual, physical keyboard for this):
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âĄď¸ Across 3 different typing test websites*, the (english language) world average typing speed is 40 WPM.
patience my brother (and patience my friend): a TMA fanfic
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Chapter 11: The Devil's Doorstep
It could have been worse. Sheâd even been kind, or ostensibly kind anyway, sending them off to get cleaned up and not even fussing at them about bathing together while she made a big pot of soup and then tucked them into bed, in her bed even, since she didnât like to climb the stairs but wanted to keep an eye on them. Only later did it occur to Melanie that sheâd probably just wanted to make sure they didnât get pneumonia or something so Mummy and Daddy wouldnât petition the courts to stop the annual visits.
It had been the next morning, over porridge, when sheâd let them have it. She had interrogated them about what they had been up to, really, since she didnât believe for a minute that neither of them would have realized they had âaccidentallyâ been swept out to sea. When Jon had finally confessed their goal, sheâd given a blistering lecture on fiction versus reality and then told them that if they had to be brought back by the police again she would lock them in the house for good.
Both of them believed she was thoroughly capable of carrying out that threat.
The trouble was that there wasnât much for them to do inside. They didnât have any puzzles, hadnât brought any toys with them, didnât know how to play chess and werenât allowed to touch the set anyway for whatever reason. There was the telly, but when Grandmother Simsâno, Mrs Sims, Melanie wasnât supposed to call her Grandmotherâhad realized that theyâd got the idea for their adventure from a television program, sheâd forbidden them from watching it until she was satisfied they would understand that just because they could see something, even with real people climbing around it, didnât mean it was actually real. Which pretty much left them books.
Melanie hated reading. She didnât dislike books in generalâshe loved being read toâbut actually reading herself, she struggled. The words seemed to slide around on the page and escape easy comprehension. Mr Dumphrey, their teacher that year, had been very helpful and given her a few tricks, but it still wasnât easy like it was for Jon and she still hated it. Jon could skate through a book in almost no time flat, but when they were reading on their own, he would linger over pages, rereading and savoring passages before moving on. He was also, luckily for her, more than happy to read out loud to her when she asked him to, and theyâd read a lot of very good books like that.
The thing was that Jon didnât like rereading books. Or, no, not disliked, but it bored him to already know where the book was going, or to feel like heâd read it before. Melanie didnât mind, and in fact often preferred to reread old favorites because she could usually pin the letters down easier, and she counted herself lucky that Jon was willing to reread books, or finish books he clearly didnât like, if she asked him to. For her. In return, sheâd sat through him reading a couple of books he liked a lot that she didnât care for, because it only seemed fair.
But Mrs Sims didnât exactly have a vast library of books, and Jon and Melanie had already read them all. (Well, not exactly all of them. Mrs Sims mostly seemed to read the same three or four authors, and even Melanie hadnât been desperate enough to ask Jon to read her another one of those.) They didnât bring books with them because books made their suitcases too heavy to carry on their own on the train and they couldnât count on the aunt they were being put in the charge of to help them, and it was a long way to the library if they walked (Mrs Sims didnât drive and taxis cost too much money, she said), so they usually only went once every summer.
Surprisingly, Mrs Sims had actually hit on a solution.
âThere,â she announced, dumping her latest pile of books onto the floor of the living room. âYou ought to find enough in that to last you the rest of the visit.â
She swept out of the room and into the master bedroom, leaving the door open, and a few moments later they heard the opening notes of one of her stories coming from the telly. Melanie scowled in that direction, then turned back to Jon. âDid you hear an or else in that, or was it just me?â
Jon wrinkled his nose. âItâs not just you. Weâll have to read slow. Come on, letâs see if thereâs anything juicy in this lot.â
As solutions went, it wasnât a bad one. Mrs Sims had decided to simply waltz into the nearest charity shop, buy up all of the books on sale for less than a pound, and bring them home for Jon and Melanie to pick through. Once they had read everything they wanted out of it, she would take them all to a different shop and begin again. Melanie reckoned it wouldnât last for long, since there were only so many charity shops in Bournemouth within walking distance, but maybe it would work for a couple of years yet. This, however, was the third lot sheâd brought them, and her tone of voice had definitely left the impression that she had expected this to hold them longer.
It wasnât exactly their fault, since she wasnât looking at anything other than the price. The first batch had been mostly soppy romances and a few battered classics, so hadnât held them long. The second lot had been more interesting, including a particularly gory horror novel she would never have permitted them to even look at while at the library, let alone check out, but even so they had gone through everything inside of a week. It was clear that Mrs Sims was not prepared to indulge them much further, so they had best set aside a good stockpile and read slow.
At first glance, it didnât look promising. At least half of the titles didnât have pictures on the cover, which usually meant they were some sort of dry, dusty textbook. Melanie picked one up and squinted at it hard, trying to make the letters make sense, then gave a frustrated growl and held it out to Jon. âI canât even begin to make this one out! Whatâs it called?â
Jon took the book and puzzled over it for a moment, which surprised her, then flipped it open and skimmed it before shaking his head in obvious relief. âItâs in Latin. I think. I recognize this phrase from one of Daddyâs law books, anyway. We could try to work it out, but I donât think itâll make much sense.â
âThatâs okay,â Melanie said, relieved. She wasnât completely stupid. âAnything good over there?â
âThis one has a dragon on the cover.â Jon held up a thick book with a fancy script on the title, which probably meant it was long and tricky to get through. Might hold them for a while. âItâs called A Darkness atâSeth-a-non. I think thatâs how itâs pronounced. It must be a made up place.â
âAre you sure?â
âThere are dragons, Melanie. Itâs not in England.â Jon set it aside in the for later pile and reached for another one. âOh, this oneâs a cookbook, never mind.â
Melanie picked up a book with a black cover and bright writing, which might mean a horror book. The cover showed a pretty girl with long, flowing hair. She was about to read the title aloud, or try to, when she saw the authorâs name and dropped it. âNope. Not that one.â
Jon picked it up curiously and dropped it just as quickly. âI donât know if she has that one. Maybe we should bring it to her later. She might want to keep it.â
âI donât know why she likes those.â
âI donât, either.â Jon pushed the book away with the Latin book and mumbled, âFor all she says weâre not supposed to confuse fiction and realityâŚâ
Melanie paused, turning that over in her mind for a moment. âYou reckon thatâs why she wonât let us shut the door?â
Jon shrugged one shoulder. âI dunno. I tell you what, though, Iâm not going to eat any powdered doughnuts if she offers them to us.â
âYouâd better not.â Melanie wrinkled her nose at him and went back to rummaging through the pile. A slim white cardboard volume caught her eye, and she tugged on the corner. âOh, look, she found one I can read all by myself, isnât that nice of her.â
Jon looked up with a frown. âYou can read just fine on your own. It just takes you longer. Maybe if you read some of these to me we can make them last the rest of the summer.â
âHa, ha, very funny.â
âI wasnât joking. Whatâs the book called?â
Melanie pulled the book free and held it up. It was very obviously a childrenâs picture book, which even at her reading ability sheâd outgrown, with a simple black drawing of a spider accented with a red bowler hat. The words were on the cover like they had been written there, not printed, and to her surprise she could read them fairly easily. âA Guest for Mister Spider.â
She opened the book, curious, to see a book plate indicating it had originally come from a library of some kindânot the Bournemouth Library, but one she couldnât quite make out properly. She turned the page and beheld a drawing of the spider, wearing his bowler hat, standing in a living room. There werenât even as many words on one page as in Paddiwack and Cosyâactually there werenât any words on the first page. Jon scooted over next to her as she turned the page slowly until she found the first words. âKnock, knock. Whoâs there, Mister Spider?â
It was a simple book, of the sort used to teach a simple lesson, although Melanie had no idea what it was meant to teach; the words werenât all that simple, as words went, and Mister Spider certainly wasnât very appreciative of the gifts his neighbors were bringing him. Her stomach turned and her voice shook when she got to the third visitor.
âItâs Mister Horse. And heâs brought you his son.â
Mister Horse, and his son, were both very large, very detailed flies in dungarees, but the expressions on their faces reminded Melanie, suddenly and painfully, of the way Daddy had looked the night they had first thought Mrs Sims was going to take Jon awayâand the way Jon had looked when heâd thought they might want him gone. It was the look of someone who had already lost so much and was about to lose everything, and she moved unconsciously closer to her brother as she read, just confirming he was still there.
There was a door on the last page. It looked so real, so inviting, that Melanie held it up in front of her like there was an actual door there as she read. âIt isâŚpoliteâŚto knock.â
Slowly, shakily, she raised her free hand, forming into knuckles, and drew back to knock on the door.
âWell, well, well, what have we here, eh?â
The book was suddenly ripped from Melanieâs fingersâand Jonâs, who was holding the other side. She blinked, gasping in surprise, as the world rushed back in in glorious Technicolor, greens and browns and blues andâ
Wait. How had they got to the park?
âThatâs not yours,â Jon said indignantly, but he also sounded a little disorientated. Melanie felt his hand slip into hers and squeeze.
She looked up and nearly growled in frustration. Of course. Standing over them, holding the book over their heads like bait, was none other than Andrew Young.
âWhat, little baby genius reading a little baby book?â Andrew sneered. He was fairly well known in the area, something of a jack of all tradesâand master of noneâwho âdidâ for quite a few of the widows and elderly folks in the area, of which there were many, billing himself as âHandy Andyâ. Heâd developed a long lasting and enduring hatred of Jon the first summer they were here based entirely on the fact that Jon was smarter than he was, which actually wasnât that difficult; there were things lurking at the bottom of the Bourne that were smarter than Andrew was, and more likable and better smelling, too. He was the sort of person disqualified from being the Village Idiot because he wasnât smart enough for the title, and he compensated for that by being a bully. That his chosen targets were ten years his junior spoke to the fact that he was also a coward who knew anyone older would likely put him in his place.
If he thought Jon and Melanie between them couldnât put him in his place, he was even stupider than he looked, except that they would get in real trouble if they got caught fighting again.
âGive it back, Andrew,â she said. She jumped for it, even though she knew it wouldnât do any good. She didnât know why it was so important that she have it back, but it was theirs.
âOr what?â Andrew asked, grinning sharply. âWhat are you going to do, runt, chew my ankles off?â He snickered and brought the book down. âOf course you were reading something like this. Need any help with the big words? A Guest for Mister Spider.â He enunciated each syllable carefully.
His voice trailed off, however, as he opened the book and his eyes locked on the pictures. His jaw went slack, making him look even stupider than usual, and he began to read. And to walk, as if in a dream.
Jon and Melanie looked at each other. On unspoken agreement, they followed him. Maybe the big idiot would fall down a sewer grating and they could catch the book before it went after.
His path took him away from the park and down a street. Melanie wasnât sure what page he was on until he walked up to the porch of one of the houses and held the book up in front of himself, right over the front door of the building.
It is polite to knock.
Seemingly in a trance, Andrew raised one hand, curled it into a fist, and rapped it against the book. Knock. Knock.
The door opened.
It opened slowly and quickly at the same time, not very far, just enough for them to see a black pit beyond. Thin, spindly black arms reached out of the door, reaching for Andrew. He never had time for anything more than a brief whimper before the arms dragged him into the door and it slammed shut behind him.
âMelanie!â Jonâs arms were suddenly tight around her chest, and he was dragging her backâwhen had she gone up to the steps? When had she started to go in? They overbalanced and fell over, landing hard on their backsides, and Jon didnât let go of Melanie as he tried to scoot backwards.
Something inside Melanie snapped, like a tether had been cut. She pushed to her feet and grabbed Jonâs hand, dragging him upright, and they ran. She wasnât even sure where they were exactly, but they ran as fast as they could away. Away was the important thing. Away from the house, away from the door, away from Mister Spider. She knew he was real, he was in that house, that was where he lived, and if they had knocked on the door then they would have been the more he wanted and they wouldnât have come outâŚ
âThat does it,â Mrs Sims boomed as they burst through the front door, gasping and with tears streaming down their faces and still clutching one anotherâs hands. âI told you to stay indoors. If you cannot follow such simple instructions, then this door will remain locked unless you are accompanied by me in the future. We will discuss this further in the morning. To your rooms without supper, and not another word!â
Melanie didnât argue. For once, there was nothing she wanted more than to be in their room, locked in and safe, and she didnât think she could eat now if she was expected to.
Somehow, she wasnât surprised when Jon, not even bothering to change into his pajamas, crawled under the bed. Melanie crawled in after him. It felt secure down there, and they snuggled together and clung and tried to stop shaking.
âThat was worse, right?â she finally asked. âItâs not just my imagination? That was worse than the boat.â
She felt rather than saw Jon nod. âThe boat wasâi-it was just us, and it wasâŚit just happened. Thatâthat book tried to take us, a-and AndrewâŚhe saved us.â
âHe was an idiot,â Melanie said, her voice watery. âHe took something that wasnât his and he fell into a trap andâhe didnât save us on purpose, Jon. He just took our place.â
âItâs not fair,â Jon murmured. âItâs not right.â
âBut it happened.â
âIt happened.â Jonâs voice was nearly a whisper.
They lay there silently for several minutes, relishing the fact that they were alive and together and safe, at least for now. Nothing could get to them. Melanie instinctively felt that Mister Spider would be full, at least for now, and that he wouldnât come after them anymore, but even if he did, he would have to get through the doors and Mrs Sims, and she was tough and chewy enough that she would probably slow him down enough for them to get away.
âWe should find out more,â Jon said finally. âNot now. But when we grow up. Maybe, maybe there are scientists or, or people like that who studyâŚscary things. Monsters and ghosts and whatnot. Maybe we can do something like that.â
Melanie turned the idea over in her mind. It made sense. âThen we can prevent other kids from getting hurt. Or other idiots like Andrew from getting taken away. Maybe if we know, we canâŚfix them. There are lots of doctors who can help people like Mummy, but if there were lots of people who knew what things like Mister Spider was, weâd hear about them, right?â
âRight.â Jon sighed and pressed his forehead against Melanieâs. âWe can find out when we get home if itâs a thing already or if we have to be the first ones, but we can do it. We can.â
âWe can,â Melanie agreed. âMaybe Andrew wonât be the last one ever, but weâll be the ones to make sure somebody else is.â
I wasnât gonna talk about it but one of my parents died the other day and the weirdest part has been not talking about it, specifically because they sucked and I kind of donât care and thatâs not a very hashtag relateable thing to bring up around the office so Iâm just walking around at work rn like ânah not much going on hbuâ
As a âdark humour is my coping mechanismâ person I would describe this feeling as âchildrenâs birthday clown with a flashbang grenadeâ and I gotta say, the deeply fucked up power is intoxicating
Each Sunday, post six sentences from a writing project â published, submitted, in progress, for your cat â whatever.
Melanie pressed forward. âIâm serious, Jon. This thing scares me. If you open it, I just know something bad is going to happen to you. It was talking to us in my dreams last night.â
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Spin the wheel again. Thatâs whoâs trying to protect you.
(If you have zero idea about a name you got, spin until you see someone you recognize.)
Are you safe?
Absolutely not. I'm dead. 100% dead.
I might stay alive, but it'll be a really close thing.
I'll take some hits, for certain, but I should be okay in the end.
A few attacks might get through, but nothing concerning.
The attacker might be able to get in one lucky hit. If that.
I am the opposite of worried. I'm 100% safe.
âŚLook. I've tried picturing this. But I honestly don't know how to answer.
Remaining time: 15 hours 15 minutes
(I've run this poll twice before, expanding it significantly for the second run. With about a year passed since that second run, I thought it was time to add another couple hundred names to the list and have another go.)
Fun Story: My director kept telling me and my tenor sax buddy to play softer. No matter what we did, it wasnât soft enough for him. So getting frustrated, I told my buddy âDont play this time. Just fake itâÂ
Our Band Director then informed us we sounded perfect.Â
Okay yeah so I play the bass clarinet and the amount of air you have to move and the stiffness of the reed means it only has two settings and that is loud and louder, with an optional LOUDEST that includes a 50% probability of HORRIBLE CROAKING NOISE which is the bass equivalent of the ubiquitous clarinet shriek.
One day, when I was in concert band in high school, we got a new piece handed out for the first time, and there was a strange little commotion back in the tuba section â whispering, and pointing at something in the music, and swatting at each otherâs hands all shhh donât call attention to it. And although they did attract the attention of basically everyone else in the band, they managed to avoid being noticed by the band director, who gave us a few minutes to look over our parts and then said, âAll right, letâs run through it up to section A.â
And here we are, cheerfully playing along, sounding reasonably competent â but everyone, when they have the attention to spare, is keeping an eye on the tuba players. They donât come in for the first eight measures or so, and then when they do come in, what we see is:
[stifled giggling]
[reeeeeeally deep breath]
[COLOSSAL FOGHORN NOISE]
The entire band stops dead, in the cacophonous kind of way that a band stops when it hasnât actually been cued to stop. The band director doesnât even say anything, just looks straight back at the tubas and makes a helpless sort of why gesture.
In unison, the tuba players defend themselves: âTHERE WERE FOUR FâS.â
FFFF is not really a rational dynamic marking for any instrument, but for the love of all that is holy why would you put it in a tuba part.
according to my german-born/speaking boyfriend:Â Above the eight fortes in that Fucik piece it says âNichts fuer Lauwarmduscherâ which is âthis is not for people who take lukewarm showersâ
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patience my brother (and patience my friend): a TMA fanfic
Read from the beginning on Tumblr || Also on AO3 and my website
Chapter 10: Bulletproof Cardboard
âHere!â Triumphantly, Melanie held up a long spar of wood, wide and flat at one end but narrower at the other. âItâs the perfect shape.â
Jon studied it with a critical eye, then nodded decisively. âItâs a good match, but itâs longer. Youâll have to be in the back.â
âYou mean you get to steer?â Melanie frowned. âNo fair. You be in the back.â
âSteering is in the back. The front just rows to help it move.â Jon wrinkled his nose to nudge his glasses back into place. âDo you want to steer or navigate?â
He could see Melanieâs indecision. On the one hand, she wanted to be the one to make them go where they needed to go, to be responsible for direction and distance alike. On the other handâŚhow often did she get to boss her brother around and not get fussed at? Not by Jon, mind you, who bossed her around just as much, but by the grown-ups who said she needed to be more ladylike. Mummy always said that meant quiet and complicit and told her to be as loud as she damn well liked, butâŚ
âYou canât see well enough without your glasses,â she said at last. âIâll navigate.â
âCan you see okay?â Jon countered. âYou donât have glasses, that doesnât mean you donât need them.â
âItâs close up stuff I have trouble with. I can see where weâre going.â Melanie pushed the plank towards Jon. âCome on. Weâre wasting time.â
They ran down the path to the sandy beach and the relatively untouched cove. They had always preferred this spot to the more crowded and judgmental parts of the beach anyway, and that also made it the perfect hiding place. Not for them, although they definitely wanted to hide from Grandmother Simsânot that Jon called her that if he could get away with it, since Melanie wasnât supposed to eitherâas often as possible. But ever since they had watched the television program and recognized some of the buildings in the town, theyâd been thinking about this. And then Jon had found the books the show was based on and worked things out, andâŚwell. The cove would be perfect, as long as nobody caught them.
Nobody had.
Melanie stabbed the long spar of wood into the sandâgently, so as not to break itânext to the one theyâd found earlier and grabbed one edge of the half rotten tarpaulin. Jon had had the forethought to bury the corners so the tarp didnât fly away, but it wouldnât be hard to pull up. âWeâre going now, right?â
âWe kind of have to.â Jon squinted up at the sky. It was a clear, clear blue, but he knew that didnât mean much. âYou know how fast the weather can change, and she got short with me when I tried to look at the report in the paper. I guess she wasnât finished.â
âShame she doesnât watch the news,â Melanie said bitterly. âJust her stories.â
Jon grabbed another edge of the tarp. âWell, if the treasure is still there, we can buy our own radio and listen to whatever we want, and if itâs not we can live there until itâs time to go home and it wonât matter anyway.â
âWonât she get mad?â
âSure sheâll get mad. But she has to find us first.â Jon dragged the tarp back. âCome on. You get in and Iâllââ
âNo way,â Melanie interrupted. âWeâre launching this together, remember? Toss the oars in and letâs go.â
Jon gave her a mock salute. âAye, aye, Captain.â
Melanie narrowed her eyes at him. He knew she didnât mean anything by it. âShut it, mate.â
Jon simply smiled, as innocently as he could. âFirst mate?â
âI hate you,â Melanie claimed. Jon, who knew better, just laughed.
They had argued, privately, over what to call the boat. It wasnât a proper rowboat, or even a real boat at all; neither of them knew how to properly make one. Jon had found directions, kind of, in a book from the library, but they werenât allowed to use a saw even if theyâd been able to find a barrel, and the book had been maddeningly vague on how the character had âfittedâ a half lid to make a keel anyway. (And also they were mice. Maybe it was different for people.) But then they had found an old, abandoned trunk in their explorations and been able to smuggle it to their cove before they âwanderedâ too far and had to be brought back by the policeânot that theyâd ever really gone that far, just that they sometimes got into places they werenât technically supposed to be. It had taken them a few days to get the vessel shipshape, but the last step had been finding wood to use as oars. The night before, theyâd managed to catch a few minutes of a movie being shown before being sent to bed, and the narrator had given their boat a name that was perfect.
âRight,â Jon announced, tossing the two pieces of wood into the boat. âQuick, before someone sees us. All aboard the SS Toy Box.â
Melanie grabbed the side of the box in front; Jon grabbed the opposite corner in the back, and together they ran into the gentle surf. Once they were in it up to their knees, Melanie jumped over the side like they always did in the pictures, and it worked. Jon jumped in on the other side. The boat dipped a little bit below the waterâs surface with their combined weight, but it stayed floating.
âYes!â Melanie pumped her fists triumphantly in the air, then picked up the shorter oar. âShe floats! Next stop, Kirrin Island!â
They made awkward, stuttering progress at first, until Jon started singing one of the songs theyâd learned in school over the last year, one of the ones their new music teacher called a call and response song that were meant to teach them how to sing in parts. Melanie sang the echoes back to him and, just as heâd hoped, she started pulling in time with the singing. Jon reckoned it would do better than calling âstrokeâ like the rowing team at the university did. It also meant they got some good speed going. That was especially good, because the further out they got, the less likely they were to be caught.
They couldnât see their destination from here. Obviously they couldnât. Their science teacher had told them that, all other things being equal, a human being could only see about three miles away, to the edge of the horizon, andâby Jonâs calculations, which might be a bit offâthey were closer to ten miles away. It was going to take them most of the day to get there, but it would be worth it.
Kirrin Island. Technically it belonged to the Kirrin familyâspecifically to George Kirrin by now, or so Jon supposed, since heâd deciphered (with some help) the date at the front of the book. That is, if the people in the books were real. Of course both Jon and Melanie had long ago outgrown the idea that just because a thing was written down meant it was true, and there were lots of stories told to try and explain real things that nobody actually knew anything about. There could very easily be no such person as George Kirrin, or any such place as Kirrin Cottage.
The island, now, that had to truly exist. One couldnât just invent land masses that werenât really there. Maybe it wasnât called Kirrin Island at all, but it had to be there.
Right?
âTen points to starboard,â Melanie called over her shoulder.
âYou donât know what points are,â Jon argued, even as he dragged his paddle backwards to make the boat turn right.
âDo, too,â Melanie shot back. âItâs the little lines on the compass. Ten points is turning ten of those.â
âDid you bring a compass?â
âShut up.â
Jon reckoned they had turned enough and resumed paddling forward. âAnyway, those are degrees.â
Melanie scowled over her shoulder and missed a stroke, then hastily returned her gaze forward. âTheyâre the same thing.â
âAre not.â
âAre too.â
âAre not.â
âAre too.â
The argument quickly dissolved into silliness and giggling as it dawned on both of them that their chanting was fulfilling the same role as the singing had earlier in keeping them on stroke. Jon was glad of that, as it kept him from having to admit that Melanie might just possibly be right. He would have to look it up when he got home.
The waves were smooth as glass and the sky was utterly cloudless, and except for a very, very faint difference in the color you almost couldnât tell where one ended and the other began if you were looking straight ahead. At least Jon couldnât. He trusted that Melanie either could or would know where they were navigating to. They had a map, not a very good one since theyâd drawn it themselves based on the map in the library and a whole lot of guessworkâfor some reason it stopped before it got to Kirrin Island. Still, it ought to be enough, and Melanie ought to be able to follow it.
Then again, maybe they should have brought a compass, too.
The sun beat down on their shoulders. It had rained very early that morning, but the storm had long passed, so they ought to be fine, at least for the moment. Jon didnât smell rain, although it was hard to smell anything other than the salt of the English Channel. Anyway, he wasnât worried about them getting lost. They would have to lose sight of the shore in order to reach the island, he thought, and even if they missed it, well, the Channel was at its second narrowest point here. They would just hit France. He didnât really speak French, but they could learn, and anyway that would make it harder for her to find them.
Jon let his mind wander a bit, even as he kept up the are-not, are-too chant. He wished the judge hadnât been so nice to Grandmother Sims when theyâd gone to court and said she was allowed to see him. Thank goodness Melanie got to come with him. There had been a bit of fuss about that, but heâd insisted when they were setting everything up that he wouldnât go without his sister and the judge had agreed with him, which was good. Grandmother Sims disagreed, clearly, but she hadnât been able to argue. Sheâd tried, saying she only had one bedroom on the ground floor and she hadnât used the upstairs since her husband died, but she did technically have those rooms, and since Jon and Melanie shared a room at home the judge had said it would be all right if they shared one anyway. Even Grandmother Simsâ barrister had agreed.
There were rules. Too many rules. Of course some rules were good if they kept you safe, but it was silly that they werenât allowed to shut the bedroom door. And her insistence that children should be seen but not heard sounded a whole lot like be more ladylike and neither of them were good at that. She never wanted to hear what theyâd been up to all day long, very rarely asked about anything at all other than quizzing them on what they were learning in school. Dinnertime discussions largely centered around correcting their mannersâwhich werenât that badâor comparing Jon to Papa, often unfavorably. All his undesirable traitsâat least undesirable to her, since Jon didnât see what was so bad about, for example, not wanting his food to mix togetherâcame from Mama, which was silly, because some of them were just how he liked doing things and some of them were things heâd been taught by Mummy or Daddy.
He didnât like other things about being at Grandmother Simsâ, either. Like the fact that she didnât want them speaking anything but âthe Queenâs Englishâ, which didnât just mean using proper grammar and dictionâor what she thought was proper, anywayâbut also meant they werenât allowed to practice their Cantonese where she could hear them.
Well, no more of that. Once they got to the island, they could talk how they liked all the time, and she couldnât stop them. And then it would be time to go home and they would be safe.
He glanced back over his shoulder. The cove was out of sight, which heâd kind of expected since they had turned. What he hadnât expected was that the shoreline would have vanished, too. He didnât think they had been rowing that long, but they must have, mustnât they? To have lost sight of the shore on the horizon, they had to have gone at least three miles.
He was just about opening his mouth to ask Melanie how far she reckoned they had gone and if she reckoned they were getting close when the first wave hit.
It came out of nowhere. One minute the water was still as midnight, and the next a wave taller than Jon crashed against the side of the boat, shoving them to one side. Jon only just managed to keep from overbalancing. He straightened quickly. âWhat was that?â
âDunno,â Melanie called over her shoulder. âMaybe another boat?â
âWe should have seen it coming,â Jon argued. âThe wave, I mean.â
Melanie scowled over her shoulder. âIâm watching where weâre going. You look for waves.â
âNo, I meanââ Jon began. Before he could finish his sentence, a second wave slammed into them from the other side.
Thatâwasnât right. It wasnât how waves were supposed to work. They came from one direction, and they didnât start out of nowhere like that. Unless there was some kind of underwater volcano or an explosion of some kind, but even thenâ
He shook his head and pushed the oar on the side of the boat opposite the wave, to try and keep them upright. âKeep paddling! If we go alongside them, we can make it,â he shouted to Melanie.
âKeep us on course then,â Melanie yelled back, digging her paddle deep into the water.
Jon ducked his head and did the same, concentrating as hard as he could. The waves had come from almost exactly opposite one another, so it shouldnât be hard to keep them in a straight line. As long as they didnât panic, as long as they just kept their speedâ
The sudden shadow falling over them was all the warning they got. Jon looked up sharply and felt his blood run cold at the sight of a gigantic pair of waves, easily twelve feet high, suddenly rising up on either side of the boat, curling over like greedy, grasping claws.
In that split second, he knew they wouldnât be able to row fast enough to escape.
Jon and Melanie both screamed as the waves crashed down. Jon didnât know what possessed him, but he swung upward with his paddle, as if he could bat the wave away before it touched them. It seemed to almost snatch the paddle from his hands and toss it away before it, and its companion, slammed into the boat and ripped it apart, sending them both crashing into the water.
The shock of the cold water stunned him and stole the air from his lungs. It also pushed him down far faster than he had expected. Jon flailed, trying to right himself, but he found himself tumbling as he went, thoroughly disorientated. He couldnât tell which way he was facing. His glassesâsomehowâwere still on his face, but when he opened his eyes, all he could see was blue. Some distant part of his mind told him that wasnât right, that sunlight shouldnât penetrate this far and he shouldnât be able to see blue, but that was quickly swallowed up by panic and the fact that he couldnât breathe.
Melanie. Where was Melanie?
Jonâs panic kicked into higher gear. On the one hand, he didnât want Melanie to dieâbut on the other hand, they were always together. Always. Sheâd insisted she wouldnât go without him and vice versa. He couldnât lose her. He couldnât.
He stared around himself frantically, but there was nothing but blue, blue, blue everywhere he looked, a uniform, solid blue that meant he couldnât even tell where the sunlight might be coming from, he didnât know where he was, which way was up? Where had up gone?
âMelanie!â he screamed, or tried to. All that came out were bubbles. He frantically watched, trying to see which way they wentâbut they didnât go, they just hung in front of his face for a second and then became part of the endless blue. That didnât make sense. It wasnât right. There had to be an up, air had to go somewhere, bubbles had to float, where was Melanie, he couldnât lose her, couldnât let her die without him, couldnât die without herâ
He shot out his hand, encountered something, and grabbed onto it hard. It was solid and soft and at first it was cold, too cold, but then it warmed up and clutched him back and he knew, he knew it was his sisterâs hand, would know it anywhere. Just to be sure, he squeezed three times in a row, one two three, and the hand he was clinging to repeated the gesture back. He gasped in relief and swallowed salt but the bubbles went up, and he kicked his legs and followed themâ
âand broke the surface with a great shuddering gasp, and oh, thank God, Melanieâs head broke the surface next to him, gasping and sobbing and frantically fighting to keep her head above water, too.
âMelanie?â Jon cried, just to make sure. The waves were choppier than they had been and he got a mouthful of seawater, but he tipped his head back.
âJon,â Melanie wailed. She slipped under the surface briefly, and he almost panicked before she resurfaced, still clutching his hand.
âThere they are!â a faint voice cried, and Jon turned just in time to see an orange ring flying towards them. It landed in the water next to them with a dull thwap, and Jon saw that there were black straps all around the outside edge of it. He grabbed hold of one with his free hand; Melanie did the same, but neither was willing to relinquish the otherâs hand to get a better grip.
Luckily, they didnât need one, and a few moments later, they were hauled dripping and coughing in the crisp white boat belonging to the Bournemouth Police Department. The second his knees touched the plasticine seat, Jon lunged forward and threw his arms around Melanie, hugging her tight.
Melanie did the same.
âYou two got yourselves in quite a pickle this time,â PC Poppers, one of the officers Grandmother Sims often sent after them, said in a kindly voice. âLucky for you someone spotted you. Be more careful playing in boxes around the ocean, aye? Easy for an unexpected tide to sweep you out to sea.â
Jon didnât need to look at Melanieâs face to know that they were going to keep mum about that one. If anyone found out theyâd done it on purpose it would be sure to get back to Grandmother Sims and theyâd be in even worse trouble than they were sure to be this time. Not that it ever seemed to matter that they didnât usually stray far on purpose, but maybe if PC Poppers told her it was an accident theyâd be in less trouble.
âSorry, sir,â he mumbled.
PC Poppers patted his head, then Melanieâs. âThere, there. No real harm done. Weâll get you two home and dry in no time.â
Jon shivered, and didnât argue, not out loud. No real point in saying that Grandmother Simsâ house wasnât home. Nor did he want to admit that part of him wondered if he would ever feel dry again. His cheeks and eyes stung with salt water, and he honestly couldnât say what was ocean and what was tears.
Something about the way she kept clinging to him, and to the towel draped around them both, told him Melanie might be feeling the same way.
thinking about how fucking bitter jon was towards leitner in mag 80. like itâs not just the fact that leitnerâs the one who ruined his life, itâs also how both of them were in positions of power and were spared while their assistants suffered. jon regrets itâregrets it all, even though he was the cause of some of that suffering. jon, who didnât trust his assistants and didnât want them to be around him, still didnât want to lose them. he wanted them to be safe. but leitner doesnât give a shit. leitner talks about his assistants like tools to be discarded instead of people who had lives to live that were tragically cut short. he doesnât care at all. and i think jon hated that. jon regrets everything and is so deeply sorry to his assistants, and yet here leitner is, with decades to think about these events and still not regretting a damn thing. like no wonder jon hated his ass
and then think about in mag 111, where jon meets gerry and gerry is talking about the time he thought he found leitner but realized it was just some pathetic old man and jon just. doesn't correct him. doesn't tell him he was right about it being leitner and about him being a pathetic old man. because jon and gerry both hated leitner from childhood, for very different reasons. and they both met him and discovered that the big bad bogeyman they'd worked up in their heads for years was just a pompous pathetic windbag who made bad choices and didn't care about the consequences to anyone but himself. and jon. jon who has been told repeatedly that the people he claims to care about are disposable and refuses to believe that or treat them that way. jon who has already lost so much and is already so afraid. jon lets gerry believe that jurgen leitner is more impressive than he was. because he's afraid of hearing that he's wrong to still hate him for what he did even if he didn't seem to enjoy it.
the fact that people prefer to read and write in english rather than their native language should actually be seen as a crisis im not joking this is not a good thing
Fakt, Ĺźe ludzie wolÄ czytaÄ i pisaÄ po angielsku, zamiast w swoim jÄzyku ojczystym powinien byÄ postrzegany jako kryzys, nie ĹźartujÄ, to nie jest dobra sprawa
die feit dat mense dit verkies om in engels te lees en skryf, eerder as hul moedertaal, behoort eintlik as 'n krisis beskou te word, ek maak nie 'n grap nie hierdie is nie 'n goeie ding nie
dylai'r ffaith bod well gan bobl ddarllen ac ysgrifennu yn saesneg yn hytrach na'u mamiaith gael ei weld fel argyfwng dwi ddim yn jocian dydy hyn ddim yn beth da
patience my brother (and patience my friend): a TMA fanfic
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Chapter 9: The Professional Twilight
Mrs Hough surprised them after they came in from the schoolyard with a chocolate cake, and the whole class sang the Happy Birthday song. Jon understood why they put his name firstâhappy birthday, Jon and Melanie fit the rhythm better than happy birthday, Melanie and Jonâbut it still didnât quite feel fair. Melanie told him to stop being silly and enjoy the cake.
He thought it was good that she knew him so well he didnât even have to say anything before she guessed what he was thinking.
Most of their classmates still got picked up or walked home by their parents, but Jon and Melanie had proved over and over that they knew the way and knew how to be careful, so this term they were allowed to walk home on their own. They waved a cheery goodbye to Mrs Houghâand Miss Goldman, who was waiting on the pickup line with her classâand held hands as they walked to the end of the block.
Once they had turned the corner and were definitely out of sight, Melanie turned to Jon with a challenging glint in her eye. âBetter hope your bag is zipped today.â
âBetter hope your skirt stays fastened,â Jon countered. He matched her smirk. âLast one thereâs a wretched weasel.â
âThat doesnât start with a W,â Melanie protested.
âDoes too. W-R-E-T-C-H-E-D. Daddy spelled it for me.â Jon tilted his chin defiantly at Melanie. âItâs like âwriteâ and âwrongâ, itâs got a silent W.â
She huffed. âFine. Wretched weasels it is. Ready, steady, go!â
She took off running before she actually finished saying the last word, but Jon was expecting that and took off at the same time. They hurtled pell-mell down the street, bags bumping against their backs, skipping over cracks and dodging around those few other people who were out walking. Melanieâs hair ribbons had come loose and Jon was pretty sure his shoe was untied, but neither of them slowed for a minute. They ought to have, of course, Miss Goldman and Mrs Hough and their parents had impressed on them the importance of looking both ways before crossing the road, and that had been one of the conditions of their being permitted to walk themselves home. They also had been explicitly told not to run like this after Jonâs homework folder had gone flying and Melanie had torn her knees tripping in an attempt to catch her skirt from falling down, but theyâd secretly agreed that what the grown ups didnât know wouldnât hurt anyone. And so, giggling and breathless and still managing to tease one another, they pounded along the pavement until they got to the shortcut.
Mummy had fussed a bit about this, too, even before they were walking themselves, but this part was all right; Mr Fister had told Daddy that the footpath was an ancient right of way and there was an understandingâheâd called it a tacit agreement, and Jon had made him spell it three times to be sure it stuck in his mindâthat anyone could use it at any time as long as they werenât committing a crime, and since Mr Fister was generally agreed to be two years older than God and had moved to Woodley on the day He invented dirt, if he said a thing was true it was understood to be correct. Here, too, stones had been laid down as a kind of footpath, stones that were constantly being replaced and retrod as spring mud and the passage of feet pushed the old ones deeper. Since the planting season had just started, this yearâs stones hadnât been placed yet, so it was still a bit muddy and half the stones were completely sunk. Melanie, as was her habit, hopped from stone to stone trying to only touch the clean parts, not because she cared about her shoes but because that was the game. Jonâs challenge was to only touch every other stone, which was harder this time of year when so many of them couldnât be seen, since it meant he sometimes had to jump pretty far. When Daddy took the shortcut with them, he always had to do it on one foot like a pogo stick; Mummy didnât play those sorts of games herself, but she was usually pretty tolerant of theirs. (Jon liked that word, tolerant. It was a grown up word for be kind and polite to one another even if you donât understand why the other person does it that way and took a lot less time to say, and Mrs Hough had agreed when he told her that and taught it to the whole class and it had been their Word of the Month, which was fun even ifâmaybe especially becauseâMrs Hough hadnât let him suggest the word after that but asked other people to suggest good words. It meant Jon got to learn new words too and didnât have to be the one teaching them all the time, and it meant the other kids in the class knew how to use the grown up words and didnât tease him so much for using them himself.)
Just because they were racing didnât meant they didnât have to follow those rules (yes, they had been told not to race, but that was an order, not a rule, so it was fine), but they had both been doing it long enough that they could do it at speed. Melanie shrieked with mingled annoyance and excitement when Jon careened into her trying to jump over a stone she was standing on, grabbed him to steady herself, and overbalanced, sending them both toppling off the path and into the nearest furrow, plowed but not yet planted. Jon managed to twist to keep from losing his glasses or spattering them with mud. The rest of him didnât fare so well.
He didnât care. He rolled off of Melanie and pushed himself to his feet, jumping back to his stone, then grabbed Melanieâs hand and pulled her up before taking off down the path again.
âHey, no fair!â Melanie called, but she was laughing as she chased after him.
From the other side of the shortcut it was only a couple of blocks and then a sharp turn almost doubling back on itself and home was right there. Jon, for onceâhe refused to think the fall had anything to do with it, heâd almost been ahead of her before that point anywayâwas just a little in front of Melanie as they tore down the sidewalk. He glanced over his shoulder, giggling, dodged around the Babashaniansâ rubbish bin, swung around the cornerâ
âHello, Jon.â
Jon pulled up abruptly. Melanie nearly crashed into him this time, but managed to skid to a halt just in time. Standing between them and the gate over their front path was a man who looked almost exactly like Sir Topham Hatt brought to life save that, rather than being completely bald, there were wisps of steel grey hair curling out from beneath his black silk hat. His eyes, which were almost the same color, were cold and calculating, and the smile on his lips didnât touch them.
And Jon, who knew everyone in town by name, house, and shoe size, had never seen him before in his life.
âApologies for the interception,â the strange man continued, âbut I had to be certain you would stop and speak with me, so I thought it best not to call attention to myself.â He ran an eye over Jon and added, âYou ought to be more careful, you know. It would be a dreadful shame if anything happened to you because you werenâtâŚwatching.â
Jon took a half step backwards, doing his best to stay between this man and Melanie. He didnât trust him for a minute. Melanie, of course, was quite often hard to convince that she needed him to protect her and would stand shoulder to shoulder with him against any threats. This time, she not only got up next to him, she tried to push in front of him to keep between him and the man.
âWho are you?â she demanded. âWhat do you want?â
âAh, you must be Melanie.â The strange manâs smile widened in a way that was clearly meant to be even friendlier and more welcoming but, to Jon, only seemed even more dangerous. âIâve heard so much about you. You two care for each other very much, do you not? And to answer your question, whyâŚâ He produced from a pocket a small, rectangular box wrapped neatly in shiny gold paper and tied round with a green ribbon done up in an elaborate bow. âIâm Jonâs grandfather, and Iâm here to give him a present for his birthday.â
Fear took hold of Jonâs stomach and twisted it like a clown fashioning a balloon animal. In the first place, the last time heâd encountered someone informing him they were his grandparent, it had been someone who wanted very much to take him away from his family. In the second place, anyone talking about it being his birthday wasnât somebody who knew or cared about him, because everyone who loved him loved Melanie too and it was their birthday, thank you. That was kind of how being twins worked. Third and most importantly, they didnât have any grandfathers anymore. Grandfather Sims had died not long after they were born, Grandpa King had died just before their first birthday, and even if both of Mummyâs parents hadnât died before she even met Daddy, this man was definitely not Chinese. In fact, he looked like the kind of person who only didnât use words like the one Scott had hurled at them on their first day of school because that wasnât refined.
Blindly, he groped beside him for Melanieâs hand. She grabbed it tight, the security a comfort. He could feel that she was just as scared as him of this strange man who knew their names. Melanie usually got angry when she was scared, and since Jon didnât want her to fight him, he spoke up in as steady a voice as he could. âIâI donât have a grandfather.â
âOf course you do,â the man said soothingly. It gave Jon an unpleasant, sticky feeling that he didnât like. âIâm only sorry it took me so long to find you. I wasâŚunaware that your mother existed, Iâm afraid, and of course by the time I learned that she was already gone. I thought her husband and only child were gone as well, but then I learned about you. I wanted to know everything about you before I approached. To be sure that you wouldâŚtruly appreciate this.â
He held out the present again. âItâs yours, Jonathan. Take it.â
Jon didnât want to. He didnât. But he found himself responding to the authority in the order, reaching out with trembling handsâeven pulling his hand free of Melanieâsâto accept the box. It felt cool and strangely heavy for its size.
The man smiled. âWell? Donât you want to see whatâs inside of it?â
âHey!â
Mummyâs voice shattered the fog that had tried to close around Jonâs mind. He jerked sideways, stumbling into Melanie, and looked up guiltily as Mummy strode towards the gate, a frown on her face. It wasnât directed at him, though. âExcuse me, who the hell are you?â
âIâm Jonâs grandfather,â the man repeated.
Somehow, Mummy got out the gate and between Jon and the strange man. âLike hell you are.â
âI assure you, I am. I am his motherâs fatherââ
âIâm his mother,â Mummy interrupted firmly. âAnd my father is dead. So is my husbandâs. We donât know you and we do not appreciate you hanging around bothering us, so get away from my children and stay off our property.â Without turning away from the man, but still clearly talking to Jon and Melanie, she added, âGet on inside now and out of those dirty clothes. Lucky for you itâs laundry day.â
Melanie grabbed Jonâs wrist and practically dragged him through the gate. Jon wasnât willing to take his eyes off the man, either, for fear of what he might do. The manâs eyes and that cold, pale smile followed him all the way up the path and through the door until Melanie let it shut behind them, effectively cutting them off.
Jon wilted. âThanks, Melanie.â
âOf course.â Melanie scowled at the present. âWhyâd you take that?â
âIâI donât know. I just felt like I had to.â Jon stared at the present, too, then shook his head. âIâm not going to open it, though.â
Decisively, he opened up one of the cupboards in the sideboard that they never used, then shoved the present inside it and shut it firmly. âThere. Now it wonât bother us.â
Melanie eyed the sideboard a little uneasily. âWhat do you think was in it?â
Jon shrugged. âI donât know. And I donât care. Come on, letâs go get cleaned up before Mummy comes back in.â
He dragged Melanie towards the bedroom and changed the subject, chattering about the party they were going to have tomorrow. She took the hook, or at least let him think she was taking it, and at least pretended to forget about the present. Jon was glad. It meant he didnât have to admit to herâyetâthat while the first part had been true, the second part definitely wasnât.
He did care. For right now, though, he was more afraid than curious.
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old lady came up to my register and she smelled so strongly of weed. Granny were you hotboxing your car before you went to the grocy store. if so i hope you have a lovely day