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Fatal and scoundrels are my favorite songs of all time. The emotions of burnout and failure, flaws, and high expectations I see in those songs pulse through my soul as the days count down to another year of school and burnout.

When the world is scary music can be calming. In Foxholes the line "I wonder if it's fun to be emotionally bankrupt" stands out in a song about anxiety and stagefright. The line asks if it's fun to be a bad person and not care about the consequences of your actions, it can also be taken tho I'm stretching the meaning a bit, to not have to constantly worry about every detail and action like someone with an anxiety disorder might deal with lining up with the songs overall themes of anxiety. You could also read the line as an intrusive thought asking what would happen if those thoughts would win, if it would be fun even tho those thoughts can never be fun because those thoughts are dark worst case scenarios that arent a proper reflection of ones character just a smoke n mirrors. The fact I hate those thoughts are the biggest sign they aren't me. In scum the most memorable part of the song goes "I'm scum I'm waste I'm what you want" a person wanting the singer to be a.flawed morally, and a bad person or b.feel worthless and bad potentially being used by the person wanting them to be bad to abuse/malinulate them c.just not have control, not be able to fight back. I opened Spotify to use music to calm myself and those 2 songs were the first ones to play and those lyrics hit extra hard in the moment.

alphabet (WASTED SUMMER) thoughts Not a full on analysis tho I should do that sometime but I think wasted summer is about wasting a relationship, wasting the time spent on it knowing its gonna end horribly. I always thought the title of alphabet was in refence to the tech company but apparently its referring to the song structure according to Wilbur. I can still get something out of that analysis even if its not intentional but I found that noteful.

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