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(these are in no particular order, and feature a range of topics, ratings, lengths, and possible warnings. as with any rec, please be sure to also double check for any triggers yourself before reading. however, I will not rec MCD and very rarely unhappy endings.

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🏒 FROM THE COLD by stammiviktor

⤷ rating + length: T+, 6k

⤷ summary:

It’s winter in Ottawa and Ilya has hunkered down in his big, empty mansion to weather a nasty flu. Then his phone buzzes. — Guardian™ Security Alert: Movement detected at front door — (1) Missed Call: Yuna Hollander Or: The Hollanders have a new son to take care of. Ilya has no idea what’s going on.

⤷ notes + warnings:

(as will probably rapidly become clear throughout this list) I have been absorbing ilya comfort and found family fics into my veins. this is one of the first ilya-centric ones I read and it was so so good!

🏒 LAST ONE TO LEAVE THE BLEACHERS EVERY TIME by anonymous

⤷ rating + length: G, 4k

⤷ summary:

They’d considered it—Shane being gay. It’d been an option. But Ilya Rozanov and the way Shane looks at him like he’s the love of his life has blindsided them. Blindsided both of them, and there’s almost nothing Yuna likes less than being blindsided.  She’s not mad, David wants to say. We’re so proud of you. We’re so happy for you. We just didn’t know.  Somehow we missed it, you falling in love. or, what David Hollander and Ilya Rozanov talk about while Shane and Yuna are outside in episode six.

⤷ notes + warnings:

this is another niche trope that I've been loving reading everyone's takes on. this one I enjoyed specifically because the relationship between shane and ilya is depicted in such a spot-on and succinct way in literally like. less than 200 words before we even get to the david and ilya bonding. I'm also a sucker for an outsider pov and I love david hollander and his inner monologue hit me right in the daddy issues which was also great. LOVED!

🏒 FREE REIN by eleadore

⤷ rating + length: E, 18k

⤷ summary:

"Stop asking me if it's okay. If I want it. You're always, like—whatever. I'm not one of your fucking girls, okay? If I don't like it, I'll stop you. I can make you stop."

⤷ notes + warnings:

listen. everybody neglect your real life obligations and read this immediately. I'm not joking. I'll be the first one to admit that cnc is not typically my jam, but I swear this fic had cocaine in it. I read it last night all in one go at like 4am and I haven't stopped thinking about it since. this might be my favorite ilya pov I have ever read. it feels so authentic and every single sentence is just so sharp and thoughtful and so ilya. the prose, the introspection, the ties and divergences from canon, the smut (obviously) was all delicious. will reread 10000 times.

🏒 I'LL FOLLOW WHERE YOUR LIGHT GOES by countdracilya

⤷ rating + length: T+, 5k

⤷ summary:

Shane’s heart drops into his stomach. “Ilya,” he breathes. His vision goes blurry, throat tight. He tries to swallow it down and focus, shove his swirling thoughts into a neat little box, but it’s impossible. He feels—he might throw up, actually. “Are you seriously telling me you tried to fucking kill yourself?” “Yes,” Ilya agrees blandly, “It did not work.” [Ilya calls Shane from the hospital. Shane handles it very normally.]

⤷ notes + warnings:

OBLIGATORY CONTENT WARNING FOR ILYA'S DEPRESSION / DISCUSSION OF PAST UNSUCCESSFUL SUICIDE ATTEMPT. please check tags and read notes! that said, as someone who also has personal triggers with this topic from time to time, I fucking loved this fic so much. the characterization, the dialogue, the shift in their relationship to reflect the divergence from canon, the ILYA COMFORT was so fucking good. the topic is heavy but this fic still felt like a warm hug. which is like. an all time favorite genre of fic for me. this gets a million roses. also looking forward to reading more of this author's works because a lot of them look right up my alley!

🏒 FOLLOW ME DOWN by vividblossom (dirtymudblood)

⤷ rating + length: E, 16k

⤷ summary:

“My fucking god, Hollander, you talk so much,” Rozanov says and Shane clenches his jaw. "I am not trying to set you up with Dom friend!” “What then? You came to rub it in or–” Rozanov throws his hands up in defeat and snaps, “Am trying to say; Hollander, I am Dom and I will Play with you, but you talk so fucking much I can not say this!” Shane freezes. There’s no laughter now. His stomach swoops and plummets. “That’s not funny.” “Do I look like I am laughing, Hollander? Am serious.”

⤷ notes + warnings:

it would not be a rec from me if there was not some bio d/s in it. it's also part of a collection (YAY!) I've only read the first part so far which is the one I'm reccing, but I thoroughly enjoyed it and can't wait to get to the others! the word building was great, I loved the choice of setting and the deviation of their relationship timeline from canon, and both shane and ilya are written with so much care.

🏒 UNLEARN HOW TO UNLOVE by doctoralhashimi

⤷ rating + length: G, 1k

⤷ summary:

The moment Yuna rises from her seat, Ilya knows Shane is going to follow. He is good, his Shane. A good hockey player; a good partner; a good son. A good person. On his best day, Ilya might consider himself to be one of those things. It's purely quantitative; he has the accolades to prove it. But today is far from his best day, so when Shane grabs the grey cashmere sweater draped like a shroud around Yuna's vacated chair and leaves Ilya with David peering blankly at him across the table, he braces for a storm.

⤷ notes + warnings:

another one for the Ilya-and-david during episode six folder. this one is short and sweet but it packs such an expected punch too, and the prose is sooooo lovely. ilya's pov this time, so we get all of the inner child angst feels. (also the quotes at the beginning.... I knew I was going to suffer (/pos))

🏒 SEEING STARS by thathastu

⤷ rating + length: E, 5k

⤷ summary:

"Quiet, I'm trying to say something." Shane waits. Ilya says nothing, but taps the side of Shane's head, as if prompting. "Okay. Well. I think… I think I kind of liked it?" Ilya continues to not say anything for a long moment, and then he grabs Shane's face and peers down at him. "Did you get new concussion while I was not looking?" he asks, brow furrowed. The genuine concern in his eyes makes Shane bristle. "Did you not see glass and run into the window like dumb bird?" "Fuck off," Shane sighs, rolling his eyes. "I'm being serious." "So am I!" Ilya insists with real worry. "Either your old concussion is not gone and it is making you say things, or you got new concussion 'cause you liked it so much! And both is very bad!" [Or; Shane discovers that he sometimes needs to get literally knocked out of his own head for some much needed peace and quiet. Ilya has never pulled his punches, and he doesn't intend to start now.]

⤷ notes + warnings:

I loveeeeee a kink realization + exploration fic, especially with characters who have backgrounds and occupations that lend themselves to some of the kinks that are less commonly written about. severely underrated fic imo, both in terms of characterization, kink, and the intersection and introspection between the two.

🏒 DUST BOWL by thathastu

⤷ rating + length: E, 28k

⤷ summary:

"You should grow this longer," Rozanov once said, running his fingers through Shane's practical cut, the same one he had since he was fifteen. Rozanov's blond curls had fallen in his eyes. Behind them, his blue eyes glittered like he was looking at the sun. "You would be so lovely." It felt like being lit on fire. Or; Shane is Rozanov's girl.

⤷ notes + warnings:

listen. LISTEN. I'm fucking biting my fist over this fic. I have NOT read enough trans!shane fics (or ilya really) *YET* but this one was just as tender, articulate, devastating and beautiful as I would have expected from this fandom. I could chew on it for days it was so good.

🏒 YOU GET ME by some1_around

⤷ rating + length: E, 10k

⤷ summary:

Shane loves yoga. It has always been an escape for him—an escape from his body and his mind. When a bunch of other NHL players interrupt him in a hotel gym during a conference, he is not surprised when they make fun of him, but he is surprised when Ilya asks him to teach them a few poses and they all go along with it. He gets to show off his flexibility, and it seems harmless enough to show off a little extra for Ilya, until- “Holy shit, Hollander, wait—can you suck your own cock?”

⤷ notes + warnings:

I can't be normal about this fic at all autofellatio isn't like. one of my go-to's in terms of what I like to read, but holy shit. this is by far the hottest iteration I have EVER read of it before. what the fuck. it's been a week since I read this and I'm still reeling. in fact...... maybe it's time for a reread. IT'S SO GOOD.

🏒 BY HALVES by tmp93

⤷ rating + length: T+, 16k

⤷ summary:

She’d never say anything, of course, because she could be wrong. In fact, most days Yuna was certain she was wrong. Shane had only ever dated girls, and had never shown any outright signs of liking… anything else. But that didn’t stop her from wondering, occasionally, whether her son was entirely straight. But the last hour or so had certainly put paid to that suspicion. Because Shane was receiving a frankly alarming number of texts from someone named ‘Lily’. [Or: Yuna and David meet Ilya Rozanov at the hospital after Shane’s injury.]

⤷ notes + warnings:

read this as my bedtime story one night and it was so soft and sweet and I just LOVE the premise of ilya coming to the hospital to see shane and all the different ways that could play out. also love yuna and david finding out, and ilya being like fuck it when it comes to being open about his feelings. and we get another outsider (yuna) pov!!! which is always fun!