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“I mean, as long as it’s crazies like me and not some other one. This is Westport, after all, which means you never know who’s walking through your door. And plus, I get jealous.” As playful as she was being, it was true though. You never knew in a town like this. “No no, everything is fine. I just wanted to let you know about this audition I was asked to come in for.... in L.A.” 

It did sound like a good plan. It had when they were younger and still rang true today. A lot of the time, people thought they were ridiculous back in the day. Their parents, parents of friends and even random strangers thought they were crazy to think that high school love lasted forever. She could remember taking him to a few premieres of small movies she did back then and how all the interviewers had something to say. Small gossip websites constantly talking about them and their picture being thrown up in Soap Opera’s Digest. It was a lot, given their age, but even with Olivia being in the spotlight and constantly feeling like everything was going to go wrong, she tried to remain positive. And though things did fall apart, it wasn’t because they stopped loving one another. In fact, quite the opposite. She just loved him too much and at that age, she wasn’t sure how to handle it. All that had changed now and she was able to accept where her life was going. Able to accept that loving Leon was just apart of her and she was going to have to learn to live with the fear of possibly losing him. Because truthfully, that feeling of fear wasn’t nearly as powerful as the feeling of knowing she’d get to be with him every day for as long as he wanted her. “I’m glad you agree. Because I plan on making a habit of this. It’s going to happen every single day.” And maybe that was a bit fast, but it wasn’t as if they had to go through all those stages again. They had been there already and there was no use redoing it. So she let things go at whatever speed felt right. She didn’t want to think about it. Instead, she was going to let it happen. Like now, when he had pushed her onto her back and was now lying beneath him on the tour bus couch. She continued to converge her lips with his—pushing against them hard and fast, only to speed up as he managed to sneak out a few words. Hearing that she was still the one person he loved more than anyone and that no one compared to what they had, only intensified the feeling of euphoria. She hadn’t really thought about anyone that came after her, but she was happy to know that any other girl Leon had been with, didn’t matter as much as she did. It was the same with her, honestly. No one held a candle to him. “Good, we’re gonna keep it that way.” She teased, letting her hands roam down his body before reaching the base of his jeans. By now, she didn’t even waste time. There was no hesitation. “Hopefully no one walks in... I didn’t lock the door.” Mischevious laughter hummed through their tied up lips before she unbuttoned his pants and slipped her hand inside—making her way straight for his length.

It was crazy to think she was so willing to jump into this when still to this day, she had a huge fear of losing those she loved. It happened far too frequently for her to not be scared or hesitant. And while curses were obviously not real, that’s what it felt like. Everyone in her family had lost so many people they loved and cared for, so it was difficult to look past the explanation of them just never ending up happy. But she was so caught up in the intoxication of his life that Olivia was able to push aside her fears and just let go. She had lived one too many years without him by her side and she was done living that way. Done depriving her of the one thing she wanted most out of life and that one thing was him. His promise to her made her heart skip a beat and while she was nervous to accept it, she couldn’t help but do just that. She’d be an idiot to walk away from this now. Especially considering this sort of love was something people dreamt about. The chance to finally be with what people consider a soulmate and grow happily in love. That sort of thing didn’t happen often in this world anymore, so like hell was she gonna let it get away from her now. “ I like the idea of a lifetime spent kissing you.” She whispered, her body finding comfort while wrapped up against his own. Olivia never understood the word presence until they were together. Leon had taken up so much of her heart and mind that when they were finally together, it was like the world faded to black and it was just the two of them. She felt so strongly for him and it was crazy to think that after all this time, they had finally found their way back home. As he told her she deserved him, Olivia remained quiet. Her smile growing wide despite not fully believing it. But the moment was too pure and perfect for her to fight back or disagree. All she wanted right now was to just enjoy this with him. “Me too. I’m happy to be home.” Because truth be told, he was her home. Had been since they were kids and still was now. Neither of them had the best of family life at their actual homes, so instead, they made one together. As she then spoke, she continued to mock his movements by pressing her lips roughly to his. The intensity was more powerful than any of their past kisses before. This time it was fueled by so much more. By love, happiness, assurance, and desire. It was the solidifying factor that this was real and that despite everything, they were doing this again... and this time, this time it was going to work. “I love you, Leon,” she managed to push out in between breaths. Her voice husky and labored, all because she was now getting lost in the feeling of them coming together as one but she couldn’t help herself in saying those three words. Like an anthem, she now had on repeat and never wanted to stop saying. 

After all that she had done to him and the pushing him away, hurting him, tormenting him here there... it was surprising he’d ever put himself in this position again. There one too many years apart were spent with Olivia being nothing but a downright brat to him. She did everything she could for a while there to convince him that she hated him, hoping that at the end of the day, he’d hate her back and forget all about her. Clearly, however, what they felt for one another was too strong to let die since they were back here again. Even if years ago it would’ve been considered just teenage love, they could happily say now that it was much, much more than that. “At least you know now that that isn’t the case. I’ve always wanted you. It’s always been you, Leon. I just don’t want what happened to everyone else in my life that I love, to happen to you. So, you gotta promise me you’re not going anywhere.” It was like the thought of losing Sullivan. She couldn’t bear the idea. And if something were to happen to either of them, Olivia wouldn’t know what to do. Every part of her would shatter on the spot because that’s how much they meant to her. So while she was overjoyed right now, it was still risky to put herself out there and love him when she worried that everything she touched, died. However, it was hard to focus on that when he spoke again and the words of him loving her came pouring out. At that moment, her heart stopped for a second. The sound of him saying that had been nothing more than a memory and to hear it again left her feeling weak. She couldn’t even find the right words to say. Her mind racing and heart pounding. Olivia felt over the moon and it was all because of him. For a moment, she just sat there with her forehead pressed against his and a huge grin growing effortlessly. It took a second but once she processed that this was real, she finally managed to speak up. “I love you too, Leon. I never stopped... even when I knew I didn’t deserve you, I never stopped loving you.” She finally admitted before breaking the last bit of proximity between them and pressing her lips to his in a hard, passionate kiss. 

She couldn’t help the small string of laughter that fell from her lips at his statement. In the midst of such a serious conversation for them, she still found herself chuckling softly at how much power she had over him physically. And truthfully, it only made her want him even more. The fact that he was feeling the exact same she was. Because god everything he was doing was killing her. Leon was so damn intoxicating and the fact that they were back in one another arms was the most addicting feeling in the world. Even more so when he began to speak, and it was like her towering walls were ready to just tumble over. He was the reason she put them up, to begin with. The lost of their child and the fear he’d hate her drove Olivia to do things she never wanted to do. Made her crazy and willing to cut off everything good. But now the good was back in her life and she’d be a damn fool to ever walk away from this again. “I’ve wanted it too, Leon. I was just too scared to let myself accept the fact that I am and always will be in love with you. But I’ve been done being scared since I told you about our child... and ever since then... god, ever since then I’ve been waiting for you to just say something. To tell me that you still love me or even just that you want to be with me.” After all, he was the one who got burned in her fire. He ended up with the broken heart, so it was his call to say something whereas Olivia didn’t want to overstep—despite doing that anyway. “So I guess what I’m trying to say is that yes, I’ll have you again and this time... this time I’m not letting you go.” 

“Well, which one is it? You want to hear about how badly I want to take you into my mouth? Or ride you until we’re both sore? Or would you rather I just rip your clothes off right here and risk putting on a show for whoever walks through that door next?” A devious smirk was quick to take residence on her features. Her body then moving in closer to his; hips rocking just a bit to add even the slightest bit of tension. Truthfully, this wasn’t all she wanted out of this weekend, but damn was it hard not to end up in this position. They had spent years apart and now that she had tasted his lips once more, trying to hold back from devouring him each time she saw him, proved to be rather difficult. But as much as she wanted it right now and as aroused as she was getting in the moment, she had other matters to address. It was a bit nerve-wracking too. Putting her heart out on the line was something Olivia swore she’d never do again. But then Leon waltzed back into her life and suddenly the idea of being without him was one she didn’t want to keep living with. Because truth be told, but Leon was it for her. At least, that’s what it felt like. It felt as though the universe was fighting for them to be together and this was their second chance. So now that the topic was up in the air between them and they were finally approaching the conversation, Olivia was quick to run with it. “Yeah, I guess that’s one way to put it.” The brunette chuckled, nodding her head up and down softly as she brushed her lips against his own. His words did nothing but add a huge smile on her face, and soon the hold she had on him became slightly tighter. “Really? You sure? I mean... after everything we’ve been through... or well, everything I put you through... you sure you’re willing to risk that again? As amazing as this has been, are you certain you’d want to go down this road with me? Not saying we have to... well, do that or anything. Maybe I’m overstepping or being dumb by even suggesting but I don’t know. I just—I like the idea of doing this with you whenever we want. But also doing other things... like waking up next to you and going out to dinner with you or anything, really.” 

“Mmm, I think you can guess that one. Unless you want to hear me talk about all the dirty things I want to do to you in here.” It had been pretty obvious with what happened every time they hung out since the night at her place. The two couldn’t keep their hands off one another. Like they were still rediscovering every inch of their bodies over and over again. Maybe it was because sex was easier in their current situation. It complicated things, yes, but they didn’t have to talk about it. It wasn’t until they put their feelings out there did things get difficult... because then there was the fear of rejection and truthfully, Olivia wasn’t sure if she could handle any sort of rejection from him. “No, I knew you would. I just like the reassurance,” she then giggled, lips still moving against his and heavy breathing escaping through as much as it could. She sat right on top of him, one leg on each side and chest to his. Being this close was comforting. She felt safe and dare she say it, but she was pretty damn happy right now. Even more so when he started admitting things she never thought she’d hear again. “Oh yeah? Well, why don’t we start making a habit of this?” As she spoke, she then let go of his lips slightly but kept the proximity close and her tone came to a whisper. “And I’m not talking about just the making out and sex.. but I don’t know. Maybe something more.”