the illusion of a new beginning

Having a fixation and special interest on a topic that's not a piece of media and is also a real problem that affects people means that talking about your interest is a very very delicate thing. My number 1 topic under the psychology umbrella that I like to research and study and am planning on doing my thesis on is eating disorders. But I really can't say things like "I've been thinking a lot about eating disorders recently" (people will be concerned), or "does anyone want to hear a statistic I just learned about purging disorders" (people usually don't) or "I've been really into restrictive tendencies in religious psychosis lately" (you just can't be saying that at the social function)

Bringing this back because I just had a horribly stressful busy day and I finally got to sit down and scroll through research articles about eating disorder treatments (which is my way of transitioning from work to home and relaxing into my bedtime routine) and I almost went to post "save me eating disorders. Save me". GIRL YOU ABSOLUTELY CANNOT BE SAYING THINGS LIKE THAT PLEASE

i was crazy back then (8 minutes ago)

I mean surely we all grew up feeling like there was a wrongness inherently deep inside us that will endure for the rest of our lives

hi

actually i want to be alone rn

no i dont... hi

i think i might need to be on my own rn