I'm old!

In retrospective making my own template was a terrible idea, it looks so poor, but my creativity might as well be a blank white void when it comes to backgrounds

So I don't feel like yapping tomorrow (especially bc its new years so posting when im spending time with family is tragic). So I will do it today when ppl are still online.

I think it's kinda obvious seeing my art evolution compared to 2024, since most of it was drawn on my phone till September. There is a clear difference in style (heck I didn't even knew about multiply tool or other features till like May or august or so of that year...). I was dummy back then and didnt knew what i was doing-

While just looking 2025, at first glance it barely shows my art progression this year? January doesn't count bc I only had 3 shitty doodles (it was exams period). And bc I'm just choosing the "best one" all the ugly shit with weird proportions, poses, lighting, lack of shading or other defects aren't present. When they are a majority of the art I made during the first months of 2025, they exist, I'm aware of them and saw them, but cherry picking the best ones does this 💀

Personally, while it doesn't show it that well, the tip point where my art started getting better this year was around art fight (july). Ever since then I have been basically drawing almost every single week or daily. I think my improvements were mostly anatomy wise, poses and the other small things like the way I draw Bonbon. (her hair and bunny ears evolved a lot). Coloring, I experimented with water color for few times but that didn't stick with that style since it feels limited on how I want things to look. In other words my shading style has been kinda stuck ever since I improved a little when I experimented with krita, but I think it looks good, so its alright I just wanted it to be faster lmao.

What I might look forward next year is maybe improving my lighting color choices? That december art with my sona and lighting I have a big spot for it in my heart, to the point im using it as pfp and I want to repeat it again in the future. I got an idea for a next artwork for something sad, but it will be for next year.

TW: slight flashing colors in timelapse

(ignore how I struggle on. like. everything in the timelapse haha- also im SO SORRY for the low quality, tumblr wont let me change the file to a higher quality one)

I spent around 37hrs total on this, which makes it the LONGEST time I've ever spent on one drawing . I'm not completely satisfied with it since the lighting is probably not my best work, but if I spend anymore time trying to make it perfect I will go insane.

I took inspiration from the game's box art for season 1 but with my own sorta spin. Decided to go with the main threats of the season looming above the portal gang, and while the perspective was hard to draw, it was a lot of fun!!!

Admittedly though, this has left me with a little drawing burnout since I've been working on it practically non-stop, so I'll probably be focusing more on some writing stuff for now.

Now to get into some sappy stuff: I wanna say that genuinely, this game is probably one of the reasons I'm still around today. It's helped me through some really bad depression spirals and playing through it (especially season 1) has always helped me ground myself when I'm having a panic attack. And maybe it's a little corny, but the thought process "Jesse wouldn't give up" has gotten me through a lot of tough times.

I'm really grateful this game exists, because I'm not sure where I'd be if it didn't.

And I know I've said it before, but I wanna say it again, thank you to the fandom for being such amazing people!! and thank you to everyone who's left comments and likes on my art!! It means the world to me, I cannot express that enough ❤️