heyy heyyy heyyy!!!!!!!

i'd like to give a reward to sunny cooking with kindness for being the first fallen human with a JOB!!!!!!! that contributes to MONSTER SOCIETY!!!!!!

urghththhhhh i feel like such an uncharasmatic loser all the time all day forever since the dawn of time its really bad it really sucks to be this way i hope you decide to keep liking me anyway urghhhhhhhh

i will always lock in and i will never not lock in even if it all hurts!!!!!!

im surrounded by so many interesting and talented people but im so scared of really befriending them or getting to know them. its such a cliche but its like i'd rather keep everyone around me at an arms length than have to face the chances of a falling out. but i feel so lonely. and anxious. i want to know they like me. or what they think about my art. or what other things we could have in common. but i havent been built for those kinds of relationships in a long time.... i get nauseous and i. start feeling crazy. next thing you know im driving them away from me. i dunno. im not well. i just feel really sad. hopefully i feel better soon. its just going to hurt a lot until tgen