Things He didn’t Say
Warning: It contained a mom-child abusive relationship.
Rate: M18
Usagi no Mori (c) Enjo
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Holiday had just come and Shunta felt so annoyed because he couldn’t even meet his lover for not even a day. Whenever he forced Tamaki to come to his home even not for having a sleepover, his proposal would get rejected. “I don’t believe you. In the end you’ll just lock the door then throw me to your bed and then I’m being forced to sleep in your room.” That’s how Tamaki rejected him.
They have hugged, kissed--French Kiss for several times even Shunta couldn’t counted it any more, and have done sex once. Their relationship has been going well for three months. But why does Tamaki still give a distance to him? He couldn’t even understand it and the more he became curious, Shunta just couldn’t hold back his sexual desire towards Tamaki. It’s kinda frustrating for him but he couldn’t resist the fact that he enjoys Tamaki’s unsure face.
However, Shunta feels uneasy about the absence of Tamaki’s figure in his holiday. Even though five days have only passed, he feels like he has missed Tamaki for five years. Tamaki rejected his proposal, rejected his call, and rarely replied to his chat. It’s frustrating.
Super frustrating.
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“Say, Tamaki. You love Mom, don’t you?”
“Yes, I do,” Tamaki answered with a shaking voice.
“Then how can Shii-kun become the one who you chat with the most?” his mom kept asking him while scrolling on his phone. “You did sleep with him several times, huh? How can he shamelessly take a photo of you two being naked?”
Tamaki has nothing to say. He’s too afraid of his mother right now. He should have noticed the reason why his mother didn’t go anywhere since yesterday. His mom even asked him to bathe together in the tub last night. She didn’t allow him to work today and even didn’t allow him to get out of his room. He only got permission to use the toilet if he got a permission.
His mom handed back his phone then looked out for something from his wardrobe. Tamaki really wanted to escape but his body kept trembling. He wasn't even sure that he could stand up now. His mom took out his uniform’s tie. “Come forward, seat still, and put your hands behind your lower back,” she ordered. Tamaki couldn’t resist but followed his mom’s order.
The women started to tie his son’s hands tightly. Tamaki moaned because he felt the pain. “You love Mom, don’t you? Then your love must only be served for Mom,” she said as she stared at her son angrily. “Even Shii-kun shouldn’t have it.” She bit Tamaki’s neck then left the room.
Tamaki took a deep sigh. He felt kinda relaxed now. He’s still afraid though and his mom has just tied him tightly. He didn’t even have the courage to move from his place even for an inch. His mom came again and this time she brought a rope which Tamaki didn’t even know where she found it. The woman tied her son’s ankles as tight as she tied the tie to her son’s hands. “Mom, I love you. Really. I’m not lying,” said Tamaki.
His mom hugged him then suddenly kissed his lips. She stared at Tamaki's face intensely. Her fingers kept touching her son’s abs and crawled to the top. It made Tamaki feel worse. “Mom… I love you… I really am. I do love you,” he said. He almost cried. “I love you… I’m sorry,” he became more frightened towards his mom’s treath. The woman has no will to stop. She bit Tamaki’s neck again and again. Tamaki moaned in pain. “Mom, I love you,” he cried and his voice became hoarse.
“Did he use his tongue when he kissed you?”
Tamaki nodded weakly.
“I’ll clean his saliva from your mouth then.”
Tamaki resisted his mom weakly but he couldn’t win over her. His mom kept playing her hand over his body moving up to down then moving up again and rubbed his chest. He moaned and tried to breath. Slowly his vision became blurry. He felt his body burning. His head got so heavy. And he lost his consciousness while his head fell to his mom’s shoulder.
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Being able to see Tamaki’s face is a great chance that Shunta would ever have. He almost died because he couldn’t meet his lover for a week. “My dick exploded and you weren’t there, just how cruel you really are to me,” he said deadpanned. He’s too happy to see his lover even though the park lamp is not bright. His eyes still can see that flawless face skin clearly.
Tamaki looked guilty. “Aw, I’m sorry to hear that. So you don’t have a dick now?”
“It was a metaphore, you Dumb!” Shunta replied. Without any thought, he licked Tamaki’s lip. He hoped that his lover would let his tongue in. He felt sick. A week was too much for him. “Open it, Tamaki!”
The other boy shook his head but Shunta kept forcing him. He tickled Tamaki’s nap. “Stop it!” Tamaki protested but Shunta didn’t even care. He gave more pressure to Tamaki, he pushed him to the wall, locked his body by his arm. Another arm locked Tamaki’s hip. He bit Tamaki’s neck and when the boy moaned in pain, he forced his tongue in. He finally got his French kiss even though it was less than a minute.
“Why?” Shunta asked.
“Please don’t do it,” Tamaki replied. “Shii, I beg you.”
The two boys exchanged a stare. Shunta felt his chest had just burnt. He caught a sorrowful look on his lover’s eyes. “Okay,” he gave up. “Then what can I do or rather be allowed to do?” he asked, half stressed.
“You are not permitted to touch me tonight,” Tamaki said.
“Why are you being so mean? I haven’t seen you this entire week-”
“But please let me sleep in your room tonight,” Tamaki cut Shunta’s words.
“Huh?” Shunta mumbled while trying to process Tamaki’s words. “Sleep on my bed. With me,” he ordered a deal.
“Yeah, I will.”
“Half naked.”
“Yeah, I will,” Tamaki replied while throwing his face. “But don’t you dare to do nasty things to me. I beg you. I really beg you,” he added quickly.
“Does that mean I’m allowed to cuddle you?”
“Yes. No more than that,” said Tamaki, pissed. “Can we go to your home now? I’m tired.”
“Have you told your Mom?” Shunta asked but Tamaki remained in silence. “Okay, let’s back home. Can we hold hands?”
Tamaki looked really pissed. “You asked so many things! I’ve told you to not touch me tonight,” he offered his hand, “Here.”
Shunta held his lover’s hand tightly as if he’s afraid that he could lose him right away if he didn’t do that. “I love you, Tamaki. I really do love you.”
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I just known this manga for two days and got surprised when I found a place to order the tankobon, still thinking about it though. I kept wondering about what kind of relationship does Tamaki and his mom have. I meant, yeah it’s a toxic one, and somehow it remained me with a Japanese film titled “Mother” so I wrote this fanfic and imagining about what kind of respond will Tamaki’s mom give if she knows that his son has a love (?) relationship with other people.
