AFTERGLOW

optimization makes so many things better and safer and easier, but we also lose so much sauce and juice. like how every car now is a ridiculous jelly bean because it's all crumple zone so you can flip your car 6 times going 80 mph and walk away from the accident, but the price you pay is that your car is a big dumb jelly bean, and we will never look as cool as they did in the 70s, when 1 milliom people died every day bc they got distracted lighting their daughter's cigarette for her and drove their 10,000 pound oldsmobile cutlass through the steel railing of a bridge and instantly sank to the bottom of a river

one day, i hope to be moved from your downloads folder into somewhere more deliberate

it’s not ‘talking to myself’ it’s called a soliloquy you fuck

not doomed by the narrative but saved by the narrative. yeah i know you'd rather die than keep suffering but the story doesn't actually care what you want. you have to keep going, even when it hurts. even being erased from existence won't stop you from being salvaged from the wreckage of un-being. get up. keep pushing. keep bleeding. keep living.

not photogenic but i probably look sooo good as a distant memory

I never got over anything. I miss everyone and everything. nostalgia and grief kill me every day. oh and I also love going on walks.

Orgasm denial. Orgasm anger. Orgasm bargaining. Orgasm depression. Orgasm acceptance.

bitch this IS the journal factory