I’m numb and burnt out. I want to die but I have no energy to do anything about it. I feel so alone and lost. I feel like I’m drowning. I can feel and see everyone around me functioning properly but my insides are screaming. I want to scream at every person that can’t see the pain in my eyes. I want the pain to end

Mental illness took so much away from me, sometimes I wish it would have taken my life as well

Listen. Do it for the aesthetic. If you want to fill an entire 20 dollar sketchbook with anatomy drawings fucling do it. If you wanna get lost in the woods and come stumbling home with a bag of dried mushrooms and bones you go goblin dude. You aren't alive to go to work and hurt!! You're alive because bumblebees bump into little flowers and dandelions only open up in the sun! You're alive because cats purr when you pet them and coffee keeps you up all night!! Do everything for the aesthetic!!