Looking up at the stars

one thing you need to know about me is that i am constantly having insane galaxy genius ancient greek philosopher level thoughts about everything ever all the time but before leaving my mouth they get filtered through seven layers of autism and come out sounding like a youtube comment made by a nine year old

That's me, your honour.

"omg you remembered!" of course i did. I have a file on you

neil with his binder

Neil making a photo album/junk journal of his memories at Palmetto but it's built exactly like his stalker journal

What a beautiful octopus.

Neil Josten trying to fit himself through that window

Christine Baranski's version of Does Your Mother Know in Mamma Mia! (2008) rb if you agree

When Andrew and Neil get married (for tax purposes and so they can get into eachothers hospital rooms, no other reason of course) they tell Wymack first by simply saying that they need to update their paperwork and Wymack is confused but then he is the proudest damn father because those are his kids finally being able to be with eachother without worrying about backlash or danger

blue sargent having inherited intractable lesbian je nais sais quoi is such a dear concept to me as a girl who also has an extensive network of gay-passing female relatives. i know in my heart blue sargent has had to come out as liking men. blue sargent talks about her boyfriend and people do a double take.... walking out of her painted lady victorian house with her thrifted doc martens and crochet market bag and sashiko jeans looking like the human embodiment of the city of portland and then going to meet her boyfriend Normal Richard? it does not compute. when gansey and blue go places together people assume gansey is her tall man-shaped butch because no other explanation makes sense. the lesbian vibe is so strong it affects the world like a gravity field it actively makes the people around her look gayer by association. if ganseyronanadam go places together people think they're weirdly codependent straight guys. if BLUEganseyronanadam go places together people assume they're a polycule on their way to the farmer's market to sell zines

has anyone figured out how to turn off the thing where you love your pet so much it slides inexorably into grief-borrowing

“For me this glass is already broken. I enjoy it; I drink out of it. It holds my water admirably, sometimes even reflecting the sun in beautiful patterns. If I should tap it, it has a lovely ring to it. But when I put this glass on the shelf and the wind knocks it over or my elbow brushes it off the table and it falls to the ground and shatters, I say, ‘Of course.’ When I understand that the glass is already broken, every moment with it is precious.”

no but imagine being the Palmetto State track team coach and learning about this kid who can run a mile in four minutes and so you go and check it out but surprise surprise the exy coach from the shit exy team has him already so you try to negotiate for the player because he might be the fastest kid you’ve ever seen but the exy coach keeps saying no and no and so you watch this kid that can RUN THE MILE IN FOUR MINUTES become the fastest exy player in history and you’re sobbing falling to your knees because you could’ve had him in the track team winning you gold medals in the olympics but instead you just stare from your campus office as this redhead short exy obsessed kid runs laps around the entire uni campus for hours on end without getting tired and just wishes all hell on exy