If I could, I would apologize to the sky and my room ceiling for all of the nights I’ve awkwardly stared at them remembering things I should have forgotten.

he’s talking to me about the peace found in forgiving and the importance in loving the unlovable from a distance.

He was not my boyfriend. On the other hand, he wasn’t just a friend either. Instead, our relationship was elastic, stretching between those two extremes depending on who else was around, how much either of us had to drink, and other varying factors. This was exactly what I wanted, as commitments had never really been my thing. And it wasn’t like it was hard, either. The only trick was never giving more than you were willing to lose.

Someone who wants the best for you is what’s best for you.

“ Stop stressing over it, just let it be, everything will be ok. ”

He made me laugh harder than I had in a long time. That was when I knew I wanted to be with him, it just felt right. But I was terrified because you used to make me laugh like that, and look how we ended up.

I know that the whole point—the only point—is to find the things that matter, and hold on to them, and fight for them, and refuse to let them go.

I wasn’t actually in love, but I felt a sort of tender curiosity.