Musings

My music is very important to me, which is why the album that Evan and I had most recently completed was a concept album, one that drew from many influences. The album is about a man who has found love, but is still striving for more out of life than the monotony of day in and day out life. His dreams direct him to what he is destined for; he sees the “Phoenix” constellation in the sky. “Phoenix” is the symbol for rebirth and he comes to the conclusion that his dream to visit space has never died. He is conflicted to say the least; he has the love of his life on earth and his dreams are millions of miles away. He bids his love farewell at Gate 17 in preparation for training. After weeks of training, he has become very distraught. He misses his lover and wishes she would come with him. After some affectionate words comes a fight. He feels she does not understand the emptiness he felt before deciding to go on this mission and she feels that he does not understand how empty it makes her feel to be left alone. On the day he is to embark on his mission, he waits to see her face one last time before he departs, but she never shows. Upon launch, he is filled with a mixture of anticipation and sadness. He gazes into the sky and all he can see is her. After hours of misery, he decides to take a tour on the ship to try and get things off his mind, but cannot seem to. He begins to fantasize about her and feels as if he cannot go on without her. He begins to search the ship for any shred of her presence and discovers that she had snuck onto the ship. The joy that he feels seeing her again is cut short; the ship has been struck with an asteroid. The ship is ripped into pieces and their bodies are flung into the endlessness that is space. They are unable to fight the impact of the crash and are torn from each other’s arms. All they can do is gaze at one another as gravity consumes them. He has a hard time accepting that she is gone and he will likely die as well. His senses begin to fail as he begins to lose his equilibrium. He begins to ponder the meaning of his existence and why he chose his dreams over his lover. He is furious as he comes to the realization that he could have led an acceptable life on earth with her if he had just stayed. The only solace left was his imminent death. His last sight is “Deimos” as he takes his last breath. After hours of suffering, he has found Moksha in death. Thank you to those who have read the story. ~Bret. P.S. -The album is available on bandcamp ($7) and iTunes ($10) for sale as well.

http://psyrin.bandcamp.com