i always feel lost
i just don’t know how people navigate this world, it’s so hard!! i have been trying all my life but somehow i just get worse at everything
i don’t know how to go places, get information, get to know people…i feel like i can never do anything by myself, without anyone’s help
i see people around me doing stuff, asking the right questions, figuring things out alone, and i just can’t. i don’t know how!!
and i know that everyone feels lost and a lot of people just “fake it until they make it”, but it’s not like this. when my friends feel lost or don’t know how to do something, it just seems like they know something i don’t because i know that if i were in their situations i would never be able to work it out. somehow they always know who to talk to or where to go.
i can’t explain it but everything is so complicated and intimidating. SO INTIMIDATING. my therapist keeps saying that most people are also just as lost as i am, but she doesn’t really understand just how hard things are and just how absolutely lost i always feel. it’s like everyone is always three steps ahead of me, even though they just got there like me.
and it’s like this for every single thing, academics wise, socializing, navigating the world in general… i’m just so tired of being like this
