the whole buffet

i think he has alot of moral ocd i feel like one of his most persistent ones is the idea somebody is gonna get hurt because of him either that he'll hurt them or fail to stop them from getting hurt... i think even pre cataclysm in the royal guard this was bad for him. probably started in childhood and i think becoming a knight Did Not Help

something bad happens that he literally could not prevent and he's like "this is somehow my fault and just another reason i'm a horrible person"

came about during the nod krai archon quest, during the scene in rerir's memories where ved dain and rerir are all sitting together. during that there's a distinct line where dain notices that ved's acting weird. given the fact that they were close + dain is generally an observant person + he was able to notice just a slight change in the way his brother was acting.

the idea that dain wouldve had to have noticed something was wrong with ved but didnt do anything... probably kept apart by having to focus on his job in the royal guard (given that khaenriah was in a time of yknow political unrest and they both had government jobs) and by the time he realized it was Too Late

on what i think that's like for him/his obsessions: ved definitely has the type of ocd where he like. i think largely they went both undiagnosed and this sort of impacted their like personal life and relationship but also i think ved Knew he had ocd. to me he feels like he wouldve fixated on researching and hyper analyzing himself trying to figure out What Is Wrong With Him and trying to compartmentalize and put a label on everything... im not sure if he wouldve had doubts about "but what if i'm Wrong." but i think he might've occassionally... which would lead to periods where he would repeat this. again.

do you have something human left in you, Dain?

2/15 Taste

der ring des nibelungen 💫

thoughts without Blorbo: oh my god I was so cringe in seventh grade why did I do that