Little imperfections

I smell the night sky I taste the stars as they burn this night is a treat

“I remember crying over you and I don’t mean a couple of tears and I’m blue. I’m talking about collapsing and screaming at the moon.”

I can see that you never miss me,

365 days ago you told me you didn’t love me any more. 216 days ago I laid on the bathroom floor crying out to the night 172 days ago I fell asleep in class because I had thought of you all night 154 days ago I saw you in the street looking unaffected by my absence 136 days ago I vowed to move on 120 days ago I broke down in tears on the train 107 days ago I went our favourite cafe and it felt like you were there 98 days ago I found a letter you wrote me and I cried myself to sleep 90 days ago I deleted every picture of us from my phone 88 days ago I kissed a boy for the first time since you 87 days ago I cried from feeling like I betrayed myself and you 76 days ago I messaged you at 2am telling you I miss you 75 days ago I deleted your number when you hadn’t responded 74 days ago I found your number again and re-added it to my contacts 73 days ago I cried alone in my car 72 days ago I promised myself again to move on 50 days ago I thought about you but continued on with my day 38 days ago I threw out your shirt that I slept in every night 19 days ago I accepted that we were over 10 days ago I didn’t crumble when I heard your name 4 days ago I felt okay for the first time in a long time 2 days ago you messaged me saying you missed me 216 days ago, I would have run straight back into your arms But today I was able to smile at all you had taught me, and delete your number.